The Coffee Shop (3)

[katey]

 

[anteloperunner]

I'm sorry you guys had to have that happen to you too.

/me looks at the clock and realizes it is going to be another long night

 

[katey]

i had a very very long night didnt sleep at all last night. was tryin to sort my head out had to ring my crisis number twice.

so am feelign slightly drained this morning. so need a big pick me up drink that doesnt involve caffeine, any ideas??

 

[beckybooiloveu]

Hi all,
wow... i have missed sooo much this week! huge huge hugs... a big topic seems to be uni... *HUGE HUGE HUGS* for all of you... just remember once you have finished you can settle down into a career and everything... and you will never have to study again... *fingers Crossed!*
speaking of uni, i just enrolled in my uni courses for the year... i am studying, Genetics and Evolution, Animal Biology, General Chemistry and Physical Basis of Biological systems... should be a nice easy semester to start off with...

Bec. It's way early there!! Wow. Breakfast is good. And have fun at work... *more hugs*

/me does a little celebratory dance because she's finished her homework!!

yay! well done on finishing your homework! i hope u gave urself a treat after that!

hmmm... nah, bec doesnt like breakfast... it makes me feel quite ill... for the whole day... it makes me have stabbing pains the my side... so wen i dont have to eat it i try to avoid it...

I guess I probably should throw those way but I just can't bring myself to do it. And I really want them...I'm so tired. One or two cant hurt too much.

I might try to eat something later but that will require going and buying food which i would rather not do right now.

As for why I couldn't sleep...It was a very rough night last night.
(Possibly the worst flashback I have had since I started treatment)

HUGE HUGE HUGS!!! please try to throw them away and try to eat something. the energy you can get from good food is sooo sooo soooo much better than the energy from caffiene tablets...

things are going so awful...*cries* I hate this so much....

hang in there sweetie

I'm doing okay today, I guess. It's been kind of a bad day, period started last night so I feel like a grumpy bear, and I hate the class that I had today ... and I'm worried about my classes tomorrow. There is so much that I need to do for everything and my head's so full of things that I can't cram any more damn psych into it.

But other than uni, I'm good. *unconvincing sheepish laugh*

try to take things one at a time and make sure you give your self a break from studying at regular intervals... to allow information to settle in your brain so you will ahve more room!

I hate having stuff to do ALL THE TIME.
And I hate my professors.
And I hate my classes.

Shoot me now.

i could never shoot yoU!

Tonight I don't have any (much) homework. Which is a nice surprise. I do have homework that I should do, though, although it isn't due for another week. Heh. Always bad to procrastinate, so I'd best get cracking on that 5 page paper unless I want my weekend to be rubbish, like last weekend was. *gag*

Man. Uni ... definitely a depressing topic.

Let's see... cheerful topic... ummm...
OH! How many of you guys (girls, I mean) have snow??
It's been flurrying here for like... five days, and I don't get how we only have half an inch. Can anyone figure that one out for me?

hmmm... i want snow!!! its soooo sooo hot here... its gross... lol

 

[katey]

i take it you like science?? i used to love science.

 

[Soulwings]

Allison. I'm sorry about that stuff - I know what it's like to have a rough semester - last spring I was trying to "recover" (unsuccessfully) from an eating disorder, was still cutting, and on top of all the psychological rubbish, was doing 15 credits, half of which were science. I ended up in the psych ward at the end of the semester - in May - due to extreme suicidality etc. Actually, I went in there for a week, came out for ten days, during which time I was supposed to take one of the exams that I missed, and then went back in again due to the same thing. I had to get a withdrawal from all my classes, which really set me behind (at least in my eyes). So anyway ... I can empathise. And I'm so sorry about your friend I haven't been watching the news (we don't have tv) ... but I will keep you and him in my prayers.

/me hugs Bec and Katey.
Bec, sounds like you love science! and those courses do sound very interesting... I think I'd be over-scienced though

And Katey, how're you doing today? *hugs* And chai, chai is a delicious hot tea-drink without much caffeine - depends if it's black or green chai -... very good. *wants some* Hehe.

How is everyone doing this afternoon??

I'm so glad it's Thursday, because that means it's almost Friday, which means it's almost the weekend. And weekend means no classes!!! Heh, I'm a smart one, I am.

 

[katey]

a chai sounds great thanks. i'm not that good today, had a very rough night and the day didnt get much beter at all. have to go and see my doctor tomorrow and am not looking forward to it at all.

yeah i was in hsoptail when i was supposed to be sitting my exams last year and ended up not doing any of them and not gettin the grades i need to do what i wanted to do. i cant go back there either because it was my last year of 6th form.

 

[anteloperunner]

speaking of uni, i just enrolled in my uni courses for the year... i am studying, Genetics and Evolution, Animal Biology, General Chemistry and Physical Basis of Biological systems... should be a nice easy semester to start off with...


HUGE HUGE HUGS!!! please try to throw them away and try to eat something. the energy you can get from good food is sooo sooo soooo much better than the energy from caffiene tablets...

Wow that is too much science classes for me. One science class a semester is plenty for me. I much prefer my engineering classes.

The pills are gone now and I'm trying to stick to my meal plan even though it is really hard.

Allison. I'm sorry about that stuff - I know what it's like to have a rough semester - last spring I was trying to "recover" (unsuccessfully) from an eating disorder, was still cutting, and on top of all the psychological rubbish, was doing 15 credits, half of which were science. I ended up in the psych ward at the end of the semester - in May - due to extreme suicidality etc. Actually, I went in there for a week, came out for ten days, during which time I was supposed to take one of the exams that I missed, and then went back in again due to the same thing. I had to get a withdrawal from all my classes, which really set me behind (at least in my eyes). So anyway ... I can empathise. And I'm so sorry about your friend I haven't been watching the news (we don't have tv) ... but I will keep you and him in my prayers.

I'm okay. I honestly don't think this semester can be any worse than last semester. I did back down to 12 hours this semester instead of the 18 i had last. But thanks for the prayer.

I'm sorry all that junk had to happen to you.

I'm tired of thinking about uni. Today was a good day and talking about school is bring me down. Sometimes friends just make things better. (A friend of mine who paints cars for a living took my crutches and painted them orange with a fire pattern on them; it looks awesome)

/me goes to play with her dogs

 

[katey]

to anyone who wants one.

hope everyones ok. i'm going to try and get some sleep. if my brain remembers what that is.

nyt nyt everyone xx

 

[BrokenForHim]

soo...I'm sick, and have another exam in the morning...and then after that I'm going to get my tongue done...FINALLY!!! hmm...things haven't been going good...pretty rotten...but thats life

 

[Soulwings]

Allison. I'm taking 12 credits as well. And yey for meal plans... I'm on one too and I'm thinking that my metabolism is royally screwed up. I'm supposed to be losing some of the fat weight that I put on a year ago when I went into "recovery" ... and I'm not losing even though I'm doing an hour of hard exercise a day. And it sucks.

And I got into a disagreement thing with my fiance, and drained him, and I feel really bad about that. I hate hurting him, I hate making him feel stressed and worried and drained, and I HATE being a burden to him. And that's all I seem to ever do.

How are you all?

/me curls up in the darkest corner and hides from life.

 

[katey]

hugs to everyone this morning.

my bodiy seems to be like that at the moment because of the meds i was on in hsopital i put weight on and have been tryin 2 lift it so bady and it just wasnt doing n e thing but its going now but i think thats got more 2 do with the fact that am not eating, than n e thing else.

i know you feel like your a burden to him but your not, if you where that much of a burden and hurting him that much, he wouldnt still be with you.


i'm not too good today. lack of sleep again isnt helping. have had a really bad week. but yesterday just seemed to top it all of. never mind

 

[Celtic Camel]

hey beautiful friends!
sending out to everyone...whether you think you need them or not... (probably cause I could use one tonight)...
sounds like things have been pretty stressful for everyone the last few days... I'll be that it gets better for each of you...
makes my things seem so trivial tonight...
but I'm gonna ask anyway, just cause maybe by writing them down they'll get out of my head...
firstly, I have this friend who I spend quite a bit of time with, and everytime I drive somewhere with her, whether it takes 15 minutes, or 2 hours, she falls asleep... makes the trips kinda lonely... do you think it's wrong of me to be getting annoyed about it? (I've tried taking it as a compliment that she feels safe with my driving, considering I've only been driving for a year and it still terrifies me, but that's not cutting it any more)
secondly, and I'm just throwing this out there... would you find a friend who tries to be self-sufficient when she visits boring/annoying/whatever? I only ask, because whenever I stay with friends, I take my own sleeping bad, and pretty much provide everything I need... and I'm wondering how that affects my friendships...
lastly, and I don't know if this makes any sense, but tonight my eyes are sad...
can't really explain it... just maybe I want to cry for no reason, there's a deep sad feeling behind my eyes, even though the last few days have been pretty good (especially the Third Day concert last night)...
anyway, I know I'm babbling, so will go hide in a distant corner and ponder life and maybe read for a bit...


April... please don't hide from life... you're too precious to do that

all my love & prayers
lisa

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i take it you like science?? i used to love science.

hmmm... im not sure if i like science heaps or not lol... im silly... i honestly have never taken a sinlge biology subject in my life so that should be interesting!

/me hugs Bec and Katey.
Bec, sounds like you love science! and those courses do sound very interesting... I think I'd be over-scienced though

I'm so glad it's Thursday, because that means it's almost Friday, which means it's almost the weekend. And weekend means no classes!!! Heh, I'm a smart one, I am.

hahah... yay... weekend... lol... hmm... yes it is alot of science... which will be different to my usual over load of music! lol...

Wow that is too much science classes for me. One science class a semester is plenty for me. I much prefer my engineering classes.

The pills are gone now and I'm trying to stick to my meal plan even though it is really hard.

I'm okay. I honestly don't think this semester can be any worse than last semester. I did back down to 12 hours this semester instead of the 18 i had last. But thanks for the prayer.

I'm sorry all that junk had to happen to you.

I'm tired of thinking about uni. Today was a good day and talking about school is bring me down. Sometimes friends just make things better. (A friend of mine who paints cars for a living took my crutches and painted them orange with a fire pattern on them; it looks awesome)

/me goes to play with her dogs

*Throws a ball for the dogs... *hmmm... lol... ill probs get scienced out but if its wat i gotta do i gotta do it! lol
im glad the pills are gone... just try your hardest to stick to your meal plan... keep reminding yourself it was designed to help you!
good on you for lightening the load... i think im going to die... i jsut counted up my hours... and i hvae 23 on campus hours... i dont know if that is alot or not... is it?

soo...I'm sick, and have another exam in the morning...and then after that I'm going to get my tongue done...FINALLY!!! hmm...things haven't been going good...pretty rotten...but thats life

good luck in your exam hun!!!

 

[anteloperunner]

*Throws a ball for the dogs... *hmmm... lol... ill probs get scienced out but if its wat i gotta do i gotta do it! lol
im glad the pills are gone... just try your hardest to stick to your meal plan... keep reminding yourself it was designed to help you!
good on you for lightening the load... i think im going to die... i jsut counted up my hours... and i hvae 23 on campus hours... i dont know if that is alot or not... is it?

my meal plan is killing me slowly. i swear

23 seems like alot. is that hours of class or credit hours? because i have 12 credit hours but 16 hours of class a week not including robotics (1 credit hour but takes alot of time outside of class).

/me watches Lexus and Ryba chase the ball for awhile

 

[Soulwings]

Lisa. I think that your friend who always falls asleep is ... inconsiderate. Unless she's got a sleeping problem, then she really ought to fight to stay awake to spend time with you, because, after all, you're her friend, and you're being so kind as to take her places. And as far as being self-sufficient, I think it's okay to an extent, but try to feel like it's okay to rely on your friends for some stuff. I can't really explain that any much more than what I just said ... I guess it's just your own personal preference. But if you're staying with friends, unless you're on a specific meal plan, I'd say at least try and eat their food. Because they're having you as a guest and it's kind of like an honor to have you eating with them. If that makes sense.

And the sad eyes... I totally understand what you mean. That's how I felt like last night. I'm doing a little better today - it's been a good day, I guess - but the sad eye feeling comes when I am so frustrated or annoyed by uni or myself and can't do anything about it. Or sometimes when I just need to get something out and can't. *hugs*

How is everyone tonight?

My toes are cold and I'm wearing my Life is Good tshirt (it says on it, "All who wander are not lost," which I thought was apt for recovery and stuff, life in general really for me). But I've a crapload of stuff to do this weekend, as far as uni goes. But on the other hand, I wrote this really good poem that I actually love, and I think I have grounds for loving it - but I don't think anyone else I read it to would. Like my parents. They wouldn't get it. I don't think. Nor my fiance. It's frustrating. But oh well, right? What can ya do....

/me hugs everyone with a superhero hug, then curls up with some green tea and half a protein bar to ponder things.

 

[katey]

*slips in, graps a hotchocolate, and curls up in the corner out of everyones way, just incase upset them too.*

 

[Arianna]

hello hello everyone.
Hello Arnold, I discovered that you are actually a long lost relative of mine.

Glad you wrote a great poem April

Today it snowed. It was so exciting. I am so excited.
A lot too excited to sleep...hm..but tired too.

I think I need some cherry and banana tea please.

 

[Arianna]

you aren;t going to upset anyone here Katey


p.s. I also have very cold toes April. What do you think we should do about it?

 

[katey]

thanks, i just seem to be upsetting everyone at the moment.

its freezing here at the moment no snow tho.