Hey guys , i donno why but all of a sudden i thought it would be good to put up my testimony,
Ive always somehow believed in God, it just always made sense to me. But I never saw what He did for me so I rebeled against Him with my filthy sins, He used to give me dreams that I was headed straight for hell if I didnt change
about 5 or 6 years ago I fell apart completly with my depression, and I started to cut and kept getting sent to the hospitol. I couldnt keep a job down for the life of me.
One day after I got fired for not showing up for work, I screamed out to God for help. somehow I knew He heard me, He began working in my life to get me to stop cutting, In the end of it He did get me to stop for years on end, and satan had no hold over me anymore.
Than about 3 years ago My skitzoaffective blew up right in my face, I heard the most tormenting thoughts and images that I thought one could see, I really thought I was going to burn in hell, esp do to us Ocders/skitz have our obsessions about blaspheming God, which is not cool at all.. God visited me in dreams, He told me I never had to go to Hell, the dream was more real than life it was scary. I saw people walking straight for Hell, He held onto my arm and said to me "You dont have to go, I told you to Trust in me".
I was stupid you can say I didnt seek medicines out for years, and if I did I didnt want to stay on them because of the effects of the anti psycotics, I still dont and tend to not take my meds..
Times used to get so bad where i was freaking out, and God was awesome enough to bestow divine peace on me, it basically is the most awesome divine feeling ever, personally ive only experianced it twice and once it put me to sleep I really felt like I was in Heaven. I honestly think this was given to peter and to the guards for his escape, even the angel had to poke Peter to wake him up. God has shown me tremendous love and grace through these trials, He really will never leave you nor forsake you, I just hope everyone trusts in this. I can go on all day for what God does for me but in the end..
My skitzoaffective is almost gone without meds (my doctor thought it was strange that I was feeling better)
Im learning tot rust God more and more and Im deeply in love with Him, not to mention Im saved because of all these trials.
Sometimes in our trials we think God is away from us but in truth He is holding our hands, He loves you all very much. We must fight the good fight, please noone give up on Him.
Much love to you all my brothers and sisters in Christ
Ive always somehow believed in God, it just always made sense to me. But I never saw what He did for me so I rebeled against Him with my filthy sins, He used to give me dreams that I was headed straight for hell if I didnt change
about 5 or 6 years ago I fell apart completly with my depression, and I started to cut and kept getting sent to the hospitol. I couldnt keep a job down for the life of me.
One day after I got fired for not showing up for work, I screamed out to God for help. somehow I knew He heard me, He began working in my life to get me to stop cutting, In the end of it He did get me to stop for years on end, and satan had no hold over me anymore.
Than about 3 years ago My skitzoaffective blew up right in my face, I heard the most tormenting thoughts and images that I thought one could see, I really thought I was going to burn in hell, esp do to us Ocders/skitz have our obsessions about blaspheming God, which is not cool at all.. God visited me in dreams, He told me I never had to go to Hell, the dream was more real than life it was scary. I saw people walking straight for Hell, He held onto my arm and said to me "You dont have to go, I told you to Trust in me".
I was stupid you can say I didnt seek medicines out for years, and if I did I didnt want to stay on them because of the effects of the anti psycotics, I still dont and tend to not take my meds..
Times used to get so bad where i was freaking out, and God was awesome enough to bestow divine peace on me, it basically is the most awesome divine feeling ever, personally ive only experianced it twice and once it put me to sleep I really felt like I was in Heaven. I honestly think this was given to peter and to the guards for his escape, even the angel had to poke Peter to wake him up. God has shown me tremendous love and grace through these trials, He really will never leave you nor forsake you, I just hope everyone trusts in this. I can go on all day for what God does for me but in the end..
My skitzoaffective is almost gone without meds (my doctor thought it was strange that I was feeling better)
Im learning tot rust God more and more and Im deeply in love with Him, not to mention Im saved because of all these trials.
Sometimes in our trials we think God is away from us but in truth He is holding our hands, He loves you all very much. We must fight the good fight, please noone give up on Him.
Much love to you all my brothers and sisters in Christ 
