Test Depression

[Annova]

I'm going to be taking a test in a month AGAIN for the 3rd time and I was so motivated to do this but the last couple of days has put me in a depressed mode again.

I don't even feel like doing anything and I feel like someone died but hasn't. I could just go to bed and sleep.

I know that I have to take this test again BUT I keep think that worrying about it and thinking "what if I don't pass it again," etc...

Anyways just thought I would share that. I don't know but I just feel like _____.

 

[snowy27]

I've been studying for exams lately too. Fortunately my depression is very well under control at the moment. I can understand how the stress and pressure of an exam could bring you down. The way I motivate myself to study is to think that if I prepare as well as I possibly can and try my best I have no reason to be dissapointed in myself, pass or fail. I don't know if this helps. Another thing I can suggest is to take the first step - sit down and open your books. Sometimes the hardest part is getting started. It can be hard to stick with it sometimes. Recently I was reading a chapter that I found really really boring. But I thought to myself, being bored isn't that bad, and I guess I can handle being bored for a while if it helps me pass my exam. Also sometimes I pray for strength to keep studying and, luckily for me those prayers have been answered.

I hope you are doing ok. What are you studying?

 

[WhiteRain]

Annova,

I will pray for you to do well on this test, and be relieved of it. With every obstacle we overcome, we gain strength...

Don't worry about how you're feeling, that can sometimes fool you. It's just something trying to hold you back. I had the same experience when I took the SAT tests at school. I panicked and didn't do well the first time, spent half a year studying and retook it again. By the time the test came, though I was so burnt out and didn't care anymore. But I ended up getting a higher score!

Even if you don't do perfectly, I hope you do well. I'm praying for your needs anyways!

 

[Annova]

I've been studying for exams lately too. Fortunately my depression is very well under control at the moment. I can understand how the stress and pressure of an exam could bring you down. The way I motivate myself to study is to think that if I prepare as well as I possibly can and try my best I have no reason to be dissapointed in myself, pass or fail. I don't know if this helps. Another thing I can suggest is to take the first step - sit down and open your books. Sometimes the hardest part is getting started. It can be hard to stick with it sometimes. Recently I was reading a chapter that I found really really boring. But I thought to myself, being bored isn't that bad, and I guess I can handle being bored for a while if it helps me pass my exam. Also sometimes I pray for strength to keep studying and, luckily for me those prayers have been answered.

I hope you are doing ok. What are you studying?

I'm studying to take the GRE's. The math I'm ok. It's the verbal that's driving me crazy. I can't memorize 3600 words. I'm trying to but it's HARD for me. My mind is burnt out with words.

I took a two day break because I couldn't handle it anymore.

Going to try and start again tomorrow. Since it's the weekend, I don't have to work so I can work on that.

 

[Annova]

Annova,

I will pray for you to do well on this test, and be relieved of it. With every obstacle we overcome, we gain strength...

Don't worry about how you're feeling, that can sometimes fool you. It's just something trying to hold you back. I had the same experience when I took the SAT tests at school. I panicked and didn't do well the first time, spent half a year studying and retook it again. By the time the test came, though I was so burnt out and didn't care anymore. But I ended up getting a higher score!

Even if you don't do perfectly, I hope you do well. I'm praying for your needs anyways!

Thanks.

Yeah my test is pretty much the same as the SAT. Different words and there is more sections of stuff.

I've been trying to think positive but it's hard because I got the same score twice on the verbal. I couldn't believe it. I guess I'm afraid of getting that score again.

 

[katylees]

I know how you feel. I'm depressed and suffer from social anxiety at times. It's not nice. I hope the tests go okay. I had to take an exam last week for the 3rd time *hug*

 

[Taylor43]

I do not like taking tests it does make me worry and i am praying for you. I know you will pass but i can relate. Do not keep things inside vent to us anytime keeping you in my prayers
Love
Taylor

 

[Annova]

I didn't do any studying yesterday because I was distracted AGAIN and of course the "Super Bowl" was on.

Anyhow I am feeling a little down but that's only because I have to deal with being at home and then worrying about passing this test. To much stress and to much to deal with.

I don't know why but I feel like I'm doing this test for them and not myself. I've already been accepted into a couple of schools already. I'm hoping to get into another one (first choice) but I feel like it's not going to happen. I really want to go to that one but at the same time I could throw this book aside and go to the other school and finish up my education. I don't know but does that seem like I'm taking the easy way out and trying to avoid things that are hard?

I feel like I've already wasted so much time on this and I'm not getting any younger here. I don't want to be in school when I'm 27 or whatever.

I guess I have no patience and I've developed this "have to do it now before it's to late" thing.

I'm just so overwhelmed by EVERYTHING and it's like if I don't get something done on my list when I WANT it done, I freak and then everything gets put behind.

And then to make it worse I'm constantly bombarded by certain other people that I have to do this and I can't do that because I will regret it later in life or I should be worrying about where I will live in 20 years. I don't care about that stuff and I'm sick of having to hear and worry about it.

 

[Annova]

Sorry but I here is some more ranting:

I guess I'm so sick of waking up every day and have to listen to the constant bombardment of how the world is coming to an end and all this NEGATIVE stuff. And what's worse is that I can't say ANYTHING back or tell them to stop. It just goes on and on and on to the point of me wanting to scream and throw something through the window. It's horrible believe me.

Oh and speaking of believing me, I can NEVER have anyone believe me. I'll say something and then I hear "well it's possible" or "that's not what I heard." Shoot I could have a PhD. and what I say would STILL go in one ear and out the other. I'm to the point of me not knowing if anyone at all believes what I say or trusts me. I can't even get anyone here to talk to me or WANT to listen to what I have to say. I can't talk to anyone about my test or college stuff. I'm on my own and sometimes I don't know what to do.

I guess I'm also to the point of wondering if what they say is right and that maybe I'm the one that's crazy and not seeing the bigger long term picture. Who knows, maybe I should be planning for things now so when I'm 50 and so on I'll be ok.

I'm not that old and I feel like I haven't been able to enjoy some of the things this world as to offer. Maybe it's not even out there. I don't know because I haven't seen it.

Is this what people do after high school, get a degree and spend the rest of your life worrying about what my life will be like in 2 years and then in 5 years and spending every waking hour planning it so when your 70 you can finally sit down and rest?

I don't want to watch the news 24/7 or listen to it. I don't want to spend all my time wondering about stuff I can't control. And I don't want to be told that what I think is stupid and I don't like peope playing with my mind and trying to get me to second guess myself with everything that I say and do. I don't like this phase "I would do this (speech) but I can't tell you what to do."

Sure I now how to play mind games but you can only do it for so long and I don't have the time and E to do it anymore.

Sorry this was long. Rant ended!

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Sorry but I here is some more ranting:

I guess I'm so sick of waking up every day and have to listen to the constant bombardment of how the world is coming to an end and all this NEGATIVE stuff. And what's worse is that I can't say ANYTHING back or tell them to stop. It just goes on and on and on to the point of me wanting to scream and throw something through the window. It's horrible believe me.

Oh and speaking of believing me, I can NEVER have anyone believe me. I'll say something and then I hear "well it's possible" or "that's not what I heard." Shoot I could have a PhD. and what I say would STILL go in one ear and out the other. I'm to the point of me not knowing if anyone at all believes what I say or trusts me. I can't even get anyone here to talk to me or WANT to listen to what I have to say. I can't talk to anyone about my test or college stuff. I'm on my own and sometimes I don't know what to do.

I guess I'm also to the point of wondering if what they say is right and that maybe I'm the one that's crazy and not seeing the bigger long term picture. Who knows, maybe I should be planning for things now so when I'm 50 and so on I'll be ok.

I'm not that old and I feel like I haven't been able to enjoy some of the things this world as to offer. Maybe it's not even out there. I don't know because I haven't seen it.

Is this what people do after high school, get a degree and spend the rest of your life worrying about what my life will be like in 2 years and then in 5 years and spending every waking hour planning it so when your 70 you can finally sit down and rest?

I don't want to watch the news 24/7 or listen to it. I don't want to spend all my time wondering about stuff I can't control. And I don't want to be told that what I think is stupid and I don't like peope playing with my mind and trying to get me to second guess myself with everything that I say and do. I don't like this phase "I would do this (speech) but I can't tell you what to do."

Sure I now how to play mind games but you can only do it for so long and I don't have the time and E to do it anymore.

Sorry this was long. Rant ended!

Hello sister,

Turn it off. Don't waste your time feeding in to all that negitive venom. I love my Rushlimbaugh and Glenn Beck in the morning, even thou they are doing good, but I had to shut it off.

I got all wrapped up trying to warn people of radical islam, and people's reaction to it was driving me mad. One day my paster says something that stuck with me, dont worry about what is going on out there but what is going on here. Later it made more sense when he did a serman about finding inner peace. We are never going to find inner peace by what happens around the world. We live in a world drowned by sin, common sense there. We only find inner pease by learning to be content.

Really life is good(not perfect) and we have challenges, but some people(saddly lot politicians) are full of fear and worry that their poor judgement hurts this country.

About believing in you, are you talking in political or professional? Anycase sister, listen to St. Paul and put your armor on. Please read this link.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%206:10-17;&version=51;

Hmm whenever I say "I'm not an expert." or "This is my opinion." just means what they say. Even with one bible there are many denominations of belief. Hence we all view things differently. We only know thru our experiences, so we can only show you a door we walked thru. If anything, becareful to take a door that the person themselves never walked thru, that's hypocrisy.

 

[Annova]

Hello sister,

Turn it off. Don't waste your time feeding in to all that negitive venom. I love my Rushlimbaugh and Glenn Beck in the morning, even thou they are doing good, but I had to shut it off.

I got all wrapped up trying to warn people of radical islam, and people's reaction to it was driving me mad. One day my paster says something that stuck with me, dont worry about what is going on out there but what is going on here. Later it made more sense when he did a serman about finding inner peace. We are never going to find inner peace by what happens around the world. We live in a world drowned by sin, common sense there. We only find inner pease by learning to be content.

Really life is good(not perfect) and we have challenges, but some people(saddly lot politicians) are full of fear and worry that their poor judgement hurts this country.

About believing in you, are you talking in political or professional? Anycase sister, listen to St. Paul and put your armor on. Please read this link.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians 6:10-17;&version=51;

Hmm whenever I say "I'm not an expert." or "This is my opinion." just means what they say. Even with one bible there are many denominations of belief. Hence we all view things differently. We only know thru our experiences, so we can only show you a door we walked thru. If anything, becareful to take a door that the person themselves never walked thru, that's hypocrisy.

Thanks for replying and for the link.

Yes I turn it off. The problem is that the other people I live with watch it ALL THE TIME. Like right now, it's on. It's background music.

I was trying to study and it was nice and quite when all of a sudden, tv's on and it's breaking news that I don't care about.

Now sometimes I can watch it but not all the time. That's like listening to talk radio. Can only take so much of it.

It's like the news follows me. Its in the house, the car, with people who talk about it, etc...

I remember when I was by myself in college, I NEVER watched it and it was nice to not hear about all the stuff that's going on. Sure I care but watching it drives me nuts. It's like a Soap Opera. Same thing that was on yesterday.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Thanks for replying and for the link.

Yes I turn it off. The problem is that the other people I live with watch it ALL THE TIME. Like right now, it's on. It's background music.

I was trying to study and it was nice and quite when all of a sudden, tv's on and it's breaking news that I don't care about.

Now sometimes I can watch it but not all the time. That's like listening to talk radio. Can only take so much of it.

It's like the news follows me. Its in the house, the car, with people who talk about it, etc...

I remember when I was by myself in college, I NEVER watched it and it was nice to not hear about all the stuff that's going on. Sure I care but watching it drives me nuts. It's like a Soap Opera. Same thing that was on yesterday.

Sorry to hear that. I can think of couple of common sense things to do, but ultimately comes down to resolving the issue with who you live with or finding a haven to study.

Wouldn't hurt to pray to god on this and for some strength/guidance.

 

[Annova]

Normally what I do is put on my headphones.

I'm unable to go in my room because someone always has to knock on my door to either tell me something stupid or ask what I'm doing.

For example: if I'm in my room for an hour, I will get interupted 10 times. Or if I go online someone will have to go on. But any other time no one will go on.

Like right now I've been interupted 3 times and it's only been 10 mins.

The only time I'm left alone is when their sleeping or if they take off.

Yes it blows big time.

I don't know why no one cares what I do but if they can't see me or if I'm online or what not, they can't stand it. I don't understand this.

For example: if I turn on the tv, I'm amazed because someone will come in and want to switch it. No one could be watching it for an hour and then all of a sudden when I turn it on, someone wants to watch something. I don't know if it's a control thing or what but I'm tired of it.

Sorry guys for posting all of this but it feels better to type this up then to walk around with rage.

 

[Annova]

Yesterday was such a mess and I can't believe what I wrote. Sorry about that.

Anyways I'm doing better today. Was a little depressed this morning but since I've been working on some of my stuff I'm a little more calm.

I'm working on words so I think that if I can get some stuff done that will boost my self-confidence up a tad.

Have a nice day!

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Yesterday was such a mess and I can't believe what I wrote. Sorry about that.

Anyways I'm doing better today. Was a little depressed this morning but since I've been working on some of my stuff I'm a little more calm.

I'm working on words so I think that if I can get some stuff done that will boost my self-confidence up a tad.

Have a nice day!

Sounds like you just needed to vent lol No need to appologize. =)

 

[Annova]

Sounds like you just needed to vent lol No need to appologize. =)

Yeah I'll probably vent some more down the road too.