My prayers! Tell us more about the Monk life and what draws you to it!
Thanks for prayers I really appreciate it MikeK
I've felt an urge to serve God in prayer for about four years now (even though I converted last Easternight).
It is a combination of a several different factors I guess, on one hand I'm suited for that lifestyle as I've never been successful on other areas of my life (at least allover) and struggle to fit in at the secular world.
I'm not called to marriage that I'm nearly certain about.
To be frank I don't think I would've been easy to live with for any potential wife either as I'm quite melancholic.
Of course I have attributes that could work to my advantage or as an plus in a marriage, but as I said I don't feel called to Marriage one second.
It may look a bit like I'm seeking a way of hiding from the secular world and I admit that it's like it in some sence..
I think that God works every of his servants differently and in some cases like my own I suspect that doors are being closed as a part of a prosess to lead people where he need them or at least wants them to serve him.
I need purpose in my life and I feel that living a life in prayer is of great importance of the world.
More than ever is the need for prayers and for strong orders to fulfil the mission of Christ to go out and spread the Gospel and pray for the world.
I also know that the Holy Orders need young people to take over the heritage.
Most of the orders are struggling with recruitment and are in real danger of ceasing to exist.
Am I reading to much of my own desires into this so called desernment prosess of mine? Maybe.
But most importantly I feel a strong encouragement and consilation from God both in prayer and through dreams.
I don't know, I guess there is a reason as for why the Ciesterciensers operates with a 5 year novice period before making eternal vows
Also I've been told to wait for at least one more year as it's mandatory for converts to hold of Religious life and orders until the so called convert-romantic era is over.
Well as I said please keep my in your prayers
Pax Christi
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