taking valium for the wrong reasons

[Lily76_]

I am a addict of weed and have been with out it for 4 months i have recently been given Valium for my social anxiety but i feel i wanted them for the wrong reasons not just to make me calm i had the choice of other medication that would have kept me calm .
I am on 5mg of Valium a day but so far i have been taking them everyday because i want to feel something from them and i want to be calm because i cant cope with things like going out but the only time me going out i have took them is when i went to the dentist because i was feeling very stressed by going there the other times have been at night when i have been in the house.
I have been on Valium before this time and i took them everyday and they stopped me taking them because the dr didnt want me to get addicted to them am unsure if i am or not
I can see this becoming a problem and i think i need to talk to my dr about this as i think i do have a problem but i cant get an appointment with my regular dr until next week .
While posting this post i have asked my husband to throw the Valium out as i feel that i am taking them for the wrong reasons and i have a problem with them

Ella

 

[RobPhillips79]

Have you spoken to your doctor yet?
Doesn't valium give you memory lapses?