Taken Over **poss. trigg**

[Aredhel]

So for a very long time, I've been very concerned about my weight. I've been dieting a lot, and exercising even more. I have been slowly lowering the amount of food I will let myself eat, to the point where I'm giving myself a maximum of ### calories a day. Whenever I go over this, I make myself throw up.
Funny how I only realized today that I may have a problem. I was looking through a magazine and I noticed that pictures of food that would once make me drool now just made me shudder, because I thought of how many calories were in them. As I started thinking, I started realizing that this obsession has taken over me. When I started my dieting, I thought it wouldn't, but it has. I know now that I've stuck myself on a path I do not want to be on, and I don't know what to do now, because I am still so afraid of putting on weight, and I still want to be skinnier, even though I know it isn't healthy.
Please help me, I dont know what I should do next

 

[MyaShane]

Do you have anyone that you can get some one-on-one help with; like a counselor? It's really good to know that you potentially have a problem and finding someone qualified to help you is even better.

 

[Aredhel]

I'm afraid to get help
I know that if I go see someone, they'll make me eat, and that scares the crap outta me

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Hun, please talk to someone . While the thought of eating is scary, it's a lot less scary than what could happen if you don't tell someone what's going on. There are a lot of people who care about you and don't want to see you hurting your body...what's more though, you are a daughter of the King. You matter, and that you wrote something here tells me you have the courage that it takes to talk to someone in real life too. You can do it!

Would you mind if I prayed for you at all?

 

[MyaShane]

I'm afraid to get help
I know that if I go see someone, they'll make me eat, and that scares the crap outta me

Yeah, I completely understand that. It's the nature of this disease unfortunately. Which is why I encourage you to seek out a professional who can help you handle working on that fear and hopefully overcoming it enough to eventually get better. You can certainly keep posting here; we're always glad to help out as much as we can, too.
I'll be praying for you!!

 

[Aredhel]

prayer would be great, yes.

Thanks