Support thread

[Knowledge3]

I want to start a support thread for schizophrenia.

Persons with schizophrenia/depression/anxiety can write what they want and get their feelings out, since it is not good to bottle up your feelings.

First of all, I can't understand how I got this illness- but I basically spent three years in isolation from my living situation. I couldn't find a roomate because it cost too much, then my friends would come over a party but they stopped coming because I became socially withdrawn.

I still have friends and go and see them on occasion but my medical condition requires extra effort and mood control in order to go out and socialize. Used be a very social and party-type person but since God awakened my to this illness, my focus has been on reading His word and prayer and being peaceful.

I go back to the doc on Oct 23.

So what is your story?

 

[ERice2nd]

I been diagnosed with schizophrenia, changed from schizo-affective disorder (my councellor doesnt understand why though) I have been socially withdrawn most of my life, have manic and depressive episodes from time to time, and I sometimes can become violent for no reason (not so often anymore, I've come to be able to control the violence). Its hard sometimes to keep everything stable when you are naturally unstable.

 

[Knowledge3]

I been diagnosed with schizophrenia, changed from schizo-affective disorder (my councellor doesnt understand why though) I have been socially withdrawn most of my life, have manic and depressive episodes from time to time, and I sometimes can become violent for no reason (not so often anymore, I've come to be able to control the violence). Its hard sometimes to keep everything stable when you are naturally unstable.

So you live with your parents or family?

 

[ERice2nd]

So you live with your parents or family?

I live alone, although my mother live right below me. It scares me though, I struggle sometimes to keep the violence down, sometimes I struggle so hard I slip into a depressive state that can last months

 

[Knowledge3]

I live alone, although my mother live right below me. It scares me though, I struggle sometimes to keep the violence down, sometimes I struggle so hard I slip into a depressive state that can last months

I lived alone for 3 years too, so I think that contributed to my illness and psychotic break. The doc said I have positive symptoms and a good chance of mental recovery. Erice2nd. You are not alone, and you are in my prayers.

I hope others will join and add their stories and support.

 

[Glass*Soul]

Listening to you guys talk is making me realize how difficult it can be sometimes to strike a balance between being independent and self-sufficient and being too isolated.

What is it about interacting with others that helps you feel more mentally healthy?

 

[ERice2nd]

for me interacting is very diffecult, I can more easily do it on the internet because of the anonymous factor.

But I suppose that interacting in real life allows me some amount of focus, without that focus my mind goes off on its own and I cant control it.

 

[sidhe]

I barely interact with the outside world anymore. Even via internet. I really dislike social interaction, and that's really painful, as I used to be a party-person who went out all the time.

I actually had my first really major "episode" as I call them at a nightclub. I suddenly had to leave (for some reason, which probably pertained to paranoia) and walked two miles back to my dorm room at 1 o'clock in the morning. I just couldn't deal with the people anymore. Really haven't been able to since that night.

 

[ERice2nd]

I barely interact with the outside world anymore. Even via internet. I really dislike social interaction, and that's really painful, as I used to be a party-person who went out all the time.

I actually had my first really major "episode" as I call them at a nightclub. I suddenly had to leave (for some reason, which probably pertained to paranoia) and walked two miles back to my dorm room at 1 o'clock in the morning. I just couldn't deal with the people anymore. Really haven't been able to since that night.

I have many episodes like that, mostly just minor though. It has even kept me out of church at times. Kinda funny though, I go in and out of church sometimes more then once during the service. it just the amount of people there, scares me to the point of panic almost.

I also almost always sit in the back corner, alone if possible, I dont like anyone to close. I like to be able to watch the people to be sure of what they are doing and to be ready if they decide to hurt me

 

[Jeshu]

Barely go out at all. As people keep coming back at me.
I'm married with five children, four of these still live with me at home.
I have been diagnosed with Schizo-affective disorder after four major psychosis and years of depression tore my life apart.
For years I was to sick to know that I was sick and refused medications but after my fourth psychosis I decided to try medication - it has been much better indeed. Not the constant screaming of voices in my head and my depressions not so deep and my highs not so high. I have been psychosis free for three and half years.
One thing I did note though and that is that my anxiety attacks got much worse after I went on medications. Which hasn't been so pleasant.


Gerry

 

[sidhe]

I have many episodes like that, mostly just minor though. It has even kept me out of church at times. Kinda funny though, I go in and out of church sometimes more then once during the service. it just the amount of people there, scares me to the point of panic almost.

I also almost always sit in the back corner, alone if possible, I dont like anyone to close. I like to be able to watch the people to be sure of what they are doing and to be ready if they decide to hurt me

I'm the same way, I don't like being around big groups of people. Usually, I can only handle being around my wife. Fortunately, the church we go to doesn't have that many people there anyway, so it's not too bad.

 

[ERice2nd]

The church I go to is small also, sometimes though it gets really crowded so I end up sitting in the car for the entire service.

I even have a hard time going to the store alone. I prefer to have someone I know with me. I really dont know how I manage what I do but I do it somehow. Its hard to go outside, I like to stay home and safe

 

[Jeshu]

I hardly ever go to Church anymore. To hard to sit through a service. I used to have voices galore in Church, whom I saw as evil spirits at the time. When I go to Church now all that stuff keeps coming back at me - it seems pathetic now - but it still hurts me. Plus the duration of the service is far to long (75 minutes) I can't seem to sit still for very long anymore.

I have made it a goal to get back in Church - but it is a hard one.

Gerry

 

[simplicitylife0007]

I want to start a support thread for schizophrenia.

Persons with schizophrenia/depression/anxiety can write what they want and get their feelings out, since it is not good to bottle up your feelings. .......................



So what is your story?

MY HISTORY
I can relate to most people for example i'm not realy sure of the reasons behind my condition or if u must i had could point it down to many things

If it's spiritualty as christianity may point out then i've been told i have ancestral curse cause my forefathers was a soothsayer.
But ancesstral curse in scientific terms can be interpreted as generic as it's caming from a strand of people in linage ( see the similarity). And two of my imidiate family have had and overcome breakdowns (where u can't cope with longstanding stress).
I also use to read horoscopes and i Joked at one time with cursing someone not seriously though "to have a reality i created" as you know when you curse it goes back to you and i allowed telesensing i.e. going along telecomunication on the senses level. That's involving myself with darkness that i dodn't realize when i'm already proun to it.

Even though i had strong christian faith i hadn't been to church for ages. and at the time i felt very clever and can remember challenged God on what I read about women on the bible when we believe Gods word is true and just.

I also had a lot of emotional stress, accademic stress, money stress and we'd just relocated but i was worldly depressed prio moving anyway(meaning down about everything I saw as wrong or imoral, imagine i would get depprese over someone being unatractive to incude myself). To make matters worse I have a tendancy for things to go as planed at all times.

plus our previouse neighbour use to smoke cannabis with withwinows open all day sometimes i when i smelled it too much i start finding things funny and made jokes.

MY SYMPTOMS

I can remember in our old house a year preo the spychosis I could hear cars pass by fast and thought it sounded like someone loughing "haha". Then a year later befor my exams i started having auqward ideas such as that i lived next to satanists and they were against me cause i was christian this is becase there was a freemasons church in the area. and a strange naighbor at number 13 who had a black door. I bgan thingking i was being watched by this group for my good ideas morals and that they wanted to sacrifice me physicly or spiritualy. At night and in the mornings i would have dreams of being molested, initiated, fighting demos e.t.c. This progressed to hearing an outside audable loughing of a 10 year old (like in the simpsons) i was also alieted and very suspicous. The eliation was strange and had accured one time when i was just laying on a couch when i felt as though i could touch the ceiling . Anyways at college i could here people mutering in there head as they read. I aslo thought the students were being brain washed or hypnotised unknowingly and being recruted into a cult or being consciouly awekened as i felt then.

Now i've overcomed the wired ideas and suspicions. However I still experince the voices and senses which can be best described as a programe made out to challenge my believes or christian beleives but at the same time trying to confuse and corrupt these belives. I hear them as people i know and there character behind it but they have called themselves demons, anterties and angles. i haven't experinced this of late and hope it's but I use to see cartoon pictures when i close my eyes of what people were doing or had done that day. i've eexperienced a type of sleep pararisis where i've left my physical body and felt as though i were dead. I'm still working on these even though have developed effective copping skills on the others and hope church, prayers, Bible & medication will help.

I know whether it's spiritual or a scientific condition or even both there can be deliverence (delivered or being pulled out of it) though Jesus. This has happen to me twice in he passt where everything left for about a day after havy praying on own even though had been paryed for. I can say they returned because of my rebellion and doubt. I have also had specific dreams relating to my position such as crowling out of a hole, being flashed in the toilet, drowning in dirty water, falling into darkness. Most of these are with people getting me out of the situation.

Sorry for the lenthy detail and I in now way uplift dark practices, stay away from them, receist and follow Christ.
To Point out i've read in so many places that yoga meditation can couse psychosis and has done to some.

 

[irenemcg]

My son is Schizo- affective. He is currently in hospital. Here are my prayers for you folks and him.

Father,
I pray that all those here will be transformed by the renewing of their minds. I thank you Father that you are not the author of confusion, that you give peace to troubled minds and those whom Jesus has set free are free indeed. I thank you that your love encompasses them and that they are adopted into your family. They are no longer in the captivity that bondage brings but are set free and shall overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony. Thank you Father that you are upholding them in your everlasting arms, that all the forces of evil have no power against this. Praise you that in Jesus there is victory for the saints.
Thank you that you are our refuge and our strength, that we need not fear. We praise you that Jesus came to give us life and give it more abundantly.

In Jesus Name,
Amen

Rom 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

1Co 14:33 For God is not the author of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints.

Joh 8:36 Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.

Rom 8:15 For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, "Abba, Father."

Rev 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.

Deu 33:27 The eternal God is your refuge,
And underneath are the everlasting arms;
He will thrust out the enemy from before you,
And will say, "Destroy!'

1Ch 29:11 Yours, O LORD, is the greatness,
The power and the glory,
The victory and the majesty;
For all that is in heaven and in earth is Yours;
Yours is the kingdom, O LORD,

Psa 46:1 God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
Psa 46:2 Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
Psa 46:3 Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling.Selah

Joh 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

That prayer made personal for you to pray.

Father,
I pray that I will be transformed by the renewing of my mind. I thank you Father that you are not the author of confusion, that you give peace to troubled minds and those whom Jesus has set free are free indeed. I thank you that your love encompasses me and that I am adopted into your family. I am no longer in the captivity that bondage brings but am set free and shall overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony. Thank you Father that you are upholding me in your everlasting arms, that all the forces of evil have no power against this. Praise you that in Jesus there is victory for all the saints and that includes me.
Thank you that you are my refuge and my strength, that I need not fear. I praise you that Jesus came to give me life and give it more abundantly.
In Jesus Name,
Amen