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Arianna · Jul 1, 2007

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Hello, sorry for my absence for a few days again, i was just busy and not here.

Glad the party went well Bec.

How are you April?

And how are you Allie?

xxx

Arianna · Jul 1, 2007

numbers don't work in my post, must just be that Allie is amazing

Soulwings · Jul 1, 2007

That must be it. Maybe if you edit your post and add numbers it works? I wonder... but I'm too lazy to try it.

Glad to see you're back, Ari!! I was wondering where you'd gotten off to - we've missed you and your smileys. How are you doing??

I need to figure out a way to drink more than I have been. Bruce is going to be angry with me and I'm going to retain fluid and it's going to be an awful mess!! :-(

beckybooiloveu · Jul 1, 2007

hi everyone...
hmmm... was going to say something, but have forgotten oopps

beckybooiloveu · Jul 2, 2007

its official, im obese...
i went for a run today and i am soooo unfit...

and my back has been abit sore today and i mentioned it too my mum and she said it because i am soooo overweight...

Soulwings · Jul 2, 2007

Aww Bec! *snuggles* Your mum should not have said that... wrong wrong wrong.

I'm not doing great. Feeling madly fat. I saw some photos of girls that I used to know on Facebook, and they've lost a LOT of weight, and I weigh four point seventy-one percent more than I did when I knew them ('oh five/'oh six schoolyear).

beckybooiloveu · Jul 3, 2007

*HUGE HUGE HUGS* april...
sis, four point seventy-one is not alot... really...

i weigh have put on more than triple that percentage of weight in just the last eight months... it just came out of no where... and it has to stop now...

sorry... shut up bec...

Soulwings · Jul 3, 2007

Aw Bec Try and eat healthily and exercise healthily - and remember, a lot of that weight could be muscle mass, due to the mad amounts of exercise that you've done in the past few months!! And that would be a good thing, although it doesn't look nice on the scales. And yes, if you've gained a lot of muscle, that would make your clothes feel a little tighter.

How is everyone else doing? *snuggles*

I'm... ehhh. Tired tired tired.

beckybooiloveu · Jul 3, 2007

Soulwings said:
Aw Bec Try and eat healthily and exercise healthily - and remember, a lot of that weight could be muscle mass, due to the mad amounts of exercise that you've done in the past few months!! And that would be a good thing, although it doesn't look nice on the scales. And yes, if you've gained a lot of muscle, that would make your clothes feel a little tighter.

How is everyone else doing? *snuggles*

I'm... ehhh. Tired tired tired.

but it isnt muscle, it is fat and thats why i have to go to wat ever lengths to get rid of it...

and to make matters worse, im feeling so stupid because i got my uni mark back... and didnt do well at all... i got a pass for two of my subjects and a credit for the other two... i must be so unbeliavably stupid because i studied my behind off... i just freak out in exams and i forget everything...

Arianna · Jul 4, 2007

Hello lovely ones,

Bec, you are certainly not fat - I can see that from your picture, and i think that at age seventeen you really can't be finished growing yet - so that would make your wieght increase - but it doesn't mean you are getting fatter!!

And April is certainly not fat either. (four.seven one % isn;t very much at all!!)

Bec - sorry your exams didn't as well as you wanted. It is horrible when hard work doesn't pay off as much as it should

Arianna · Jul 4, 2007

and wouldn't it be great if we didn't all judge ourselves on these things and knew what we are really worth

dreamingofasong · Jul 4, 2007

I agree Arianna

beckybooiloveu · Jul 4, 2007

Soulwings · Jul 4, 2007

Bec... *tries to remember what it was that she wanted to say*

OH! As far as the "bad" marks on your exams... my freshman year was horrible. And you know why? I was compulsively overexercising, not eating enough, and living off coffee and caffeine tablets. That wreaks havoc with your mind, it really does. EDs are known for messing up your thought processes - making you obsess over things like being fat and gaining weight, and making memory for studies much, much worse. This is why I really, really, REALLY don't want you to go to "any measures" to get rid of the "fat." Please, Bec. And also.... losing weight fast is not going to keep it off. Said from experience. And losing weight fast and gaining it back makes it a thousand times harder to lose it the second time. Also said from experience. Please. I don't want you doing wrong what I've done wrong. Please.

I'm not doing great. Thinking about that, and thinking about what I posted in another thread, is really making me flash back to the beginning of my ED, and how my parents wouldn't believe that I had an ED until it was "too late." I had had my ED for a YEAR before they acknowledged that it was a problem. A year. A year of hell. They knew that I was doing liquid and caffeine fasts, they knew. They knew I was obsessed with weight, they probably knew that I weighed myself ten times a day. And yet they didn't know enough about EDs to recognise that as an ED. I can't help but wonder that if I had gotten treatment sooner, would I be losing fat weight faster now? Would I have messed up my mind as much? Would I be on fewer meds because of that? My life is never going to be like it was before I started cutting and before I got an ED. I'm never going to be able to just be "depressed." I'm never going to be able to get away from all of this, not completely.

And now I'm doubting my decision to be a counselor for people with EDs. It's going to hurt to see them go through the same stuff that I did, to see them make the same mistakes that I did. It's going to hurt like hell.

BrokenForHim · Jul 4, 2007

its been six years and my mom still doesn't think I have a problem..six years of hell...and I still way myself a billion times a day...and do all that stuff

dreamingofasong · Jul 4, 2007

hugs BrokenForHim

BrokenForHim · Jul 5, 2007

gahh I always make it about me..sorry April,I'm praying for you doll face.

thanx for the hugs

Arianna · Jul 5, 2007

Lindsey - you aren't making it about you You are relating to what April is saying. It's good when other people understand and relate.

Bec - you are so beautiful and April is right, you are going to really hurt yourself

April - sorry you are hurting ..wish i had something more helpful to say...

Soulwings · Jul 5, 2007

Lindz, you aren't making it about you. I'm sorry though, that things are so crap with you.... I don't understand why some parents either don't get the signs of an ED, or are too scared/worried/annoyed by it to acknowledge it. I just don't get it.

But I'm trying not to judge my own parents. I really don't know what I would've done in their places, and I also don't know how obvious my signs were, you know?

*snuggles for everyone*

the_box_of_giggles · Jul 5, 2007

*snuggle*

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