I feel very guilty and I pray everyday for God's forgiveness, but I feel my faith slipping. After I started taking biology and physiology classes at school, I started to deviate from God. I've stopped going to Church but I don't want to lose what I hold dear in life. My faith has helped me through so much, but I find it to be incompatible with what I learn in school and to make matters worse, my relationship with my family is deteriorating because they think I am doing this to hurt them. They won't even pray with (or for) me. Please, just simple praying does not help, is there something else I can do to restore my faith? I want to re-discover God and bring Him into my life like I did when I was a child.
First, your family must not have a very good relationship with God if they are treating you this way.
Second, I want you to hear every single word that I say (because I don't have time right now to write a lot). But I mean each single word:
You need to seek for God with ALL your heart, soul and mind. You need to make Him a priority in your life. The Spirit/God who lives in us is jealous if we find our contentment in the things of this world. (James 4:5) God wants us to be committed only to Him. God's words (in the Bible) as Jesus said: they are life. If you want to find this life, you need to read the words that God spoke. God speaks life. The Bible is your answer. Immerse yourself in it. Seek the truth. It's there. Do not rely on others to lead you to the truth. You never know which person even knows the truth. The words that come directly from God - is your only hope. The words bring life. Make studying the Bible your priority. And don't forget, the Bible is not just a set of religious rules and regulations. Because God is not just some religion. He is a person/a Being with feelings, very similar to ours. He gets angry and happy and sad and jealous. So honor him with your behavior. Seek to know HIM (not religion) better. HE will talk to you through his written words. He can make the WORDS become alive to you personally and minister to you. But you must seek Him with all your heart.
In IS 48:17 God said:
ISA 48:17 This is what the LORD says - your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.
18 If only you had paid attention to my commands, your peace would have been like a river, your righteousness like the waves of the sea.
Hang on to God's words of life, as if your life depended on it. Because it does. The way is narrow, Jesus said, and not many find it. Your life DOES depend on it.
The Bible is the answer, and the way to eternal life and the map to eternal life.
May God help you.