I posted about my depression due to having cancer, but I could not say that after eight months of being bedfast, I am having awful suicidal thoughts. I am finding this so difficult to deal with. I am in torment a lot of the time and feel that I have reached the bottom of the barrel where strength is concerned. I am having deep problems over God and am sinking fast. I now that no-one can offer advice and that is not what I am seeking. I just need support with this and prayer. I came to this part of the forum because of the deep depression - I am not sure if I should be posting here as well as in the Oncologyh forum. I just so badly need people and help.

Prayers for you, dear one.