Suicidal thoughts

[LostUntilSaved]

I've been feeling depressed the last couple of sleep. I don't get enough sleep. I have a lot of anger and hurt inside. I don't want to live anymore. I picture suicide in my head. I haven't been to church in 2 years. I was a true christian before. Can you pray for me?

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I've been feeling depressed the last couple of sleep. I don't get enough sleep. I have a lot of anger and hurt inside. I don't want to live anymore. I picture suicide in my head. I haven't been to church in 2 years. I was a true christian before. Can you pray for me?

Welcome,

Kinda wanted to cut back, but suicide cases seem to have a weak spot for me.

Well, first off you need help. Look for any good churches and ask paster if can council you. Or find a true friend, trusted love one, or seek out a any theoripst/councilor options. Got lot going on inside your head, going to need encouragement, prayer, and lot personal growth to pull out of the hole. Realize thou you have to save yourself, admitting and seeking help is the first and most important step.

Till you get that help, please grab onto that thread of reason thought in your mind. Listen to your spirit, and let it guide you out of the darkness.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Galatians%205:16-26;&version=51;

"25 Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of our lives. "
"16 So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives."
" 22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control."

Read the whole thing please. Keep hope sister, tomorrow is always a better day. Don't dwell on the dark thoughts, they are your enemy. You have great potiential and victorious life awaiting you, all you have to do is grab hold of it and never let go.

 

[LostUntilSaved]

Welcome,

Kinda wanted to cut back, but suicide cases seem to have a weak spot for me.

Well, first off you need help. Look for any good churches and ask paster if can council you. Or find a true friend, trusted love one, or seek out a any theoripst/councilor options. Got lot going on inside your head, going to need encouragement, prayer, and lot personal growth to pull out of the hole. Realize thou you have to save yourself, admitting and seeking help is the first and most important step.

Till you get that help, please grab onto that thread of reason thought in your mind. Listen to your spirit, and let it guide you out of the darkness.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Galatians 5:16-26;&version=51;

"25 Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of our lives. "
"16 So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives."
" 22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control."

Read the whole thing please. Keep hope sister, tomorrow is always a better day. Don't dwell on the dark thoughts, they are your enemy. You have great potiential and victorious life awaiting you, all you have to do is grab hold of it and never let go.

I've tried seeking help from loved ones except I hurt them so instead of them helping me they remind me of what I did or said to them in the past. Please pray that I find a way to get to church because I don't drive. I'll read that scripture. thank you.

 

[Taylor43]

Keeping you in my prayers hun. Please do not end your life call a crises line and do try to get some help from a counsellor, therapist. You have so much burden that you need to seek some help.

I am praying for you to get a ride to get the help you so despartly need. Hun in the meantime i pray you feel the comfort of Jesus and i pray you can rest and do not let those people who judge you get to you. Just keep knowing God forgives you and he will never judge you. You may feel far from him but trust me he loves you no matter what you have done.

Also depression is real so please get to a doctor. I am concerned and I hope you can get real time help you deserve much more then suffering. You deserve happieness and lots of support. I am so glad you turned to this site because this is a safe place to vent and get encouragement. Lots of Hugs and prayers tonight

 

[LostUntilSaved]

Keeping you in my prayers hun. Please do not end your life call a crises line and do try to get some help from a counsellor, therapist. You have so much burden that you need to seek some help.

I am praying for you to get a ride to get the help you so despartly need. Hun in the meantime i pray you feel the comfort of Jesus and i pray you can rest and do not let those people who judge you get to you. Just keep knowing God forgives you and he will never judge you. You may feel far from him but trust me he loves you no matter what you have done.

Also depression is real so please get to a doctor. I am concerned and I hope you can get real time help you deserve much more then suffering. You deserve happieness and lots of support. I am so glad you turned to this site because this is a safe place to vent and get encouragement. Lots of Hugs and prayers tonight

I don't have enough money to get a counselor. I don't have health insurance to see a doctor.

 

[RescueAngel]

I think there are free services, like something called the Samaritians and things like that you could look into.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I don't have enough money to get a counselor. I don't have health insurance to see a doctor.

Matthew 7:7
7 “Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you."

Google ftw! You can refine the search for your state.

 

[LostUntilSaved]

I almost did it yesterday. I almost cut but I held back. I was so hurt. My blood was pounding. My heart was aching. I was crying. I couldnt sleep. Hard day for me again

 

[Mask]

Sorry to hear of your painful struggle! You should be very proud of yourself for not giving in and cutting!! I pray that you find some way to talk with someone who can help you. Blessings to you.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I almost did it yesterday. I almost cut but I held back. I was so hurt. My blood was pounding. My heart was aching. I was crying. I couldnt sleep. Hard day for me again

I had a feeling that it didn't just up and leave.

Now cut, are you self injuring yourself? If so please check out our self injury forum. Some good folks there to help you.

I want you to listen to your spirit. It is hard to hear, since it is a whisper compared to your sinful nature. Please listen to that voice, for it leads you to the holy spirit. Whenever the pain peaks, try to be aware of it. Being aware of it lets you have some chance of not getting washed away by tidal waves of emotions. Use that thread of reason and try hard to listen to your spirit. Pray and ask for strength to get thru the pain.

You will find that the spirit will be at total odds with the dark thoughts and pain. That is what it is meant to do, try to hide behind your spirit.

Learn more about the sinful nature, learn to take it's weapons away from it.

Sinful Nature, this concept has evolved over the months. From belief of accual spirits controlling me to the offical "dark" side. All started when I read Luke 8:30-33 .

"32 There happened to be a large herd of pigs feeding on the hillside nearby, and the demons begged him to let them enter into the pigs.
So Jesus gave them permission. 33 Then the demons came out of the man and entered the pigs, and the entire herd plunged down the steep hillside into the lake and drowned."

I was fighting my own demon of lust at the time. This set of passages gave me MUCH ammo to help me fight my sinful nature. I do believe that demons exist, but we all carry a dark side in us. The sinful nature, and it's goals are clear. To get me to drown. After going thru many years of depression(suicidal depression in early highschool years) I remember how I was alone yet I wasn't. Something kept tearing my self esteem to shreds and I pushed the whole world away. Thankfully it didn't win.

So according to the scriptures, sinful nature uses all the tools of worry, guilt, fear, sadness, pain... well pretty much any negitive feeling to do it's job.

Balance comes from taking these tools away from the sinful nature and give them all to God. Hope overcomes the despair, faith overcomes the fear. Spirit will lead me in the ways of Holy spirit which inturn bring me closer to God.

Humility and prayer are important to this fight thou. Sinful nature is a perminate part of my mind. It will fight and resist, this is where God's hand helps. Humility keeps heart pure, for God knows the truth in my heart. For me to lie to him would be no different than loved one lied to me in the face.

Sinful nature will take all that pain from whatever happened to you, and amplify it. It's goal is to get you to drown and as you orginally made this thread, it is getting close to victory.

If I were to give you motivation, I say realize your true enemy. The enemy within, do not let it win. Deny it victory! God will help you win this battle, keep seeking his aide and wisdom. Unfortunately we can not kill or destroy our sinful nature, but we can take it's weapons away and give them to God.

Please reread my post as many times need to absorb the information, more of it in my blog. Keep seeking help and praying for strength. This battle can be won.

 

[LostUntilSaved]

thank you for helping me. I am going to church today if my dad doesn't have to work. Last night I couldn't sleep so I listened to christian music until 1 am and prayed. I still feel depressed though.

 

[pwood]

I've been feeling depressed the last couple of sleep. I don't get enough sleep. I have a lot of anger and hurt inside. I don't want to live anymore. I picture suicide in my head. I haven't been to church in 2 years. I was a true christian before. Can you pray for me?

You are still a true christian. Jesus said "Forgive them Father for they know not what they do". Don't get wrapped up in the false doctrines of churches if all you can find there is condemnation.

Ask God to show you the root of your pain, be willing to see anything. You can be surprised at what God will do.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I noticed your a Three days Grace fan. Recently started listening to them. One of his songs really hit home and figured you might like it.

Never too late

 

[LostUntilSaved]

I noticed your a Three days Grace fan. Recently started listening to them. One of his songs really hit home and figured you might like it.

Never too late

Oh yeah that is one of my favorite songs along with Pain

 

[inHisgripkim]

I thought I would share this image because it's what
we strive for each day. We are so brainwashed by the world of flesh, we forget our roots - Christ and the Kingdom of God.

The images we get from this world is false and superficial. We are a spiritual manifestation of God and created by Him. Don't let this world define who you are and don't let them put chains on you.

You are God's masterpiece. You were created by Him for Him. Remain in Him and break the chains of
of the godless in this world.

Listen to God's word only.

Remain in Christ. The stronger He is
in you, the stronger you become to fight
the neagative voices that come from a
world of flesh.

Stay in Him and victory is yours.

Much Godly love and prayer,
Kim



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[LostUntilSaved]

I thought I would share this image because it's what

we strive for each day. We are so brainwashed by the world of flesh, we forget our roots - Christ and the Kingdom of God.​

The images we get from this world is false and superficial. We are a spiritual manifestation of God and created by Him. Don't let this world define who you are and don't let them put chains on you. ​

You are God's masterpiece. You were created by Him for Him. Remain in Him and break the chains of
of the godless in this world.​

Listen to God's word only.​

​

Remain in Christ. The stronger He is
in you, the stronger you become to fight
the neagative voices that come from a
world of flesh.​

Stay in Him and victory is yours.​

Much Godly love and prayer,
Kim​

thank you. I love that image. It's so hard not to listen to people words especially when u love them. I'm weak and I don't have God in my life. I want him though.

 

[Mask]

All you have to do is ask Him to come into your life and He will !!

He will not turn anyone away!!

He is just waiting for you to ask Him! Go ahead !

 

[LostUntilSaved]

AH now my friend doesn't want to go with me just because I told her I wasn't feeling well. I'm not going by myself so I am not going then.

 

[goldenviolet]

hey sweetheart, your flag indicated usa. here in the usa, any crisis line will direct you to the county crisis center in your area. they provide free programs of referals to free agencies, churches, counsellors, doctor clinics etc.... there is also the BREEZE program. they provide everything for about three months until the client gets more stable.
((((they always))) offer free counselling and evaluations... the county nevers turns people away, and you don't have to fill out crazy questionares about finances.

(((it feels good to be around people who understand and care))) ... my personal opinion of these places is very high. i have met alot of christains who work in ths field too. you can ask for a christain counselor. anyhow. i posted this to help you and anyone else with these programs within their reach. ~ love dee

 

[x0xJesusIsLovex0x]

Of course I'll pray for you, and just take your minds of these things, go outside and hang out with your friends, draw, ETC..