So you do not leave any of it up to providence?
"providence" is defined as the "kindness of fate" according to the Longman Dict. Christianity has nothing to do with fate, whether it is good or bad fate. Many religions believe in it though, esp Buddhism/Taoism. The Christian does not go around saying "I'm fated to have cancer, or he's fated to die young." What the Bible does teach though, is faith, that ALL THINGS are possible with God and to them that can believe, that ask and ye shall receive, whatsoever ye desire, when ye pray, believe ye receive, that ALL the promises of God are YES and AMEN in Christ etc. So in short, no, I dont believe in providence or fate.
That in God's wisdom he allowed this to happen, not ordained it to happen but permitted for some greater good that you may not ever be able to see until you are in heaven?
I think there's some confusion here. It is obvious God allowed it, for if he intervenes in everything, then no Christian on earth will fall sick, or get shot while pumping gas, or get blown to bits when eating at a cafe. But to say that He allowed it becos it is part of his wonderful plan for your life is simply not true. For example, when you plan your kids education, do you plan in sickness, a two-month stay at a home for delinquent kids, and accident in the school gymnasium, etc so that he can have a good education. Does it take a rocket scientist to know that the kid can still have a good education without those bad things? Nevertheless, if and when these things do happen, God can turn it around for our good. But that does not mean he planned it in in the greater scheme of things.
And what?!?! do you mean, if you are not healed it is your fault? Do you have some power over your own healing? So if God wanted to heal you, you could stop him? (Oh lord, I m sounding like a Calvinist now, lol.)
If God really came and told you Christians can fly. And you find that you can't fly, but others can. Does that mean God lied to you? Does that mean it's His fault that something isnt working right with your wings? So, between God and man, where do you think the problem lies? With God or with man? Let God be true and every man a liar. (Rom 3:4)
It is not God's fault if you are not healed;
Of cse not, as I've said above. Common sense tells us God's never at fault.
it is just his will because he has something better in mind and to believe this takes faith and trust.
that's where we differ. What is God's will here? Does God have a different will for each person? ie Yes, healing for you, No, no healing for you, Yes, healing for you and you, No, no healing for you and you and you.
Was Jesus, the exact image of God like that? Is God so wishy washy?
Read the first part of 2 Cor. In here you will learn how to tell if a particular doctrine is of the Spirit or of the flesh. Paul says that the nature of God is such that He is not a wishy-washy "Yes-Nay" God, but that all the promises of God in Christ are YES and AMEN. In other words, if God's promise regarding sickness is healing, then it is YES TO ALL, not sometimes yes, sometimes no. So you either believe God wills to heal all all the time or that he doesnt heal a single one at all.
Let me make it simple. There is either a healing promise to which anyone who believes can receive, or there is none at all. You cannot sit on the fence and say, YEah and then NAy another day.