struggling

[Lily76_]

Am really struggling right now with my OCD
keep having bad thoughts about God am scared ill go to hell
am on medication for my OCD and am still waiting for therapy for it through the NHS i cant afford non NHS therapy in the uk as am on benefits
i cant get the thoughts to stop ... Voices are telling me to fallow Allah and to read the quran
other voices tells me to fallow Jesus am on medication for the voices as well
but they dont always help
Am being sinful again
i need to stop this but i dont know how to

 

[Gods warrior 1]

Hi there

Sorry for your struggle. God understands and loves you. I have OCD too. Remember the thoughts are not sin. God knows you have OCD. Praying for you. Also please have a read of scrupulosity Grantley Morris. Google this remember God loves you.

 

[BeccaLynn]

I understand hearing so many different thoughts in your head. Sometimes, often times, I image myself placing my head on Jesus' lap and Him just allowing me to rest on Him. He places his scarred hand on my head and allows me to be comforted. Or, I image holding on as I would to my father and lying my head on His chest, allowing Him to comfort me. I used to didn't really think like this, allowing myself the freedom to "run to Him and rest on Him as I would my loving earthly father", but I've heard ministers whom I trust who are helping me to see God in a different light. God's Word calls Him our Father and tells us to come to Him, to find rest for our weary souls. I know He's Spirit, but Jesus came in human form, I believe for one reason, because we can identify with flesh. He understands our weaknesses because He faced them too. So, I do believe we can practice resting in Him and acknowledging that He holds us in His capable arms, even when we feel forsaken. Feelings and doubts don't change the truth of Who He is. I encourage you to run to Him with all of your struggles and know He hears you and loves you without limit. Ask Him to direct your steps and make the way for you to receive the help and the direction you need. Please don't ever give up. A Scripture I read quite often is: And the Lord, He it is that doth before thee; He will be with thee, He will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed. Deuteronomy 31:8. I encourage you also to find genuine Christians who can lift you up in prayer, not judgmentally, but in God's love. Fellowship with them. People who live lives that have honored God and trusted Him through life's ups and downs, yet stand firm in faith in Him. People to mentor you. I would be careful not to share things with just anyone who calls themselves a Christian, but with only one(s) who are encouragers to you. Please know you're not alone. Although I may not have the exact same struggle, I still struggle and it's a real battle all the same. I can understand in many ways.

Many hugs,
Rebecca

 

[raven1]

God loves you.