Struggling.

[berry2000]

Now it seems I'm totally struggling with anger/rage/frustration/irritablity/impatience. And desire to self harm is come back because of these feelings. I feel the emotions spiraling out of control. And I know for sure this is chemical because there is no real trigger. It's like most of the time I keep myself in check but I'm "Stuffing" my anger/frustration/impatience and then it's like the flood gates open and I feel all the bottled up stuff in full force. I don't know if i"m making any sense. I just need someone out there to know what I'm going through so i don't feel so alone...and so crazy.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Now it seems I'm totally struggling with anger/rage/frustration/irritablity/impatience. And desire to self harm is come back because of these feelings. I feel the emotions spiraling out of control. And I know for sure this is chemical because there is no real trigger. It's like most of the time I keep myself in check but I'm "Stuffing" my anger/frustration/impatience and then it's like the flood gates open and I feel all the bottled up stuff in full force. I don't know if i"m making any sense. I just need someone out there to know what I'm going through so i don't feel so alone...and so crazy.

Dearest Berry,

Have you read Gracegetsusthere's last post? I tell you she IS going through the same thing you are.

Right now all I can do is for you & send you s

(and hope others will be there when I end up in this "situation")

 

[lemonflavor]

Berry, do you have any Zyprexa left over that you could ask your doc if you could take just for a day or two? I know you hate calling the doc but just an idea.

 

[berry2000]

Thanks you two. For being there for me. I didn't think of that lemonflavor...good idea! I just took some Xanax hopefully that will help calm me down a little. It's been about a day now. NO change. I know i can keep resisting for about 3 days before I begin to cave. Thanks for the and the I'm still struggling but I'm still okay.