struggling badly

[gennypearl]

yeah try it. you may also want to forgive your biological father. not just for him but for yourself as well.

 

[teresa]

i can try and color in i have art books and am listening to christian music K love
i miss him so much he was more a father to me than my own bio father who just abandoned me as a child

Lilly, we are so sorry for you loss!

If you could tell him something, what would you tell him? can you write it out/write him a letter from you heart?

 

[teresa]

praying for you

 

[Lily76_]

thank you all for talking to me ...going to write him a letter he never met my 2 year old great niece or the one thats due any day now i wish he could have met them

 

[God is good]

God loves you very very much.

 

[teresa]

thank you all for talking to me ...going to write him a letter he never met my 2 year old great niece or the one thats due any day now i wish he could have met them

YES! write it out Lilly-you can do this...

 

[God is good]

God loves you very very much.

thank you all for talking to me ...going to write him a letter he never met my 2 year old great niece or the one thats due any day now i wish he could have met them

We are here anytime you need us. God bless

 

[teresa]

peace out

 

[gennypearl]

Be happy!

 

[Aleksandros]

Lily, think of praying for yourself like this: if you pray for yourself and keep yourself spiritually happy, you will be able to help others better. That's true, isn't it? How do we help others with strong prayers, unless we're well? Sometimes the best thing to do for others is take care of yourself.

Hey, can I recommend something to you? Why not listen to some calming stuff on YouTube? Do you like the sound of rain, or travelling, etc?

 

[Lily76_]

i have a rain sounds on my pc i normally listen to it when am in bed ( i cant sleep without some sort of sound ) i love the sound of nature birds singing etc when i listen to nature or actally be in nature i understand what God has made for us all and that it should be shown more love than what its shown by humans God made this planet for us and we should be grateful and look after what God has made for us all

i prayed for myself for the first time in a long time Am already Christian but id like to have a deeper relationship with God and i know that is through Jesus Christ

my step dad did what he did because he was very ill i see that now ...i did some drawing i drew a cross
it just came into my mind to draw it going to put it some where i can see it and remember that Jesus is always with me no matter what

 

[Aleksandros]

i have a rain sounds on my pc i normally listen to it when am in bed ( i cant sleep without some sort of sound ) i love the sound of nature birds singing etc when i listen to nature or actally be in nature i understand what God has made for us all and that it should be shown more love than what its shown by humans God made this planet for us and we should be grateful and look after what God has made for us all

i prayed for myself for the first time in a long time Am already Christian but id like to have a deeper relationship with God and i know that is through Jesus Christ

my step dad did what he did because he was very ill i see that now ...i did some drawing i drew a cross
it just came into my mind to draw it going to put it some where i can see it and remember that Jesus is always with me no matter what

You just prayed for yourself, right? You mean you did it just now?

 

[Lily76_]

yes av prayed for myself for help from God , its helped i feel that Jesus is with me and am smiling through my tears i miss my step dad but i know that God is looking after him like he looks after me and have kind people who are willing to talk to someone like me who feels dark and low i want to go to church right now ...but my husband is still sleeping at the moment he is also Christian but a new Christian he was baptised when he was a baby but never really learned about Jesus he starting to now

i feel a lot better making myself breakfast reading posts on the forum

 

[teresa]

is this your original work?

 

[teresa]

feel free to have fun joining us on the Artistic Expressions thread where we share art work and poems with each other here:Artistic expressions thread

 

[Lily76_]

no not my work i wish i was as good as who done this

 

[teresa]

you can post images that you find that speak about how you are feeling inside and then write around the image check it out: Artistic expressions thread

 

[Haipule]

Sorry to start another post am struggling badly at the moment thoughts of self injury and suicide want to do something soon my husband knows am deeply depressed i have asked drs for help but they say its nothing to do with my medication this time of year is a bad time for me my step dad birthday he died 6 years ago by suicide and i miss him so much
they drs says i maybe ok after my step dad birthday its just this time of year getting to me
i am on medication but they will not sort it my regular dr is now on holiday my psych also says the same and has no appointment until August i feel i cant hold on until then i cant keep going with no help i dont have a therapist i see my pastor every few days but he has been off ill and he just came back from being ill i dont want to lay it all out while he still not 100 %
my husband tries to be supportive but he keeps saying i need to handle things better and that medication cant do everything i have to try and deal with it like an adult

its 6am my husband is sleeping am sitting up on my own on here alone i cant sleep and his plan for me not sleeping is tomorrow he going to turn the internet off between 4am and 7am so i dont get up so early

i need help and no one is helping me am meant to be going out to a group later on today my husband will be with me as i cant go out on my own its karaokie sometimes i sing but i dont feel up to it at all , just want to hide

am close to doing something stupid

 

[teresa]

what kind of paper did you use to wrote to your dad and did you use colored pencils or colored pens?

 

[Aleksandros]

I am glad. I know that the Lord is with you - I'd offered up prayer for you, but a little while after - just a bit ago, when I was reading this post, He moved upon me and put a strong burden on my heart for you, and made me pray specifically for you to have a deeper relationship with Christ. What a prayer that was!

I believe I was moved because of your prayer. I figured it's good for you to know.