struggling against my nature of sin

[daniangela]

Hi. I'm new here. It's hard for me to come out of my isolation--I'm fighting depression and a personality disorder. It's hard for me to tell anyone what's going on in my head because I know people will judge me. I know people in my prayer group and in my bible study class well enough to know they're not having similar struggles.

My church is a small protestant denomination in a mostly catholic city in Italy. Members who have serious problems living a balanced life seem to just leave the church. There is no celebrating recovery progam in all of Italy. I've been praying both with my prayer group and alone for guidance and help from God. But it is not enough. I could really use the help of knowing people who are working the 12-steps in order to live according to God's will. I can't do it on my own and my fellow church members just don't understand why simple things are so difficult for me.

I'm trying to be hopeful and thankful and I know I'm God's daughter because I accept Christ as my savior. I want to live daily as His daughter and that's really hard for me.

Thanks for reading this.

Greetings, prayers and advice all very welcome.

God bless you all.

dani

 

[mebby02]

Oh wow thats horrible people would judge you like that between me and you l never tell anyone but l have a learning disbility l feel the same way you do. People judge me l don't like who l'm my husband has schizophrenia he thought when l was dating l would break up with him. I never did l stayed with him he doesn't hear voices anymore just has trouble controlling his thoughts l'm here for you hun. I understand where you are coming from when l was in high school people got annoyed with me cause l couldn't do anything right and my mom never gave me confidence she was never there for me. Always made me feel sad l'm a very sensitive person cause of it if you want to talk to me let me know l will be here for you we can help each other. Everything will be ok hun l have done so many things l'm not happy about it have a good day you will be in my thoughts.

God bless you

 

[Criada]

Welcome to CF, sister.
I'm sorry you're struggling so much at the moment - people can be very judgemental when it comes to mental illness.
We have a depression forum here which is very supportive - come and join us there, you won't be judgedin any way
Praying for you, sweetie

 

[daniangela]

Thank you Mebby02 and Criada. I'm feeling better today and your responses were up lifting. I know your prayers are being heard and some of the Holy Spirit's guidance is starting to get through to me. I look forward to posting and reading your posts in the future. I'll be praying for you, too.

dani

 

[mebby02]

Your welcome hun anytime thanks for praying for me that was so nice of you l'm glad your feeling better .

 

[sevenmsw]

In my experience as an addiction counsellor I have to say. If there is no 12 steps then go where there is 12 steps. This may not be practical advice in your case. Then again it may be. Try channelling your energy into helping others. Make sure you have someone to talk about your "nature of sin" with. Everyone has a sinful nature by the way... most people who think they are bad are about as bad as a boil on a bad man's butt. God Bless!