struggles

[PsychoSoul]

Im not asking for any help or anything but just thought i'd type out some of mine. puts it in a different persective when you type it out and read it i guess.. well any.. im 15, feel 700, i don't know what i am. i been *saved* and all that did the whole bible reading , church and youth groups, but i never felt conected to that or to God for that matter. so i dont feel like i am christian. I've had 4 families in like 4 years so i stuggle with feeling like i belong to anything. just like your hear but your just visiting. i been cursed with thoughts of death sinse i was 10 years old. that never seems to get better, i tired a few times but as you can see, im still breathing. . i been told to have these mental disfuctions, which i have a hard time believeing. So dont know about that. I have been delivered twice but im still the same old me. i now doubt God is he real and if he is well then what is he doing exsactly besides watching. so i guess pretty much im normal

 

[paulnoel]

your not alone your part of a group known as christians , and they're availiable to help you, to be your friends. If your feeling lonely, look for other people your age who really want to know God and do what he says. And don't stop there, christians are made up of adults and children too. Find some grown-ups who have won out over some of the things you're facing now. Keep an eye out for little kids who might need to know what you had to learn the hard way.As a person, you are so incredibly valuable to God.You are also part of something valuable to him....-other christians
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[sin_vladimirov]

God of gods and Lord of Lords help the young people who are trying to find Your Light in this dark world. Have mercy on those who are the future and who are confused and feeling lost.

Lord grant the vision of Your mercy to all those who are questioning themselves by questioning You.

Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on all and on this young person.

Glory to You, O Lord glory to You.

in ICXC
Stefan+

 

[heron]

PsychoSoul, welcome here!
I've always written down everything I think, and it helps me feel grounded. You certainly have reason for feeling that way--I can even feel uprooted on a vacation!

It sounds like you've developed a solid feeling of being yourself, which is important in getting you through life. Even when death feels more comfortable than life to us, sometimes it's our sense of self that pulls us along through hard times.

Even if you don't feel connected to God, He's still there for you. Some people value spirituality on who talks more in youth group, or who says more spiritual prayers. God sees your insides, and knows you're being honest with Him about your faith.

Thanks for talking with us.

 

[Anti Existance]

It must be hard that whenever you don't feel home and change constantly into new enviroments that you can never have the feeling of being 'settled' anywhere. The good news is that earth isn't our natural home at all. We belong to be with God, that is where our natural home is. In such perspective its natural that you have the feeling that you don't want to be here. So why are you here at all? God put you here for a reason , in order to become a stronger spirit you have been put in this weak body and it is the constant struggle that the spirit has to keep the body alive and breathing and pressing it thru difficult circumstances which makes it stronger. That's why throwing the towel into the ring is wrong, and why suicide is never an option. God has promised us not to intervene with our lives, unless we ask him too. Every person has a certain amount of time 'given' to us on this earth. You need to make it from start to finish. So all these feelings you have are no more then natural. But like any exam you should try to do your best. You can become a happy person, by loving and helping other thru-out your entire life. That's why you are here on earth to help and love others.

 

[Lordzhelper2]

I am blessed by the honesty and transparency that Psychosoul has shown. I am also blessed by the wonderful advice given from each person who has responded. I have lived a life much like that of Psychosoul and it's been a long journey. I don't belive it to be a life cursed by God, but instead a life to be shared with others to help them along their journey. If we all lived perfect lives...well then that would be heaven huh? The fact is that we all live different lives, go through different hardships and carry different burdens; but as Christians we are called to help our brothers and sisters carry their burdens. So we ask you Psychosoul to keep us informed so that we may continue to pray for you and keep you lifted up. - Your brother in Christ

 

[Serapha]

Im not asking for any help or anything but just thought i'd type out some of mine. puts it in a different persective when you type it out and read it i guess.. well any.. im 15, feel 700, i don't know what i am. i been *saved* and all that did the whole bible reading , church and youth groups, but i never felt conected to that or to God for that matter. so i dont feel like i am christian. I've had 4 families in like 4 years so i stuggle with feeling like i belong to anything. just like your hear but your just visiting. i been cursed with thoughts of death sinse i was 10 years old. that never seems to get better, i tired a few times but as you can see, im still breathing. . i been told to have these mental disfuctions, which i have a hard time believeing. So dont know about that. I have been delivered twice but im still the same old me. i now doubt God is he real and if he is well then what is he doing exsactly besides watching. so i guess pretty much im normal

Hi there!



If you are having "thoughts of death".... I just want to be certain that you know that you know Jesus Christ is your personal Savior. Being redeemed isn't a feeling, but a fact. Either you are "saved" or you aren't.

If you died today, do you know that you would spend eternity in the presence of God?

i been told to have these mental disfuctions, which i have a hard time believeing.

It is pretty dysfunctional to consider suicide as an alternative to life. You are so young and have so much of life in front of you. God has a specific plan for your life... and you have a choice to live in the perfect will of God or in the permissive will of God. You can choose God's way for your life, or you can choose your own way for your life. Even Christians still have free will for decision-making.

I have been delivered twice but im still the same old me.

That's because you consider the "same old you" to be oppressed. God doesn't do a less than perfect work unless you expect less than a perfect work.

i now doubt God is he real and if he is well then what is he doing exsactly besides watching.

Maybe He's waiting for you to stop living in the valley of the shadow of death... and maybe He's waiting for you to move on... maybe God is using you as an example for others? Sometimes the trials we go through aren't for "us" but for those who are wating "us" go through the trial.

I suggest that you being to praise God for everything that happens because He IS in control. I suggest that you make your trial into a blessing.


It's a choice.


~serapha~