I was wondering if anyone in here who has lost someone very close and dear to them, ever experienced the lack of desire to go to church?
In my case, I have. I don't understand it. When my mother passed away, sure I was upset and angry because it was unfair for all of us ( and I still feel as though it were unfair for her because she didn't want to die yet.) but I wasn't angry at God as so many assumed I would be. But I did not start grieving properly until about 4 months after she passed when i lost all desire to continue going to church.
I never lost my faith in God, in fact He is more real to me than ever, but I question so much about what i believed in the past, and the existence of heaven has become so much more important to me now, since I want to have some sort of assurance in knowing my mom is in a 'place' where she is content finally. The big question for me has been 'will I ever see her again?'. So many are quick to tell me that i will be reunited with her, and instead of that being comforting it is actually irritating and does the opposite for me.
I just really do not understand why I could care less about going to church anymore - is anyone able to share their story or maybe give me some insight into why this has happened?
thank- you.
In my case, I have. I don't understand it. When my mother passed away, sure I was upset and angry because it was unfair for all of us ( and I still feel as though it were unfair for her because she didn't want to die yet.) but I wasn't angry at God as so many assumed I would be. But I did not start grieving properly until about 4 months after she passed when i lost all desire to continue going to church.
I never lost my faith in God, in fact He is more real to me than ever, but I question so much about what i believed in the past, and the existence of heaven has become so much more important to me now, since I want to have some sort of assurance in knowing my mom is in a 'place' where she is content finally. The big question for me has been 'will I ever see her again?'. So many are quick to tell me that i will be reunited with her, and instead of that being comforting it is actually irritating and does the opposite for me.
I just really do not understand why I could care less about going to church anymore - is anyone able to share their story or maybe give me some insight into why this has happened?
thank- you.