I'm struggling with self pleasure (sounds better). I was clean for 4 years. Since I stopped with my fetish, which aroused me, I find myself doing it again. I wish I felt guilty doing it, but I don't really. I do it for the feeling and very rarely have lustful thoughts. I've read other posts on other threads on this site and I get mixed feelings about the subject. I myself don't plan on ever getting married. I struggle in other areas and am very sexually messed up, not to say that God can't heal me from this. I just don't want to mess up someone's life up, and stay away from any relationship. My friends say that I should keep those feelings for my future wife, but if I don't plan on getting married is it still wrong that I do it?