Starving myself

[Lily76_]

Am starving myself
having 1000 calories a day some times less than that
when i do eat i feel bad i hate myself and i know its wrong
am being vain because i want to be thin
am obese have been since i was a kid i have been fighting my eating disorder
for a while
i either starve myself or i binge
i cant get any help for my eating disorder as am too fat for help ( in the uk they only see people who are underweight bmi 16 or lower mine is bmi is 40
i cant seem to stop i must be thin i go on pro ana forums talking to other who are doing the same as me
Some starving some binging and purging taking diet pills ,
I know the pro ana forums are bad but i cant give them up
i have to lose all this weight ...

I am sinning am being vain i dont know what the bible say about doing this
sorry id post this in the eating disorder forum but no one posts there much

 

[Goodbook]

oh no!
Well you know the Lords Prayer, Jesus taught us? Give us today our daily bread.

meditate on that.
He didn't say, eat all your bread at once and starve yourself for the rest of the week did he?
Also...Jesus is the living bread.

If you are sinning just repent - make up your mind that you going to follow Him and not sin anymore. Ask Jesus for help to wash away your sins. God will forgive you. We can pray for you.

 

[graceandpeace]

ILoveJesus,

Being sick is not sinful.

You need professional help. Don't worry about whether you qualify, make an appointment with your doctor & tell them what is going on.

 

[Lily76_]

I have already told me dr all she does is weight me which makes me feel worse and wanting to starve myself more
only help i can get is a eating disorder group but i stopped going because i was the biggest there and it made me feel worse about myself

I dont know what to do anymore my husband is so worried about me
I want diet pills ...even thinking about take drugs to help me to loses weight
i cant stop

 

[Goodbook]

You need Dr Jesus! Why you ignoring him?
Also..not sure why you have a huge picture of a fairy creature on your signature?

 

[Lily76_]

Am sorry but you are rude Goodbook, yes i believe in Jesus but not as easy as just praying and reading the bible
There are reasons for eating disorders some times with it is other mental health issues
EATING DISORDERS ARE A MENTAL ILLNESS not because someone chooses to starve themselves
if i could just stop i would of by now

 

[paul1149]

ILJ,

It's much better to seek health than to seek to lose weight. When you make weight loss the goal you often take shortcuts that do not yield permanent results because they don't build the metabolic platform for continued health. Plus those shortcuts very often actually harm the body, through inadequate nutrition, catabolism of muscle mass, which is the engine of the metabolism. Seeking health involves proper diet and exercise and a positive thought life, and sound relationships, especially with the Lord. Maybe a health counselor would be a good idea, or you could simply research it on the Web. Hating yourself is not Jesus' way. He loves you and it pains Him to see you feel that way about yourself. He wants the best, so if you seek change in that light you will a) do no harm to yourself, and b) bear fruit that remains.

 

[Messy]

Am starving myself
having 1000 calories a day some times less than that
when i do eat i feel bad i hate myself and i know its wrong
am being vain because i want to be thin
am obese have been since i was a kid i have been fighting my eating disorder
for a while
i either starve myself or i binge
i cant get any help for my eating disorder as am too fat for help ( in the uk they only see people who are underweight bmi 16 or lower mine is bmi is 40
i cant seem to stop i must be thin i go on pro ana forums talking to other who are doing the same as me
Some starving some binging and purging taking diet pills ,
I know the pro ana forums are bad but i cant give them up
i have to lose all this weight ...

I am sinning am being vain i dont know what the bible say about doing this
sorry id post this in the eating disorder forum but no one posts there much

Oh I was a bit fat when I was 18 and I hated it so I took 1000 calories a day. That was just a normal diet to lose some pounds, not starving yourself. The last years a lot of days I ate 1000 or less, just bread with cheese, out of laziness and I wasn't hungry but I gained some kilo's now and my belly and back started to hurt all day if I weigh more than 59 kilo and I became fat so then I just eat bread for a few days and I'm normal again. When I was I think 12 until 24 I couldn't buy candy, I had to eat everything that was in the house and also when I lost weight and was quite thin. So my ex kicked a demon of gluttony out in church and I was quite offended, but since then I never had to eat everything in the house anymore and could just buy things for a week or more or lots of times no candy at all. Just ate normal.

 

[Goodbook]

sorry, but sometimes you have to be rude.
you seem focused on your problem rather than take it to Jesus who has given you the authority to cast any demons out.

I know I wouldn't want to label myself mentally ill if I knew the wiles of the enemy. And I know people set free, including myself.
well, nice knowing you.

 

[Lily76_]

you know what good book people like you are the reason people are too scared to get help for there mental health
i have problems i know that i talk to Jesus every day ... i pray for people who are like me with mental health problems
you make me want to leave here and not come back
Am so upset about your posts
people with mental health problems need help and understanding
people like you can cause someone to take there own life people like you are why most people with mental health dont seek professional help
your whole attitude is bad
mental health isn't about demons ....you question my faith yet you know nothing about me
you have no idea about me

Well thank you am done with people like you

 

[angelkiss]

I have a cousin who had this struggle. l watched her health decline through the years. It is an illness that happens to be very real, I know. It not only affects you, but those around you as well. Binge eating, throwing up, laxatives.....my cousin did it all. What she didn't realize, was it was destroying her body inside. She later developed cancer. Thank God, she's in remission, but all the stress she put her body through made matters worse. I pray you find a safe and healthy way to reach your goal.
Blessings,
angelkiss

 

[Lily76_]

Am sorry to hear about your cousin angel kiss i hope she remeins in good health and thank you

 

[BFine]

What was going on in your home when you
were a child?

You mentioned mental illness? Are you seeing
a counselor or therapist for that?

 

[Lily76_]

my childhood i have unclear memory's of it
My sister says we where abused at a young age
my teens i was also abused by people my mother knew

i have a psych and a dr that to see every so often there not doing anything about my eating disorder
maybe because am too fat
am waiting to seea therpaist but am in the uk andi have to wait a few months to see her and i cant afford to pay for one

 

[graceandpeace]

I have already told me dr all she does is weight me which makes me feel worse and wanting to starve myself more
only help i can get is a eating disorder group but i stopped going because i was the biggest there and it made me feel worse about myself

I dont know what to do anymore my husband is so worried about me
I want diet pills ...even thinking about take drugs to help me to loses weight
i cant stop

Is there a different doctor you could go see? I don't know much about healthcare in the UK.

Would you be willing to reach out to the eating disorder group again?

Your weight does not determine your worthiness or need for help.

I can only imagine how you must feel, but don't give up & don't lose hope.

 

[Lily76_]

i need to find out when its on its not on every week and am unsure when there meeting
but i can find out at the day center i go to

 

[aiki]

Am starving myself
having 1000 calories a day some times less than that
when i do eat i feel bad i hate myself and i know its wrong
am being vain because i want to be thin
am obese have been since i was a kid i have been fighting my eating disorder
for a while
i either starve myself or i binge
i cant get any help for my eating disorder as am too fat for help ( in the uk they only see people who are underweight bmi 16 or lower mine is bmi is 40
i cant seem to stop i must be thin i go on pro ana forums talking to other who are doing the same as me
Some starving some binging and purging taking diet pills ,
I know the pro ana forums are bad but i cant give them up
i have to lose all this weight ...
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I am sinning am being vain i dont know what the bible say about doing this
sorry id post this in the eating disorder forum but no one posts there much

Well, the Bible does not say that you need to get "professional help," and maybe some drugs, and to pathologize your thinking and behaviour. Instead it says things like,

2 Timothy 1:7
7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

Did you notice that last part? You have been given a "sound mind" by God. Not a mind overpowered by eating urges and starving obsessions. Are you living in accord with what God's Word says about you? It doesn't look like it...And maybe that's a big part of the problem.

Over and over again in the Bible we are told that peace, and grace, and faith and joy are found in Jesus Christ and God the Father. It doesn't sound like this is your experience, however. Why do you think that is? Is the Bible false? Is it lying to you? Did God not know about eating disorders when He inspired the writing of the Bible?

How is your relationship with God these days? Do you love Him? If so, how would you prove it to someone else?

All that we need to live "godly in Christ Jesus" is found in fellowship with God. It is my belief that if you are not finding the stability and peace that God offers to all of His children, it is because there is something awry with your relationship with Him.

Selah.

 

[Odetta]

Absolutely every person needs to make sure their relationship with Christ. However, that does not mean that a person should neglect getting medical help for an illness. Mental illness is just as valid a condition as, say, diabetes or cancer. Many christians will disagree with this, and I think that is bunk. A number of mental illnesses can end in destroyed relationships, poor physical health or even death, and to say that someone only needs Jesus - that medical help is not necessary or doesn't apply in the case of mental illness - is extremely dangerous to the person suffering. I think it is a sin to encourage that kind of danger.

God gives wisdom, and that wisdom includes wisdom to professionals who treat illnesses, develop medications and therapeutic services, etc. Why someone would not avail themselves of God's wisdom, I don't understand.

And all this is not to say that you don't need prayer, you don't need faith, you don't need to immerse yourself in the Word. All of those things still apply. But all of that does not deny that it can be helpful to avail yourself of the wisdom God gave others to help you.

 

[aiki]

Odetta, what do you do with the verse I posted from 2Timothy 1 about God giving His children a sound mind? Was God mistaken about what he inspired Paul to write to Timothy? What do you do with Galatians 5:22 where we read that the fruit of God's Spirit within us is self-control? Is mental illness beyond the power of God's Spirit to affect? I think there are people who are genuinely mentally/emotionally ill; that is, there is an actual physical cause of their mental illness. But I also think that the vast majority of people who are diagnosed as mentally ill these days are simply the victims of their own poor thought habits. We legitimize irresponsibility and encourage superficial spirituality when we agree to pathologize simple bad thinking. But what better way for the psychiatric professionals and drug companies to make money than to make every sad moment, and fearful thought, and strong urge a cause for therapy and medication?

I once struggled profoundly with depression and what would be described as anxiety and OCD. My struggle had a very strong physical component. I was insomniac, and had breathing and swallowing issues. I was also at times suicidal. But it has been many years since God resolved these things in my life. And He did so without my ever seeking professional help or taking drugs. I am convinced that what God did for me He can do for anyone - if they take walking with Him seriously. That's what I had to do. I had to be crowded to Him by my fear and unhappiness and in desperation begin to follow the principles, and commands, and truth of His Word. And as I did, lo and behold, the peace, stability and joy God promises all of His children became mine.

You see my advice as "bunk" and as dangerous, but that is exactly how I see your point of view. Not so much bunk, maybe, as dangerous because it works to keep people from depending upon God and walking with Him as they should, which is, I am convinced, exactly what they need to do to be truly free of their internal struggles. I have a number of people in my social sphere who are either clinically anxious or depressed. They have had countless hours of therapy and have taken drug after drug and, years later, are worse off than they were when they were first "diagnosed." What you would urge people toward very often does not help one iota. But God promises that if we walk well with Him an abundant life awaits us. I will take the promise of God over the diagnoses of fallible, comparatively ignorant humans any day.

Isaiah 26:3-4
3 You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You.
4 Trust in the Lord forever, For in Yah, the Lord, is everlasting strength.

Psalms 34:4
4 I sought the Lord, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears.

Selah.

 

[Autumnleaf]

Talk to your doctor before following my advice because I don't want to get sued if it goes badly...

I lost 20 pound eating as much as I wanted. I only ate fresh fruits and vegetables and salt and pepper and oregano and chicken sauteed in a tablespoon of olive oil. I had one cheat meal on Sunday where I ate a serving of whatever I wanted for one meal, no leftovers allowed. No refined carbs except during cheat meal. It is a twist on the paleo diet. Starving myself always failed when I tried it so I stopped calorie cutting and counting and just ate as much as I wanted of what God provided from the fruit of the earth.