starting to think...

[nateboy]

This is probably way out there but I am starting to think that a lot of people who are diagnosed with anxiety actually has Bipolar. I was on that list. I didn't know that when you have seasonal anxiety or anxiety that causes you to be "hypomanic-like" could have been bipolar. I look at others around me who are dx with Anxiety and note that they actually could have it, too. I know of one woman who seem like she has only Anxiety, but the others...??? Hummm... it seems bipolar is often misdx. At the same time, having this label can really stink when it comes to life insurance or medical insurance. I am so thankful I got my life insurance before I was dx.

I pretty much feel that life will completely fail if I don't remember everything I need to do on a given day. It's true that in my job if I forget a few things it could really affect other people, but there has to be a happy medium. The anxiety has always made it so I am hypomanic like and just need to keep going for fear that everything will fall apart. I can't stop until everything needs to be done (although sleep will get the best of me at times). When I am extremely tired (could be depression), my body just shuts down and forces me to stop. So, that is me now. Tomorrow I could feel completely different. This stinks. I am not supposed to be anxious this time of year...I am usually more tired (depressed). At least when I am like that, I don't stress out as much - I am too tired to care. I do have happy mediums in there. When I am at my emotional end, then the Lord gives me strength. It's just the strength seems to happen so late in the game.

I am very convinced that the Lord has given me this burden or "thorn in my side," in order to remind me who He is and that I can do only do everything by He who gives me strength. What a wonderful promise!! Take away are bills, ups and downs and other stressors in life - we are BLESSED!! We know what it's like to be completely dependent on God during are rough times.

 

[berry2000]

Oh great does this mean I won't be able to get life insurance.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Dear Nateboy


Some of your description sounds very familiar with my life style before going full blown bipolar 1.



MERCK medical Manuel is a good place to learn about this. I found it in the library.



Uni-polar can be very good for business. You appear to have blinders on and you COMPLETELY focus on what your working on. Helps with the $.


One day I got stuck on what I was working on, couldn't sleep, drinking as much coffee as possible and smoking sometimes 2 cigs. at a time. Went to the coast to get away and could not get that off my mind. Ended up in a mental holding cell and then committed for 28 days. That's when I became bipolar.


It gets worse but I won't go into that right now.


Stay with your doctor. If it appears he is not doing the job get another and stay on their back till they have you on the right meds.


IT IS VERY SERIOUS!!! LIFE OR DEATH SERIOUS!!!


EVEN IN THIS REMEMBER:




X Even though you can't see him, GOD is there!!! O
( click on the x and drag to the O ) ( then see who is with you ) steven

 

[nateboy]

HOw wonderful to know that this may be the beginning. It is 3:00 and the meds that are supposed to put me to sleep or not working. Wonderful - can we say hypomania?? I could probably stay up all night. I actually forget to eat because I can get so hyperfocused. The people at my job basically make me it and a specific time and yell, "It's time to eat, get your food, we are going!

As for being unipolar. My blinders are so severe.People can completely hate me and I have no idea. I do have the blinders on and am just getting my work done...very interesting. I have usually been very successful at my job because of it. Yep, I can hear what you are saying on getting away. It seem that I can't stop obessessing on my job or other things...I have lists constinetly going through my mind as well as other things. The thoughts don't stop. Even when I am having a good time,they are still there. My doctor today is going to keep me on Lamictal, Klonopin for sleep as sequel gave me ticks and for some reason made anxiety worse (my brain is very different than most), so I will be trying Paxil. that did help with anxiety in the past but gave me darn ticks like seroquel did. I am hoping this timewill be different. I am also feeling a bit hypomanic becuase now I feel I can finally do the impossible case load at my school and won't ask to work part time. Write now I feel I can do it all and no one is going to stop me. So, it this mania??? GRRR>>> At least I will get a lot done.

Concerning insurance. If you ahve the dx of bipolar good luck. I do know of someone who did get life insurance even after he was hospitalized. How? I don't know. I think he personally knew the guy. Unfortutely my husband couldn't get it with one company. he went to another and did qualify but for three times as much. He is paying 75$ a month for life insurance. Pretty much sucks, but we know how important it is. My husband is so mild. I am not dx with biplor but with Anxiety and ADD. All psychiatrist are very protective of me and the diagnosis because they no it can really screw someoneup.
There is hope but you may have to either pay more or go to diferent agencies until you find the right one. As for findng a private medical issurance..very good luck. I am sure people on this website has good ideas...they are the brains to pick.