Starting to be afraid.....

[aflower4God]

...of a lot of people; who can I trust???? I feel that people who were there for me at one time are avoiding me cause I am not "popular" and/or cause of rumors from the "popular one's" I thought that crap would end the moment that people left school, but I guess not.
A lot of people want to be my "secret friend" meaning that they will talk to me ONLY in secrecy so others don't find out that they are talking to a LOSER like me.
Lets just say this, I have more stuffed animal friends than I do real friends, so yeah, go ahead and laugh at me I don't care cause it is true I do have A LOT more stuffed animal friends; my stuffed animals don't listen to gossip nor do they out cast me for stupid reasons. I will stand for my stuffed animals as I KNOW they love me dearly. They do not judge me they understand me and love me for my good heart and love me for my struggles as well.
Yes my major struggle in life is how I can't cope with being left out, it is so depressing and has crippled my life so badly beyond words. Also this struggle is getting worse and worse as days go by, it is unbearable. Many people don't understand that feeling cause they keep on leaving me out (mostly online).
I just want to hit the "lotto" and that "Lotto" is for me to go to heaven! I DON"T BELONG HERE! Just ask the majority of people in this world.
Also, I would make a GREAT hermit away from the thing that hurts me most, BEING LEFT OUT!
Sorry for being so negative. I am just VERY depressed beyond words cause of being left out mostly online!

 

[Perhaps Today]

Flower, just reading this breaks my heart. You're a wonderful friend and a blessing to me, it's part of who you are. I'm thankful for the friendship we have. I want you to know I will keep on praying for you now and always. May God richly bless you in all things my dear friend.

 

[InVinoVeritas]

aflower4God.. You're better off with your stuffed animals if the people you know are doing that popular malarky. Find some friends who aren't so shallow.

 

[louise sheinholtz]

...of a lot of people; who can I trust???? I feel that people who were there for me at one time are avoiding me cause I am not "popular" and/or cause of rumors from the "popular one's" I thought that crap would end the moment that people left school, but I guess not.
A lot of people want to be my "secret friend" meaning that they will talk to me ONLY in secrecy so others don't find out that they are talking to a LOSER like me.
Lets just say this, I have more stuffed animal friends than I do real friends, so yeah, go ahead and laugh at me I don't care cause it is true I do have A LOT more stuffed animal friends; my stuffed animals don't listen to gossip nor do they out cast me for stupid reasons. I will stand for my stuffed animals as I KNOW they love me dearly. They do not judge me they understand me and love me for my good heart and love me for my struggles as well.
Yes my major struggle in life is how I can't cope with being left out, it is so depressing and has crippled my life so badly beyond words. Also this struggle is getting worse and worse as days go by, it is unbearable. Many people don't understand that feeling cause they keep on leaving me out (mostly online).
I just want to hit the "lotto" and that "Lotto" is for me to go to heaven! I DON"T BELONG HERE! Just ask the majority of people in this world.
Also, I would make a GREAT hermit away from the thing that hurts me most, BEING LEFT OUT!
Sorry for being so negative. I am just VERY depressed beyond words cause of being left out mostly online!

Hi
You don't have to trust people, you just should not resent people because resentment only hurts yourself. People do not know what they do most are under control of dark forces and can't help themselves.
That is biblical. "Forgive them Father for they know not what they do."

I went through a lot of resentment, hate towards others because when I was a child I was treated cruely by my parents and it caused me to feel uncomfortable in the presence of others who I secretly resented. It was when I started to look at myself and not at others I learned to see my own faults that caused me to cry out to God and it was painful seeing the truth, but, it was what God wanted me to confess. Today I feel compassion for others. I thank God for allowing me to face the truth about myself that brought me closer to God.
See your own self and stop judging others, that is the path to God.
Louise

 

[InVinoVeritas]

Louise is right there actually flower. Thats good advice. By the grace of God you can have compassion and even love for those people rather than judgement.

My post there probably didn't come from a v good place

xxx

 

[NumberOfStars]

you're in my thoughts and prayers. You're a good friend and my amazing sister in Christ.
Luv ya lots

 

[Victorium]

I really love and care about you Flower, you might not think so, but I do and I pray & think about you often. It's heartbreaking that you are struggling like this, please don't lose hope. May you find that peace & love you are looking for.

Victor.

 

[If Not For Grace]

Start by trusting yourself to make good judgments. Trust is not for the masses. We are to choose our inner circle wisely. Sit back & watch people. Ask yourself these questions:

Are they punctual? Dependable (even in small things like being on time)? Fiscally responsible?

Do they frequently engage in self-pity? Gossip?

Are they confident, needy, gainfully employed?

Do they make their own decisions, live on their own?

Based on the answers make assessments. And Trust is not ALL at one time with everything..it's like power-it corrupts some people. Trust is a valuable thing, do not waste it on those without the skills to care for it.

and Left out of what? A circle of people based on what exactly. Change your playgrounds and your playmates. Sometimes you gotta be your own cheerleader for awhile. Healthy People want positive friends (don't you?) not emotional vampires. You have to be ok with you, and exercise self care and self-love before you can expect others to treat you well. If you are hanging with shallow people you will be treated shallow. Find some people with roots, and common interests. Start.

 

[LottyH]

AflowerforGod, you are such a sweetie! I've followed some of your posts and you are such a good friend to others who are in desperate need. There are many, many people who feel left out, rejected and lonely that need your friendship and would readily accept it. Maybe the 'popular' people aren't worthy to have a friend like you. Jesus spoke very harshly to the Pharisees and they were 'popular' with a very high standing in society. God's ways are very, very different so I'm glad you are not in the supposed 'popular' crowd!

 

[Chococat]

...of a lot of people; who can I trust???? I feel that people who were there for me at one time are avoiding me cause I am not "popular" and/or cause of rumors from the "popular one's" I thought that crap would end the moment that people left school, but I guess not.
A lot of people want to be my "secret friend" meaning that they will talk to me ONLY in secrecy so others don't find out that they are talking to a LOSER like me.
Lets just say this, I have more stuffed animal friends than I do real friends, so yeah, go ahead and laugh at me I don't care cause it is true I do have A LOT more stuffed animal friends; my stuffed animals don't listen to gossip nor do they out cast me for stupid reasons. I will stand for my stuffed animals as I KNOW they love me dearly. They do not judge me they understand me and love me for my good heart and love me for my struggles as well.
Yes my major struggle in life is how I can't cope with being left out, it is so depressing and has crippled my life so badly beyond words. Also this struggle is getting worse and worse as days go by, it is unbearable. Many people don't understand that feeling cause they keep on leaving me out (mostly online).
I just want to hit the "lotto" and that "Lotto" is for me to go to heaven! I DON"T BELONG HERE! Just ask the majority of people in this world.
Also, I would make a GREAT hermit away from the thing that hurts me most, BEING LEFT OUT!
Sorry for being so negative. I am just VERY depressed beyond words cause of being left out mostly online!

I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so down. One thing I will say and this is what my counsellor said to me is when you think people are talking and gossiping about you is ask yourself what evidence you have? I haven't come across anyone talking about you on here (but then I am not on here all that often) so are you sure that it is not a lie being fed to you by Satan in order to make you feel even more insecure. I understand you not trusting people though as I find it hard to trust people myself because I too have been badly hurt in the past by people and to be honest I trust my 2 cats more than I do most humans! However it is a good thing to be cautious about people until you get to know them as there are some bad people in the world though there are also a lot of good people in it too.