spiritually dead

[TheAcherMan]

I'm just wondering if anybody has any advice. My walk with God died two summers ago and I've been spiritually dead ever since. God and I never clicked and I've realized that it's pointless to try to force a relationship with God. I want the purpose and security that comes with Christianity, but if I'm honest with myself, I don't want God or his salvation. The gospel (which I know well) just isn't real to me. Still, I am more convinced that Christianity is right than any other religion and I'm tired of living such a skeptical and pointless life. So what should I do since I can't force anything? I know I probably need God, but I don't want him or Christianity.

I know my heart is very hard right now, so I don't really expect life-changing answers. But I'd still like to know what others think.

 

[BlessEwe]

Welcome TheAcherMan!

The disciples walked with Jesus and saw His healing and miracles daily. They at times were with little faith, and Jesus knew this. Think about the Love and patience He still had for them. We tend to think with our emotions, sometimes like a roller coaster. Up one day or down another, sometimes even stopping in a valley questioning our walk, and existence.
The reality is that God is there holding you without the roller coaster of emotions/ Never changing. Our hearts can hold Him at a distance and close ourself off. With this said pray for God to open your eyes/heart to His truth, to see His glory and unconditional love. To break through the barriers of our humanness. What you are talking about is very common, you posted on a christian site so I feel you do have a strong desire to seek God, He See's your heart and deepest desires.

Another thing I have done is write to God, and put down the changes you want in your life to be closer to Him. Put the letter in a box and open this time next year. I have found how Gods Hand moved so slowly and gently in my life. That I may not have noticed if I didn't write it down, as life moves so fast. God bless and perhaps put a prayer request in the prayer area too.

 

[Criada]

As BlessEwe says, the fact that you are here, that you think Christianity is right, shows that your heart isn't really as hard as you think it is.
The thing is, it isn't all about feelings. God loves you unconditionally... and whilst the warm fuzzies are nice, how you feel makes no difference, He loves you just the same.

You ask what you should do... to some extent, that is a decision you need to make. If you do want to walk with God, then the only advice I can give, which has helped me through dry times, is to just keep acting as though you do feel His presence. Pray, read the bible, confess your feelings and thoughts to Him, even if it feels as though He can't hear, or isn't interested.
And, one day, you will come out of the desert and back to where you want to be.
It is hard... but most of the great men and women of God in the past have gone through desert experiences... and have grown and learned through them
God can use this too... you just have to decide whether to hold on.

God bless you, brother, I'm praying for you.

 

[cesty]

Are you really spiritually dead or just simply disappointed?


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKGZn247Y2E

 

[UnitynLove]

Are you really spiritually dead or just simply disappointed?


YouTube - God's Forgiveness

Good video!

 

[angini]

If it makes you feel any better, I have been where you are at many times in the past. I have recently come back to the church, this time I have found something that I did not find before. Rather, the Lord has come upon me or revealed himself to me in ways I never imagined. I would always read others posts and stories about their solid faith, I really did want what they had. I didn't have it.

Like you, I felt that Christianity was more right than any other religion, and I never did give up my faith in Jesus, no matter how far I have strayed over the years. I have continued to pray in some pathetic way. I also have felt very distant from God, completely cut off, for years at a time. I would always search, just like you are. Things would always turn around, then I would seem to fall off again, completely confused, not knowing why.

I have tried Buddhist philosophy and meditation, Transcendental meditation; these things are geared toward the self, but I found more of God in them, which just led me back to Jesus. I also tried various Christian churches, felt pretty good, then one day; nothing.

You are very young, still finding your way. Somewhere deep in your spirit you are looking for your relationship with the Lord. I believe you will find it. You are continuing your search, even though you feel like giving up, something in your spirit won't let you. Just give it time. Two years seems like a long time to us, but maybe it's not so long to God.

This time it is more than a 'feeling' for me. I am not forcing it so much. I can't put it into words, but it is very real. I am glad the Lord kept prodding me along all these years.

God Bless You,
Angie

 

[Johnnz]

Possibly you have never had a rich, satisfying, genuinely life enhancing presentation of the Christian message?

John
NZ

 

[FineLinen25]

You won't be able to get ay farther my friend, untill you believe in God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Te scripter tells usto draw nigh to GOD and HE will draw nigh to us. HE cannot come into aheart that does not believe, HE isn't welcme there. Would you go somewhere you were not welcomed and the at the same time try to begin a relationship with that person?
There is no christiaity without GOD, becausewe can do nothing without HIM. All our works are as filthy rags, so you must ave HIM to be a christian.
blessings to you friend

 

[steelrain]

I have been a believer all my life. Well, since thirteen and have felt the same and right now am having a distance problem as well. For me its accepting his plan for me which calls for letting my nature die. It isn't easy at all letting go of my insecurities, attitudes, and even the sins he reveals to me. But faith is sometimes all I have to hold on to. This being one of those times. But I have felt his presence and desire most to feel his presence with me and I hold on to the faith that there will be a day when his presence will be felt continuously. One thing that may help is asking him to reveal himself to you.. He will!
Be blessed

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[journeying man]

I have just read an article by Rowan Williams who reflected that part of discipleship can be likened to bird watching ( or fishing if that's your thing) it requires stillness, awareness and expectation. Your original post shows you are ripe for harvest so give yourself some space, be alert and expectant... The fellowship of Christian brothers and sisters is also important to lean on, and God to gives us permission to lean on him, with intent to develop our relationship with him.

 

[cemab4y]

I think you might consider Freemasonry

 

[annrobert]

Jesus says whosoever will may come and drink from the water of Life.
Jesus says he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
So therefore Jesus will never turn down a single person who comes to Him for salvation.
No one needs to force Jesus to save them.
Jesus is not willing that any perish
in due time Christ died for the ungodly.
Jesus did not come to condemn but to save.
Jesus saves us while we are still His enemy
the carnal mind cannot and will submit to Jesus
yet Jesus makes all things new including our heart
the bible renews our mind as we read and pray every day
Jesus gives everyone the measure of faith.
Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
Our job is to come to Jesus ,just as we are
regardless of our doubts,fears,mistakes,feelings,sins,unbelief,or any other reason that we come up with
Jesus already died for all our sins
Jesus makes all things new
Our job is simple
come to Jesus just as we are
Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out
Jesus is Truth
Jesus said come to Me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest
Jesus said a smoking flax I will not snuff out and a bruised reed I will not crush
Jesus said I am annointed to heal the broken hearted and deliver the captive and set at liberty them who are bruised
We just come
Jesus will in no wise cast us out.
I hope this encourages you some.
Many people here have given some very encouraging posts
Jesus bless you
annrobert