Something isn't right.

[berry2000]

I can't put my finger on the really feelings, triggers, or cause. It just all feels jumbled and bad. REally depressed. Thoughts of self harm have returned full force. I totally miss it. Does that make me totally messed up? Well I do I miss it. And right now the temptation is really great. I want to and I don't want to all at the same time. I've made so much progress and yet it feels like I"m right back at the same place. I know something funky is going on with my mood and preshaps this is just a by product. I hope I can hold out. But my mood is so depresseed the intial thought is why bother? what for? who cares anyway?

 

[texannurse]

Oh can I totally sympathize!! I know that feeling all too well. I just pray that you can have the courage and strength to hold out. It is worth it - unbelievably hard but worth it!! God bless you TN

 

[HolyOne87]

I agree with texannurse..holding out is worth it in the end...im living proof of that. I use to cut like crazy and now I am trying to help others stop.
And I am sure that many people on here care about you berry..I've ran into you a lot on CF and i do care for you...like I care for so many others..I love everyone on this forum.
I will pray as well, that God gives you the strength to pull through and be strong.

+God Bless+

 

[berry2000]

I just wanted you all to know that I stayed safe! SEems like everytime I have the "battle" now...(with of course God and all my friends) I am winning the war! So it's been like 6 1/2 months now. AFter 8 years of cutting. It is amazing. Thank you all for supporting me and giving me a safe place to share when I am struggling.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

That's awesome Berry! Honestly...wow! ​

 

[Gimpy]

I know this is not the prayer forum but I am praying for you. I do care. I truely pray that God strengthens you for this and all the battles you will face throughout your life. You are precious and your life is precious. God is on your side, I know that and I am sure you know that, too. I am trying not to sound to cliche, but it is difficult. I just am asking you to let God stand in front of you to take on the enemy head on; face to face. He takes the brunt of the pain, the battle, the fight for love, for life. You still may have to be in the battle, but you will win.
God Bless you and lift you up in all your strength and in Gods will.

 

[Gimpy]

Can I post here?