Someone tell me it ok

[blessedmomof5]

I am in NYC by myself waiting for my kids so here I sit with a menu in front of me, crying someone tell me it's ok to eat

 

[foodiepeep]

BlessedMom-
This is not the life God wants for you. Your fears of eating come from Satan and he has no hold on you. You are God's child and He wants you to LIVE, and to honor Him, your family by continuing to LIVE. The only way to do that is by fueling your body with food. Food is NOT the enemy, allowing Satan to deceive you into believing that eating will make you "heavy", "no longer beautiful", or somehow "unworthy" is.

 

[blessedmomof5]

I know that!!!! But yet here I sit with this menu in front of me the waitor keeps asking me if I am ready and I keep saying it takes me awhile.
Crying no less, I am sure I look like a fool
he's waiting again
ok so let's see veggie dumplings?
Sauteed mushrooms?
Turkey wrap?
Grilled chicken sandwich sounds great
help me make a choice
taking a pic of the menu and gonna put it in next post
now I am obsessing

 

[foodiepeep]

Get the grilled chicken sandwich. More calories..(I'm a recovering restrictive btw)

 

[blessedmomof5]

made me laugh that's scary the sandwich with all those calories!!!!!!!
I cannot post the pic of the menu I took from my phone
wish u were sitting next to me
how about the muscles? Think that's ok?

 

[foodiepeep]

I was serious. Order the chicken sandwich. I'm not budging on my reply to that. There's no reason why you can't eat it, and no reason why you shouldn't eat it. Only excuses.

 

[blessedmomof5]

Way too long for the phone to load
me to serious
mussels or maybe the veggie dumplings?
I really feel crazy sitting here has it been an hr yet with the menu in front of me?
Maybe I should just set it aside and forget about it

 

[foodiepeep]

You're letting the ED take over. If you want to combat your fears, you MUST do what you can't fathom and order and eat the sandwich. You've got to start realizing that unless you challenge the thoughts, you will be a slave to them, instead of a follower of God.

How can a person be a devoted "follower" of the Lord if they're chained down by a fear of numbers? You've got yourself stuck in one spot and immovable by the invisible force of a numerical value. The thing is- you think that eating the sandwich is going to make you fat. Understand this- thoughts have NO power over anyone unless they turn into actions. For instance, if I was holding a dollar bill, and I wanted it to be ten dollars, I could hold it for the rest of my life, putting every ounce I had into "thinking" that one to turn into a ten.

Unless I actually *did* something physically to change that, eg. exchanging it for another note, it'll always be the same value. My thoughts *cannot* alter it. I have to ACT if I want something to be different, and most of the time, doing the same thing out of fear from uncertainty is equivalent to doing nothing at all.

 

[blessedmomof5]

Ok , I ordered the sandwich, which is what I really wanted.
now I have to eat some of it, I feel impulsive
I just blurted it out and he said want fries? I was going to say no but I did say ummmmmm no, ok whatever poor guy
I think he knows I was struggling

 

[foodiepeep]

Eat the fries too, there's no reason not to. Food is made for eating, not for decoration. The worst thing that could happen is that you eat them and actually enjoy the experience. Don't you think if you actually *do* eat it all, God might be proud that you overcame your fear? Nice job on ordering.

 

[blessedmomof5]

THank you, for helping me!
Yet I still feel all alone
I have almost eaten half of it
actually fat is that really what it's all about? I saw these 2. Women tonight in the city that were extremely thin wishing to be like "them" but maybe I m already?I do know this is Satan playing with me all thoese lies
I am aware of that
......,,,ugh
thank u