Some worries *possibly triggering*

[Sadako]

I wasn't sure about posting this, but I just feel so much despair and am really in need of some support.

I suffered psychological and sexual abuse at the hands of my then boyfriend. He raped me twice. I know that I shouldn't have gotten involved with him because he was married. But I was so drawn in by him because he was the first man to really pay attention to me. I allowed him to manipulate me. He groomed me to the point where I didn't recognise his abuse. He only raped me because I didn't do exactly what he wanted.

I guess what I want to know is was the abuse and the rape punishment from God for having a relationship with a married man?

 

[Mr.Cheese]

A thousand times no.

 

[Loopi]

God is Love, and Love is God. God loves his children. Remember Jesus' sacrifice. God has only love for you. He wouldn't want to see any of his children hurt like you have been.

 

[Johnnz]

No way. Jesus took our punishment so that God could pour out His love of broken, fallen humanity.

John
NZ

 

[restore]

I guess what I want to know is was the abuse and the rape punishment from God for having a relationship with a married man?

U just felt so cuz the delusion that u were so much trapped.........
Let the past leave, be brave, girl

 

[pennsyginny]

I wasn't sure about posting this, but I just feel so much despair and am really in need of some support.

I suffered psychological and sexual abuse at the hands of my then boyfriend. He raped me twice. I know that I shouldn't have gotten involved with him because he was married. But I was so drawn in by him because he was the first man to really pay attention to me. I allowed him to manipulate me. He groomed me to the point where I didn't recognise his abuse. He only raped me because I didn't do exactly what he wanted.

I guess what I want to know is was the abuse and the rape punishment from God for having a relationship with a married man?

A thousand times no.
God, our father, does not mete out punishment like that.He does not use those things he considers abominations to punish us.
Being in the relationship gave the man the ability to abuse and rape you but you did not cause that either. It was the man's evil.
Sin happens because we live in a fallen world. I got into a vehicle with a man when I was 28 and was raped. Was God punishing me for getting into that vehicle? No.
He didn't only rape you because you did not do exactly what he wanted. He raped you because he chose to. You were not to blame for it. Rape is never justified.
I know some of what you are feeling because it took me from 28 to 54admit out loud to anyone that I was raped. For years, I blamed myself for getting into that vehicle that night. What useless pain I have caused myself all these years. I had no way of knowing he was going to rape me. I finally had to forgive myself.
There is no judgment in this when I say that if you feel to blame in anyway because you were involved with a married man, then ask God's forgiveness. Then accept His love and grace. I hope this helps in some small way.

 

[.Sabre.]

I wasn't sure about posting this, but I just feel so much despair and am really in need of some support.

I suffered psychological and sexual abuse at the hands of my then boyfriend. He raped me twice. I know that I shouldn't have gotten involved with him because he was married. But I was so drawn in by him because he was the first man to really pay attention to me. I allowed him to manipulate me. He groomed me to the point where I didn't recognise his abuse. He only raped me because I didn't do exactly what he wanted.

I guess what I want to know is was the abuse and the rape punishment from God for having a relationship with a married man?

No, no, no!

Nobody deserves to be raped and abused.