Some of my addictions...

[saraharms1]

Hello Everyone...

Its been a while since I've posted her on CF... and sadly I have to admit I've fallen way down again... but this time I hurt many people in the process... and may be losing a few friends over it... which sucks... I drifted soooo far from God tho... which scared me after I was sober and actually thought about it...

The past month or less than that I've become addicted to a perscription drug... which my first mistake was not running to God instead of the drug... Second was even touching it in the first place... but one night I took it at an amount that could of killed me... and I'm amazed it didn't put me in the hospital... but I turned out okay...

Also I've realized that I'm EXTREMLY addicted to an adrenalline rush... I just love doing things for rush and the excitement which got me into a bit of trouble to in the first place... but part of this addiction is making me crave to go get high again or even drink and I hate alcohol because my parents are alcoholics... even ciggereattes are something that I'm craving... "just something that can calm my nerves" is what goes through my mind... I've been fighting the temptation not to do any of it for a couple weeks now... cuz I don't want to hurt anyone agian...

But the whole point of me posting this is to hear possible words of encouragement... or even someone to tell me something that'll knock some since into me... I just really need some advice on what to do... I'm trying hard to make things right with everyone... to build back there trust... to let them look at me without wondering if I'm high or not... Also I'm here to ask for your prayers as well... I know that theres nothing more powerful than prayer so they would be greatly appreciated...


Thanks for what ever you do!
~Sarah~

 

[tapero]

Hi Saraharms,

I'm glad you came back to the forums. I'm glad you are trying to kick these things and knowing that you don't want to start even more habits.

Dear Lord, I pray for strength for Sara to overcome whatever she is facing. Lord she can do that with your help. Help her and show her your love for her. Give her peace, and help her not to seek to start new habits that will harm her. Lord you know her personality and needs; please guide her in these and help her to find ways to express herself in safe ways. In Jesus name I pray. Amen

 

[saraharms1]

Thanks Tapero

 

[UnitynLove]

Praying for you sister!

 

[BouncedBack]

My dear girl, there is a better way. I'm no counselor so I won't even try to get into the "why's" of what you're doing. Just know that there are people in your life that love and cherish you, and Jesus loves you to no end. What you are doing leads to a self destructive downward spiral that will lead to sorrow, misery, hate, and eventually death. Only you can change that, only you can make the decisions to stop that behavior and seek help. You can have such a glorious life without alcohol and drug use. Just read through this and the alcohol forum and see the pain that people who follow this path experience, there is no fun or excitement down this path........I know as I tried to find it there myself. I ask, beg, plead that you seek counseling through your church or school. I will be praying for you.

 

[BigToe]

Do you have a trusted adult you feel comfortable talking to about these things, that isn't an alcoholic? A teacher or leader at church? A school counselor or someone? It can help to talk about what makes you have the temptations going on in your mind to help figure out some other problems underneath it. You're definitely in my thoughts.

 

[UnitynLove]

Praying for you sister!

 

[BouncedBack]

Also, please take a few minutes to go here:

http://www.oneplace.com/Ministries/Focus_on_the_Family/Archives.asp?bcd=2006-12-28

and listen to the testimony of Sheri Rose Shepherd. There are two parts there, 1 and 2, so listen to them both. I'm praying for you.

 

[mastromatteom1]

Don't quit just to satisfy them, do it for yourself and for God.

If the people in your life aren't supportive of you when you have a problem, then they aren't your friends. Don't worry about what they think of you because worrying about their opinions will just add more stress to your life, and that will lead to more drugs. God is your true friend because instead of condemning you for it, He will help you find better ways to deal with your problems than by harming yourself. In fact, He can make your problems simply vanish.

If the reason you want to quit is to get people to like you or trust you, it's the wrong reason and you won't be successful. You have to stop because it's in your interests, because it's what God wants, not because it's what they want.

God is the one who can really help you. The power of the Holy Spirit will help you quit. You have to take your problems to God because God has the answers that can sort out your problems and show you the proper direction in life. He has a singular purpose for you, which you will learn if you study the Gospels, and once you learn how to make that the focus of your life, you will gain amazing peace and clarity of mind.

I've had years of problems with drug abuse myself, and the people in my life didn't help. They wanted to have me locked up in a mental institution--they always wanted me to be hospitalized so that I'd be someone else's problem, not theirs. But that's not love--if they really loved me, they'd show me love, not show me the locked doors of a psycho ward under the care of heathen psychiatrists who only want to help the pharmaceutical companies sell more drugs.

You can't always trust adults because the truth is that adults don't know what they're talking about more often than not. If they did, the world wouldn't be as messed up as it is. But Jesus, Jesus has the answers. If only they'd listen to Jesus, everything would be so much better.


I'm really glad you're alive and pray that you make it through this addiction... Maybe you have already beat it! If not, I can send my love, but it will be *your* love that causes you to make the choice to quit. You must love yourself the way that God loves you--you must learn that you are precious because you are God's, and then you won't let anything harm you. Good things will come of your struggles because once you find the power of Christ to overcome them, you can use your testimony to make the world better.

 

[AngelDove1]

Glad your trying to get back on the clean & sober road.
Its a disease alright,recognize it.
Conning & baffling (denial?)

Thx for your testimony.
Reminds me of ...
where I do not want to go back to.
"Better you than me"

Nothing is easy,But with God all things are posiable.
I caught that real early in my sobrity.
"God will do for me what I
can not do for myself"
"letting go & letting God" Trust,Faith.
"One day at a time" sometimes 1 second at a time.Trudging
The rest will fallow.

I know for some this may be harder that for others.
How bad do you want to get clean?
Ask yourself.What Are you willing to do to
be on that road to happy destiny?

When your serious,trust me.....God will be there for you.
Other wise your wasting your time.

All said with Love
(tuff love,take it or leave it, your choice,just like sobrity)

"The truth shall set you free" takes...
Sincerity

Shalom

 

[saraharms1]

Thanks mastromatteom and angeldove. You both have been a great help.

I last got high Dec 5. That was 2 days before my parents caught me. I've been clean since then.

I guess the way I worded it when I first started this thread about making things right with everyone wasn't a good way to explain it all. See... I'm the person that everyone looks up I'm the person who everyone runs to when things go wrong. In other words the strong one.

A lot of people "expected better" of me when all this took place. I'm an A, B student. I'm in several advanced classes. They also expected me to end up better than my parents, to learn from their mistakes. I noticed that I only mentioned that both my parents were alcoholics. I didn't elaborate on them to much but one does drugs and the other stopped as soon as everything with me happened. So people expect a lot of me.

Latly I've been thinking about everything. I'm only 14 and I've already taken on the stress and responceabilitys some adults never have to deal with. Some of the things I've been through some people probably couldn't bare it.

I'm working hard on staying clean because I wanna make things right with not just my friends and family but for God and for my future.

 

[AngelDove1]

Thanks mastromatteom and angeldove. You both have been a great help.

I'm the person that everyone looks up I'm the person who everyone runs to when things go wrong. In other words the strong one.

So people expect a lot of me.

Latly I've been thinking about everything. I'm only 14 and I've already taken on the stress and responceabilitys some adults never have to deal with. Some of the things I've been through some people probably couldn't bare it.

You just told my story....
but I only had 1 parent,trying to make ends meet.
God has a great plan for you.As He had (has)for me.
My sobrity (testimony) has been used to help and understand others.
I would not change a thing.Its all in Gods plan to use us.If we let Him.

Hang on girl,letting God take total control
of your life,it will take you on a journey
beyond your wildest dreams.

For me...Sobrity,is living life with your mind and eyes wide open.
Focused,clear mined.

God blessings

 

[saraharms1]

Thanks again Angeldove.

I know how to take care of everything now. I'm just not sure if I'm ready to stand up and fight again. Everytime things get good they go bad. Usually extremly bad. I'm just not sure if I can handle the disappointment or the pain agian...

 

[mastromatteom1]

Your main responsibility is to develop your relationship with God and learn the things God wants you to learn. It can be extremely difficult because society pushes a lot of other responsibilities on people your age, mainly school, but remember that school is a secular institution. In my opinion the whole education system in America is evil, evil, evil. They make it sound like it's important to have a diploma and all that, but that's only so the college industry can get more money. The truth is most of the happiest people are probably not the type who fit in to the "establishment" or have degrees.

I feel the same way sometimes because I know my family expects great things of me--I was a star student in high school but then started using drugs and it disappointed my family a lot because although I graduated with top honors, I decided I didn't want to go to college and that I wanted to be a missionary instead, but I still had problems with drugs and still do sometimes. My dad also is struggling with alcohol, and my whole family is poor, and I know he wants me to have better than what he's had in life, but it can be a lot of pressure. Stress can definitely lead to drug use or other "escapes." Just push the thought out of your mind anytime you think about anything harmful. Focus on the positive thoughts instead.

Young people are pressured into thinking they have to conform to this cookie-cutter lifestyle of going to college, getting a diploma, then a job and a paycheck and spend your life paying taxes... I believe that it's best just to drop out of the whole system and dedicate your life to God as an ambassador for Christ. In other words, screw the world, just go and be a missionary and don't worry about worldy things. Most churches don't teach that nowadays, they teach that it's okay to serve both the world and God, but Jesus taught that you should leave everything else behind to follow Him, even if it goes against what your family and society say you should do with your life.

It can be very difficult for a young person to live a Christian lifestyle in today's world, and most of them don't, but living a Christian lifestyle is your only way out of your problems! So don't let anything stop you from achieving your ideals. What you've been through so far didn't kill you, so it made you stronger!

When you say people expect "better," what do those people mean? By "better" they probably mean higher social status and a bigger paycheck. But God's idea of "better" is a lot different than the world's standards. You can achieve the highest happiness by following God. The world has a system it wants you to fit into, but don't sacrifice your happiness to please the world.

 

[Chie]

Hello Everyone...

Its been a while since I've posted her on CF... and sadly I have to admit I've fallen way down again... but this time I hurt many people in the process... and may be losing a few friends over it... which sucks... I drifted soooo far from God tho... which scared me after I was sober and actually thought about it...

The past month or less than that I've become addicted to a perscription drug... which my first mistake was not running to God instead of the drug... Second was even touching it in the first place... but one night I took it at an amount that could of killed me... and I'm amazed it didn't put me in the hospital... but I turned out okay...

Also I've realized that I'm EXTREMLY addicted to an adrenalline rush... I just love doing things for rush and the excitement which got me into a bit of trouble to in the first place... but part of this addiction is making me crave to go get high again or even drink and I hate alcohol because my parents are alcoholics... even ciggereattes are something that I'm craving... "just something that can calm my nerves" is what goes through my mind... I've been fighting the temptation not to do any of it for a couple weeks now... cuz I don't want to hurt anyone agian...

But the whole point of me posting this is to hear possible words of encouragement... or even someone to tell me something that'll knock some since into me... I just really need some advice on what to do... I'm trying hard to make things right with everyone... to build back there trust... to let them look at me without wondering if I'm high or not... Also I'm here to ask for your prayers as well... I know that theres nothing more powerful than prayer so they would be greatly appreciated...


Thanks for what ever you do!
~Sarah~

Hi Sarah, I will remember you in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there, hold to the hope we have in Christ, he is our strength.