It's called 'Simply Christian' by Tom Wright. Maybe some of you have read it (it's quite good, IMO).
Anyway, on page 116 he says
"I freely grant that there may be conditions under which, because of wounds in the personality...people may genuinely believe in the gospel of Jesus, be striving to live by the Spirit, and yet have no sense of God's intimate presence."
No that sounds very much like me (in fact it sounds exactly like me). And I felt quite excited when I read that because it's not the sort of thing I've ever really heard before.
On page 117 he says
"...it is precisely when we are suffering that we can most confidently expect the Spirit to be with us."
I guess he is talking about Christians only in this second quotation. I am not a Christian. At least, I don't think I am. So of course the Spirit isn't with me, at least not in any way that I can recognize.
This brings me to some points I'd like to make.
1) I can accept that, historically, Jesus existed.
2) Without being a historian/theologian or scholar I can, I think, understand the arguments about the historical fact of resurrection. And from that understanding comes acceptance, or, if you prefer, belief.
However, for me it is a rather cold belief at present. For example, I believe in gravity. I know it is there and I see it's effect (even though I don't quite understand exactly how it all works, but neither do I understand exactly how my computer works. And so my 'belief' in Jesus is a bit like that.
I think that the kind of heartfelt belief that I think I ought to have is a long way off for me. I am very cynical, sometimes unpleasant, often angry (actually, my doctor once said I had a 'personality disorder', so I guess I fall in the category of 'mental health problems'). In other words, I do not seem to be spirit-filled at all.
And here I get to the real question in this unintentional essay. How do I go from 'cold belief' to the kind of belief that Jesus refers to in the gospels?
I have asked God for help with this and it says
Mat 21:22 And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.
The problem is that I do not think I have received. In which case either
a) I do not believe, or
b) God Jesus doesn't keep his side of the deal.
Which leads me back to my question above
How do I go from 'cold belief' to the kind of belief that Jesus refers to in the gospels?
Addition
I'd just like to add the following.
I was quite far on my journey, but Lisa0315's lucid reply gave me the final little push I needed.
So about 12 hours after posting this message I prayed a long prayer to God and gave my life to Christ.
I am saved.
Anyway, on page 116 he says
"I freely grant that there may be conditions under which, because of wounds in the personality...people may genuinely believe in the gospel of Jesus, be striving to live by the Spirit, and yet have no sense of God's intimate presence."
No that sounds very much like me (in fact it sounds exactly like me). And I felt quite excited when I read that because it's not the sort of thing I've ever really heard before.
On page 117 he says
"...it is precisely when we are suffering that we can most confidently expect the Spirit to be with us."
I guess he is talking about Christians only in this second quotation. I am not a Christian. At least, I don't think I am. So of course the Spirit isn't with me, at least not in any way that I can recognize.
This brings me to some points I'd like to make.
1) I can accept that, historically, Jesus existed.
2) Without being a historian/theologian or scholar I can, I think, understand the arguments about the historical fact of resurrection. And from that understanding comes acceptance, or, if you prefer, belief.
However, for me it is a rather cold belief at present. For example, I believe in gravity. I know it is there and I see it's effect (even though I don't quite understand exactly how it all works, but neither do I understand exactly how my computer works. And so my 'belief' in Jesus is a bit like that.
I think that the kind of heartfelt belief that I think I ought to have is a long way off for me. I am very cynical, sometimes unpleasant, often angry (actually, my doctor once said I had a 'personality disorder', so I guess I fall in the category of 'mental health problems'). In other words, I do not seem to be spirit-filled at all.
And here I get to the real question in this unintentional essay. How do I go from 'cold belief' to the kind of belief that Jesus refers to in the gospels?
I have asked God for help with this and it says
Mat 21:22 And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.
The problem is that I do not think I have received. In which case either
a) I do not believe, or
b) God Jesus doesn't keep his side of the deal.
Which leads me back to my question above
How do I go from 'cold belief' to the kind of belief that Jesus refers to in the gospels?
Addition
I'd just like to add the following.
I was quite far on my journey, but Lisa0315's lucid reply gave me the final little push I needed.
So about 12 hours after posting this message I prayed a long prayer to God and gave my life to Christ.
I am saved.