So empty inside

[yuppers]

I'm struggling with a deep empty feeling inside. I don't have any friends and nothing to make me happy in my life. I've made so many mistakes in my life and now I'm dealing with all the consiqueses. When I wake up in the morning I just feel hollow inside. I go to work and usually that gets my mind off that feeling. As soon as I get home though all those feelings come back. I usually drink beer to try and numb that feeling. I live at home, I'm 20 years old. I feel like I can't go to my parents because they won't understand what I'm going through and they don't have experience with my type of problem and feelings. I go to a church on Sunday and the people there look so happy that if I tryed to join I would probably just suck the life out of those there. I'm imbarased to call myself Christian because I put such a bad image to that name, maby in not one. I can't read the bible because when I do I see how I'm supposed to be and the joy I'm supposed to have and helping and caring for others but all I am is an empty shell of a being with no joy. I just want to run away from all my problems and life and try again somewhere else, but that's not possible. I need to find somewhere or someone who can help me pick myself up from the floor and see something in life witch I can't and couldn't see before. I don't want to go to hell for earthy mistakes but the way I'm going in life I'm probably already on that road.

 

[epluribus36]

I'm struggling with a deep empty feeling inside. I don't have any friends and nothing to make me happy in my life. I've made so many mistakes in my life and now I'm dealing with all the consiqueses. When I wake up in the morning I just feel hollow inside. I go to work and usually that gets my mind off that feeling. As soon as I get home though all those feelings come back. I usually drink beer to try and numb that feeling. I live at home, I'm 20 years old. I feel like I can't go to my parents because they won't understand what I'm going through and they don't have experience with my type of problem and feelings. I go to a church on Sunday and the people there look so happy that if I tryed to join I would probably just suck the life out of those there. I'm imbarased to call myself Christian because I put such a bad image to that name, maby in not one. I can't read the bible because when I do I see how I'm supposed to be and the joy I'm supposed to have and helping and caring for others but all I am is an empty shell of a being with no joy. I just want to run away from all my problems and life and try again somewhere else, but that's not possible. I need to find somewhere or someone who can help me pick myself up from the floor and see something in life witch I can't and couldn't see before. I don't want to go to hell for earthy mistakes but the way I'm going in life I'm probably already on that road.

Sorry Brother! I can only tell you what's worked for me. I had lots of problems with substance abuse, and isolation. I figured the less people I had to deal with any given day, the better.

I forced myself to go to AA/NA meetings, get a sponsor, join a church, hang around with people who were sober and loved Jesus, and take responsibility for myself, my kids, and try to spread the love that God bestows upon us all no matter who we are and what we've done.

Now I get up in the morning, jump out of bed, and think, "Yeah! I'm gonna do something cool today!"

I try to avoid even taking cold medicine if I'm sick, unless I've got a fever. I even quit drinking soda with caffeine, just because it made me feel a little different. I guess I'm addicted to feeling the same all the time now! I'm ready for anything at anytime, pretty much!

I'll pray for you, Man! God loves you more than you'll ever understand, I believe!

 

[Sheraldo]

Hi Yuppers,

I can relate to that deep empty feeling you described in your post as I have experienced it.

I would like to encourage you today with two verses that I now know to be True for me. Yeshua says in John 4:14 "…but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst." He says in John 6:35 "I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry." He satisfies spiritual hunger and thirst and that is the ONLY thing that will satisfy that emptiness.

Go directly to Him. Start your day with Him. Seek the Kingdom first…Yeshua says in Matthew 7:7-8 "Ask and it will be given to you: seek and you will find: knock and the door will be opened to you. For EVERYONE who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened."

You can count on this to be True.

Peace and Grace to you,

Sheraldo

 

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[woodpecker]

I know how you feel, I am a two faced Christian, I drink smoke, go to church and tell know one my struggles for I have and was only been judged and hurt by the church.

I really feel I have no choice, I repent daily, but when evening comes and I am alone depressed God does not comfort nor seem even near....maybe I have already lost my salvation, for I have lied over and over to God, even through my bible out the window the other night, but a man found it and returned it, maybe God sent it back...I really do not feel like figureing this Jesus walk anymore, when I am weak the holy spirit should give me strength....I will be in hell as sad as I am today .

 

[the.Sheepdog]

This is for the OP and everyone who posted. Including me. We are all sinners. We dont stop being sinners just because we are born again. We just are not tagged with those sins anymore. As born again we live in a fallen world that is going to hell quickly. Shootings every night in my town now. Road rage is epidemic. Suicides too.

<edit> God doesnt make junk and you are all perfect in His sight.

It doesnt matter what we think of ourselves. Jesus knows better and He says He has a great future for us all. Just know that. The rest is garbage.

 

[Sheraldo]

Hi Woodpecker,

<edit>

Woodpecker, something that was very helpful to me to stop being drunk day in and day out was to realize I wasn't an animal and not able to control my impulses&#8230;the brain God gave me was powerful over my hands that reached for the bottle&#8230;it was simply a shift in perspective.

Hope that is helpful&#8230;

Take care,

Sheraldo

 

[woodpecker]

Hi Woodpecker,

<edit>
Woodpecker, something that was very helpful to me to stop being drunk day in and day out was to realize I wasn't an animal and not able to control my impulses&#8230;the brain God gave me was powerful over my hands that reached for the bottle&#8230;it was simply a shift in perspective.

Hope that is helpful&#8230;

Take care,

Sheraldo

Thank you.

I am filled with much depression today, even though I have spent it with The Lord, it makes me want to medicate myself with booze, but everyone has a thorn, and they learn to lean on God, not some other idol to help them get by, and so will I.

I am meeting with a Christian women tonight, I pray God bless our time together.

 

[Messy]

This is what helped me. It doesn't matter to which sin you are a slave, it works for everything. Get to know who you are in Christ and what He has done for you. The only One that can fill you and take away the emptiness is Jesus.
He came to set the captives free.
Reckon Yourself Dead.... - Home

 

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[yuppers]

Hi everyone, I'm back. I failed last night. After being sober for maybe a week or so I gave in yesterday. I'm not shure why I did, maby it was because I was home alone. I believed the lie that maybe I could just try drinking one beer like normal people. I think I can forgive myself for that mistake, what's weighing me down is that my mom found out how much a drank. I was trying to rebuild my relationship with my family in a sober way but now I'm still a drunk. I'm starting new today. I said this last week to myself but now I need to renew this. I don't think I should ever drink any alcohol again. I'm going to try and find myself a friend who can be my sober buddy, let's hope god can help me find the right friend.

 

[Tigger45]

Amen every time you fall down get back up. Don't let self condemnation keep you down. The Lord is on your side and He knows it's a process. He would rather that you get back up and fall back down then to never try at all. The only thing that counts is the finish line

 

[woodpecker]

Amen Tigger45, repent and start anew, God loves you and His mercies are new for you every day. Do not let satan bring you down with shame, or your family, this is hard, with God grace and some good Christian friends you will over come.

God bless

 

[epluribus36]

Go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, share at meetings, it works if you work it, sucks if you don't!

 

[Autumnleaf]

Go to AA and get a sponsor and do what they say. It helped me get sober and make friends.

 

[epluribus36]

Go to AA and get a sponsor and do what they say. It helped me get sober and make friends.

It sure ain't gonna hurt!

 

[woodpecker]

There are Christian AA groups, I did not like the secular AA, try to find a group called Celebrate Recovery, it's Christian based, and you will make friends who understand you, and are filled with the Holy Spirit.

 

[epluribus36]

There are Christian AA groups, I did not like the secular AA, try to find a group called Celebrate Recovery, it's Christian based, and you will make friends who understand you, and are filled with the Holy Spirit.

There you go! I'm involved in both a secular 12-step program, AND Celebrate Recovery. They both work stupendously, in my humble opinion.

 

[Jake and Jenn]

Be honest with someone. If you can find an accountability partner, it can help you feel a little less alone in your situation.