Im so depressed it all gos back to my childhood i grew up with a skin condition call eczema which causes u too itch all over . had to deal with all the teasing with school mates the stares from strangers. from having ezema being depressed at a little age caused me to start sucking my thumb guess i was looking for some kind of comfort. i just have so many problems from those 2 things. mental problems i cant even socialize with people nor communicate with others.at social events with my family or other outings people think somethings wrong with me because i dont talk and alienate myself . i dont trust anyone, scared what everybody thinks about me and how i look i feel so bad i never had a girlfriend only online. i feel so ashamed to even say these things . im so scared im crying as i write this message.. i just want someone too love me for me and not judge me or think im ugly. i wish my life could be different i have my good days and bad days but it feels like i have a demon inside of me sometimes. im addicted to porn cant even control myself through out the years it started getting worse and worse. around 98 thats when i got the internet sometimes i want to end it but i know i serve a bigger purpose on earth. i love to design and draw things i have recently started getting into a lot. after a couple of years not knowing what i wanted to do i finanlly found my purpose now that i focus on my drawing and designs something like a demon or devil always keeps me off track why is this. i swear its always something thats sidetracks me i really want to overcome my problems & demons. some days i pray to god to help me through this but than the demons break me down i go on the internet and look at porn. i swear i try its like they take over my thoughts they say go look at it for a minute in my head. and i give in after i give in i feel so bad, sometimes its so bad i cant even pray to god that night i feel so ashamed. i never talked about my problems with anyone.i've been holding all my pain inside for years and im 24 right now. nobody understands my pain nor try to understand my mom tells me nobody owes me nothing like its my fault. im a kind hearted person with alot of hidden problems. cant even explain how i made it through the years with all the comments and looks and pain. sometimes i just want to go away far away so nobody can bother me. please help me i have done bad in the past but ready to give my life to god. i wish i could tell u everything about my life but i have a bid headac at the moment. please keep me in your prayers and thoughts
-
Starting today August 7th, 2024, in order to post in the Married Couples, Courting Couples, or Singles forums, you will not be allowed to post if you have your Marital status designated as private. Announcements will be made in the respective forums as well but please note that if yours is currently listed as Private, you will need to submit a ticket in the Support Area to have yours changed.
-
CF has always been a site that welcomes people from different backgrounds and beliefs to participate in discussion and even debate. That is the nature of its ministry. In view of recent events emotions are running very high. We need to remind people of some basic principles in debating on this site. We need to be civil when we express differences in opinion. No personal attacks. Avoid you, your statements. Don't characterize an entire political party with comparisons to Fascism or Communism or other extreme movements that committed atrocities. CF is not the place for broad brush or blanket statements about groups and political parties. Put the broad brushes and blankets away when you come to CF, better yet, put them in the incinerator. Debate had no place for them. We need to remember that people that commit acts of violence represent themselves or a small extreme faction.
SO DEPRESSED
- Thread starter MRLEE
- Start date
dsdumpling
Well-Known Member
MRLEE, God is with us at all times. Even when we are at our lowest, He's there. You need to rebuke the devil in Jesus name to get through some of the things you are going through. You should speak with a minister one-on-one, do you have someone in your community with whom you trust? I will be praying for you and your situation. Resist the devil and he will flee!MRLEE said:
Upvote
0
Although I am somewhat of a new Christian, one thing has been helping me along, and that is the fact that God created you for his pleasure, and he delights in you, flaws and all. You are beautiful to him, and judging by what you've written, you're beautiful to me as well.
The glut of internet pornography has snared a lot of people, but don't fear. A sincere communication with God will help you in this matter. Trust me on this. There are also a number of Christian ministries dealing with this problem. Do a Google search on "porn addiction".
Bless you, my friend.
DLT
The glut of internet pornography has snared a lot of people, but don't fear. A sincere communication with God will help you in this matter. Trust me on this. There are also a number of Christian ministries dealing with this problem. Do a Google search on "porn addiction".
Bless you, my friend.
DLT
Upvote
0
VaNiTy'S GeNdeR
TheDaughterMyMomNeverHad
yes what are flaws to u are there for reasons and God loves who u are...take it easy 
Upvote
0
Upvote
0
hisbloodformysins
He's my best friend
- Nov 3, 2003
- 4,279
- 217
- 46
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- In Relationship
- Politics
- US-Republican
God bless you mrlee! Lord, please be with MrLee. Please pour out your love upon him and his life and raise his spirits. Thank you lord. Amen
Upvote
0
Brother that isn't true.Jesus understands your pain.Do you have a personal relationship with Him?I too will be praying for you.Welcome to CF.MRLEE said:
Upvote
0
Ryder
Whatever was the deplorable word
- Jan 13, 2003
- 5,395
- 261
- 44
- Faith
- Protestant
- Marital Status
- Single
- Politics
- US-Republican
You can never sin too much for God to forgive. Just go and ask Him to forgive it! He'll change you. In this life, putting down sinful ways is tough, usually a long process, but He will change you, slowly but surely!-Bible quote said:
Upvote
0
Sun_flwer
Well-Known Member
Welcome to CF! If you do not know Jesus their is a link here:http://www.christianforums.com/gospel.html. Give the burden of guilt and shame to Jesus and let His strength be yours.
Upvote
0
WholeNewSoul
Christian Mini Trucker
I can't began to tell you how many times I have fell from God due to my problems... it takes a lot to come to grasp the power of God, for me I had to almost lose everything I love so dearly to come to God.....
those demans you feel are satin trying to rule you life, and by the sounds of it he is wining, but its not out of your reach to have God own your heart and bring you pure joy and happyness
I am praying for you man! if you ever need to chat or talk, I am very open to talk and your more then welcome to IM through aol or msn
its going to take a lot of prayer, and will power to over come all the hurt you feel, but believe me, its all worth it!!! and God is always here for you, I will be as well as manyothers on here!
those demans you feel are satin trying to rule you life, and by the sounds of it he is wining, but its not out of your reach to have God own your heart and bring you pure joy and happyness
I am praying for you man! if you ever need to chat or talk, I am very open to talk and your more then welcome to IM through aol or msn
its going to take a lot of prayer, and will power to over come all the hurt you feel, but believe me, its all worth it!!! and God is always here for you, I will be as well as manyothers on here!
Upvote
0
Ok MRLEE, you feel inferior to other people. Of course Christ say's that you're not. You know that, but you dont believe it. That's fine, but you may want to consider finding a fellowship with people like you. Perhaps an online resource. It doesn't have to be christian. You should realize, however, that Jesus is right there. He's right where you are. He's in you, through you, and around you. Most importantly, He loves you. Porn or no porn. I emphasise...porn or no porn! Don't let satan drive you into a guilt that leads to depression. Ask Christ to help you turn from your sin but don't dwell on it. Pray. Ask. Let the guilt float away and the ask Jesus to show you a different route when you feel like looking at it. If you fail, repeat as necessary! If satan loves anything, I believe it's guilt. It's just too easy to use against us!
Upvote
0
