So Confused!!! :(

[amyob]

I'm not really sure where to post this but I know for sure I really need some Godly advice/help and at the moment I am finding it hard to hear God clearly about things.

It feels like my life is falling apart at the moment. Firstly, I am training as a teacher and I was sure this was what God wanted, I prayed so many times about being in the place I am. Except 5 months ago I had to take leave due to anxiety attacks from having a really bad mentor at my first school placement, and now just a month ago I got diagnosed with depression! I feel like things are spiraling out of control and I don't know if I can make it to the end of the course in May, let alone get a teaching job straight after.

Secondly, there was this guy at church who I really liked. I didn't want anything to happen unless it was what God wanted, and things were going well, we were meeting up and chatting, there was a definitely spark but all of a sudden he becomes alusive and avoidant. It has been so hard, I can deal with it if he just told me what was going on but I have no idea and I have to see him at church all the time, which is becoming a nightmare as I'm not in a good state right now, I'm even thinking of leaving the church.

Just to top it all off I have no idea what to do next, whether to move back home, stay where I'm training, move abroad. I don't know what to do, and to be honest all I want right now is a break from life, I feel like I've been struggling for so long. I need to make a decision in the next three months max.

Sorry this is such a long post, I really just need some advice, all I want is God's will, and I have prayed so many times for guidance. I know He is with me and He has carried me through all of this, it has been tough but all the glory goes to Him.

 

[Luther073082]

I'm not really sure where to post this but I know for sure I really need some Godly advice/help and at the moment I am finding it hard to hear God clearly about things.

It feels like my life is falling apart at the moment. Firstly, I am training as a teacher and I was sure this was what God wanted, I prayed so many times about being in the place I am. Except 5 months ago I had to take leave due to anxiety attacks from having a really bad mentor at my first school placement, and now just a month ago I got diagnosed with depression! I feel like things are spiraling out of control and I don't know if I can make it to the end of the course in May, let alone get a teaching job straight after.

I can tell you have depression, you seem rather defeated by things. Why is it that you don't feel like you can make it to the end of the course? Why is it you don't think you can get a teaching job? Is this based off of evidence or is it based off of emotion?

Secondly, there was this guy at church who I really liked. I didn't want anything to happen unless it was what God wanted, and things were going well, we were meeting up and chatting, there was a definitely spark but all of a sudden he becomes alusive and avoidant. It has been so hard, I can deal with it if he just told me what was going on but I have no idea and I have to see him at church all the time, which is becoming a nightmare as I'm not in a good state right now, I'm even thinking of leaving the church.

If he's alusive and avoidant then he's probably not interested. Move on.

Just to top it all off I have no idea what to do next, whether to move back home, stay where I'm training, move abroad. I don't know what to do, and to be honest all I want right now is a break from life, I feel like I've been struggling for so long. I need to make a decision in the next three months max.

Well look for a job, and if you find one that will tell you where you need to be. If not, you may be better off moving back home. Typically where you move is often determined by financial considerations.

Sorry this is such a long post, I really just need some advice, all I want is God's will, and I have prayed so many times for guidance. I know He is with me and He has carried me through all of this, it has been tough but all the glory goes to Him.

I can tell you have depression and anxiety issues. Those are written all over this post without you saying you have them.

I think you should seek out help to see if you can't resolve or reduce depression and anxiety. That by itself is the cause of about 90% of your struggles. Because the rest of it you are making a proverbial "mountain out of a molehill"

As simplistic as this might sound, you really just have to relax more then anything.

 

[Rhamiel]

depression hurts how we think, some of this might just be in your mind

God loves you very much, please get help

 

[Laula777]

Hey!
I'm sorry about your situation. I am studying to become a teacher myself as well & I will be going on my first prac soon which I have been anxious about. One of my lecturers though told everyone that when you are studying to become a teacher, it is alot more harder & stressful than when you go out there and teach. Not only that, but friends/relatives of mine that are already teachers have all said that uni/studying teaching etc was difficult and at times they wondered if teaching was the thing they are meant to do. They had their anxieties, doubts and worries about it all and were tempted to throw in the towel. But they persevered and once they got onto the teaching field, they loved it! So, what I am saying is, hang in there. Maybe God is teaching you something? And you never know what lives you may touch through teaching. As a teacher you have the oppurtunity to show God's love and to be a Godly example to many people at a young age who may not have that at home. And that is something that is especially needed in today's world.

As for the guy thing, man...it sounds very similar to what I am going through too, lol. Guys are strange creatures at times. There could be several reasons why he is acting like that. For example, he may not be ready for a relationship, he may not be interested and is scared that he is leading you on or it may be even something deeper like a root of rejection issue. He may also be going through alot of stuff at the moment and has a lot on his mind. Who knows? Pray to God about it and ask Him the best way. If you're best mates with the guy, talk to him about it. And if he doesn't open up, let him know that you are always there for him as a friend. But make sure you are "prayed up" beforehand. Also ask advice from some family members/trusted close friends about the situation. And try to fight the thought of leaving your church, unless you know that it is God's will. Talk to this guy first. If he doesn't listen and nothing changes for a few months, go to him again with a trusted person by your side. Or maybe even talk to your pastor about it.

And sorry, I'm not fully sure about the moving thing. But, I do remember being told that when you are praying about making a decision (eg: moving house to A? B? or C?) and you do not hear/ receive an answer from God, that usually means that God has you where He wants you to be and you are to keep doing what you are doing. Hope that helps in some way!

Well, sorry if I was a bit long, hehe. Hope everything turns out & God bless ya!

Laula777

 

[charmaineisnt]

I'm sorry to hear about that- i've also had a SEVERE problem with anxiety that has almost made it impossible to live a normal life. But one thing that's helped me immensely is the book Healing is A Choice by Stephen Arterburn. I would recommend reading it if you have time. God bless.