exploring said:
I accept that my non-belief comes more from a desire to make my own decisions than from any evidence that there is no god.
You can make your own decisions and have whatever belief you want. In fact, having whatever belief you want is making your own decision.
You can also have any belief, including non-belief, and get others to make your decisions.
The irony is, if you get others to make your decisions, that's your choice.
I don't think religious philosophy has much to do with it. There are Christians, Muslims, Jews, Buddhists, Hindus, Pagans, Atheists, Agnostics, and virtually every sort of person, who make all sorts of decisions on their own -- and those from all those groups, who do not.
There are also those who disagree with your philosophy who are Atheists and Agnostics. For example, I know of one argument (in opposition to the concept of "free will" accepted by some Christians) that says, "I'm Atheist/Agnostic because I don't believe mankind has free will, and that negates the concept of punishment/reward heaven/hell because we are all driven to our choices by environmental circumstances."
Can you really make your own decisions? Or are you driven to those decisions by the series of circumstances in your life, environmental and genetic?
Even the mundane things -- chocolate or vanilla? Can you really choose? Are you really choosing, or are you just programmed to choose the chocolate, or to choose the vanilla, by the genetic make-up of your taste buds and by your past experiences with chocolate and vanilla?
Charlie