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[FoundInGrace]

I dont know whats going on with me currently.
I've definitely got a struggle with depression going on though.
I'm usually able to shake it off (i didnt used to be able to but God helped get rid of some stuff for me a few years back and i've been able to fight it off mostly since then but not the last few weeks) but there have been 3 losses lately of people either leaving or dying and was in a car accident and one of my friends is fighting cancer with a shortened life expectancy which is sad and other things as well on top of those things.
I've gone back to sinning which I feel bad about, and been not caring about people like i used to, to the point of pushing them away and not caring. everyone around me just seems to need from me and i have nothing to give. It bothers me that I'm just not caring about people or anything and not being able to shake off the depression like i used to be able to. Dont want to go to work, all i want to do is curl up in bed and sleep and not care. was crying a bit today though, maybe that is good.

sorry this is depressing. but hope you dont mind me saying it, if not here where can a person be depressed and just say it like it is.

 

[Jeshu]

Yes bad life can deplete our strength and our ability to stand up against it. Personal sin can erode our footing as well, especially when we fight it in our own strength. Then depression can be like the great desolation the Bible talks about where everything green is eaten up and darkness reigns over our souls.

Please put your hope in God, He loves you and wants to look after you during these hard times, do give Him the chance to help you through it, more He has forgiven you your sins and wants to make you more loving and stronger in your faith.

Hope in God He wont disappoint you.

 

[RuthD]

It is normal to feel very depressed with all you are going through. One of the signs of depression is a loss of interest in everything. You have an illness and are not a bad person. Please try telling one of your friends what you are going through and if they are a good friend they will understand and give you time to heal. Praying for you.

 

[Criada]

Sometimes we need to take a break to look after ourselves, sweetie.
It sounds as though you are dealing with a lot, and right now you don't have anything to give. So allow yourself to stop, and to receive instead - from others around you, but most of all from God. Let him comfort and restore you, then strengthen you to help others.

Praying for you, sister.

 

[Purge187]

Praying for you, friend.

Do what Peter should've done and keep your eyes on Christ rather than the storm around you right now. He will get you through.

 

[FoundInGrace]

thank you all very much

 

[GreatSpeckledBird]

I don't believe we should fight depression alone. We should seek any and all help available to us. Every little thing we do that's positive is a step toward better & we're winning in that moment. I also believe we must try to fight it and with God we must fight it. I believe it's a spiritual attack & usually it's a stronghold the enemy puts on us because of some unknown sin we're engaging in without being aware of it.

For me it's fear & unbelief. I just identified these two culprits this week. Now I'm asking the Father to forgive me for it & to give me the grace to repent of them both. To heal my will and my life and to give me the courage,wisdom & knowledge to press forward leaving all this pain behind. I haven't "won" but I'm better today than I was last week(a tiny bit maybe anyway ) . I realize now depressive thinking is like an addiction, just a bad habit & a bad set of beliefs & thought processes, (probably caused by outside stressors life grief, trauma, abuse, etc) and the power of God can and will deliver us in it and through it if He is sought.

I also believe it is progressive & the longer you suffer with it the worse it will become like any other addiction. The sooner you start dealing with it the quicker you're going to start being better. (all my opinion, take what you will, leave the rest)

 

[Jeshu]

I don't believe we should fight depression alone. We should seek any and all help available to us. Every little thing we do that's positive is a step toward better & we're winning in that moment. I also believe we must try to fight it and with God we must fight it. I believe it's a spiritual attack & usually it's a stronghold the enemy puts on us because of some unknown sin we're engaging in without being aware of it.

For me it's fear & unbelief. I just identified these two culprits this week. Now I'm asking the Father to forgive me for it & to give me the grace to repent of them both. To heal my will and my life and to give me the courage,wisdom & knowledge to press forward leaving all this pain behind. I haven't "won" but I'm better today than I was last week(a tiny bit maybe anyway ) . I realize now depressive thinking is like an addiction, just a bad habit & a bad set of beliefs & thought processes, (probably caused by outside stressors life grief, trauma, abuse, etc) and the power of God can and will deliver us in it and through it if He is sought.

I also believe it is progressive & the longer you suffer with it the worse it will become like any other addiction. The sooner you start dealing with it the quicker you're going to start being better. (all my opinion, take what you will, leave the rest)

I only partly agree with your point of view. Depression can be and for many of us often is an illness. I do agree that our thought processes become negative when we are depressed and we can do a lot of work on that with God when we walk in the truth of His love. So yes God can help a lot but He may not take the illness away so times of depression will still come our way. The good thing with Him is that He lifts us above our depression makes us able to deal with it. At least this is how it has been for me. I get depressed because I have an illness but God's loving truth keeps me afloat. He is great.

 

[GreatSpeckledBird]

I only partly agree with your point of view. Depression can be and for many of us often is an illness. I do agree that our thought processes become negative when we are depressed and we can do a lot of work on that with God when we walk in the truth of His love. So yes God can help a lot but He may not take the illness away so times of depression will still come our way. The good thing with Him is that He lifts us above our depression makes us able to deal with it. At least this is how it has been for me. I get depressed because I have an illness but God's loving truth keeps me afloat. He is great.

Well it's definitely an illness but I believe spiritual, emotional and physical. I took meds but they made me very sick so the only recourse I have left is a healthy lifestyle, work on my thoughts & emotions & spiritual strengthening &hopefully deliverance through prayer & the grace of God. I definitely agree it's an illness but I guess defining what illness is would determine that. If not being able to get out of bed, maintain relationships, function like a normal person isn't illness I don't know what is. I just wasn't clear about that I guess, sorry.

 

[whitebeaches]

im so sorry for your losses and that your friend is so sick. i will be praying for your precious friend. im sorry for your pain. praying for you precious sis (((( hugs ))))