Sickened Newbie.

[Jedi Penguins]

A friend asked me to come to this board, so I came.

The first thing I noticed what the Christian only sections, and the Christian and non-Christian sections.

I was in such shock that a place would actually do something like that; I had to control myself from screaming at my friend. I will probably not come back here, so whether you reply to this does not matter. I just wanted to say what I have to say and then leave.

I have been confused about the past year as to why I am still a Christian. I keep coming up empty, and I keep moving closer and closer to becoming agnostic.

I am grieved every day in one form or another by a Christian, or Christian sighting.

I remember when I was like a lot of the people here probably are, and I just bought into this and didn’t think anything about it because the word Christian was on it. I didn’t care whom I was stepping on, or whom I was turning away from Christ for good. I just figured since I had found something I thought was right everyone else should want to as well, and if they didn’t I didn’t need to associate with them, because it was their loss not mine.

I read a few random posts here and there on this board, and it hasn’t helped your Christian cause of convincing me why I need to stay. In fact I has almost driven me to the edge of turning away completely. I am almost at the edge, and am almost in tears about it.

I still hold on, convinced if I look hard enough I will find the reassurance I so desperately want as to why I should be a Christian. Until Christians can prove to me they truly don’t think they are better than all others and move out of their little Christian bubble or Christian only signs I can’t find a part of it I want.

By the way, even if I stayed I wouldn’t know if I was “allowed” to post in your holier-than-though Christian only boards. I might not meet your Christian standards. So I am not staying, that way I can’t ruin your board.

 

[Laurel Crowned]

While you may never see this post... my prayers are with you. I've had feelings of discontentment with christianity and christians... yet it isn't our place to convince you to stay a christian. I just became aware of this site about a week ago and in that short time it has become a haven for me. I'm sorry that you see something that I see only as good and helpful as bigoted and self-righteous. I have connected with some people in areas where I've never been able to talk about and have received words of support and comfort.

My prayer is that you will come back to this site. That the Holy Spirit will prompt you to come back and that you would meet people who understand where you are coming from. Not every forum will meet the need of every person... but I truly believe that God is using this site for God. Most of the people I've met here think they are no better than anyone else....

I hope and PRAY that you find something in God that makes you want to stay with him. Whether you come back to CF or not... please... don't give up on God.

Peace,
LC

 

[NiemandheißtBoshaftigkeit]

well....I feel the same....

[edit] so everyone knows, I was agreeing with Jedi.

 

[doulos]

Christianity is not about being better than the others, but about coming as repentant sinners to the Father who loved us in such a way as to give His only Son for us. He became one of us sin excepted, to appear before the judgment of God as our representative ...

He gave satisfaction for our sins, and whosoever goes to Him for salvation is not turned away.

We were all destitute of all, and if we are rich now is with Christ's riches; if we have any righteousness, it is Christ's righteousness given to us. He died our death, He paid our penalty, so that we might receive His life, an abundant life.

This is what God is offering to all. Is it a sin to be able to have a place to talk to like-minded people, and then refreshed go out as sinners saved by grace, to try and share this grace to others as needy as we were?

All this is a matter of God's grace and love. And it is also for you ...

Wishing you back ... to the Good Shepherd of the sheep. May you hear, not my voice, but HIS voice.

doulos