Should I Get Help?

[Jesusfreak4life8629]

Hopeless

Keep going",
"Stay strong"
That's what they tell me,
But everything has gone horribly wrong.

They don't listen,
They don't understand,
They don't realize,
Life is slipping out of my hands.

They continue to tell me,
Everything will be alright,
But, they're wrong,
Nothing ever turns out right.

Life is hopeless,
I fail at everything.
They just don't understand,
I'll never succeed at anything.

I'll never get better,
I'll end up dead.
Especially with these horrid thoughts,
Sworming in my head.

They don't know,
How much I hurt inside.
They don't understand,
How many nights I've cried.

A failure,
That's all I've ever turn out to be.
Hopeless,
That's all I am, it seems to me.

All that's left,
Is to await my fate.
Which isn't too much longer,
Life is what I hate.

Never again,
Will I see life in white,
It's always black,
No hope is in sight.

No one understands,
No one will ever know,
How much pain I feel,
There is no way to show.

The indescribable agony,
Which is dwelling in my soul.
There is a void,
My heart will never be whole.

Shattered once again,
Broken to the core.
I finally know,
I can't go on anymore.

Finally letting go,
Finally giving in to fate.
Knowing that it's over,
Knowing that it's too late."

Should I get help? I just wrote that...umm...and I mean what I said...

 

[Alive again]

Dear one,

I can relate to everything you wrote, I have felt all that, and yes, get help!!!

When we ask it usually means it is times. What you wrote, I will take your word for is accurate, it is time to ask for help, run, don't walk. Please take care of yourself and let us know how you are.

 

[madison1101]

Yes, get help IMMEDIATELY. You are not joking around, it is urgent that you get to a Crisis Center, and ask, beg, plead for help. Show them your poem, and tell them what you are feeling, thinking and planning.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[Soulwings]

Sqiz, love, get help. Talk to someone who can get you somewhere safe, somewhere where "fate" won't tempt you for awhile. I've been where you are - trust me on that one - and I still go there at times, when things get really bad. You can make it through this, but it is definitely, definitely, definitely time to get some help.

Covering you in prayer, little one.