Hello again,
let me start with my punctuation/grammar is no good sorry.
It has been almost a year now since I asked for help. I asked my wife to stop talking to "the friend" because it seemed like she needed him and that wasn't healthy for our marriage. She said she would stop talking to him.. a month goes by and I pick up her phone to snoop because I still am getting weird vibes. turns out she never stopped talking to him and that is had progressed to sexting and phone sex. we had our first real fight ever in our 18 years of marriage over this, I forgave her but said the trust was gone and she needed to help me trust her again and that she could not speak to him anymore. she said again she would stop talking to him. another month or two goes by of me trying really hard to trust her and respect her privacy and again I started getting weird vibes. I pick up her phone, open the app she uses to talk to him and there is one single message from that day with a response regarding how my wife's day had gone. indicating that she has been deleting the chat history, of course I flip out and start yelling.. Last night we had a long talk about how the "Friend" is not just a friend and that she cannot carry on this toxic relationship that is hurting our marriage. she acknowledged that she has an unhealthy attachment to him but has no interest in hurting our marriage. and again I insist that she stop talking to him, she says that it hurts her to think that she cannot talk to him anymore and if she is not allowed to lie to me anymore that she cannot promise me that she won't have the need/urge to call him and act on it. I asked her to delete his contacts from her phone and she started crying and said she wasn't ready to do that but in time she thinks she could. I told her that I'm here and want to help her through this that if she felt the urge to contact him to let me know immediately so I could help her feel less depressed about the whole thing. she said she will try and has promised to work towards letting him go.
Now I understand that she has feelings for this person and I understand that its going to be hard to let him go but I don't want to push it so hard that she hides it more and continues to lie. How can I help her through this what can I do?