Seeking help

[unbreakablewings]

I went from hopeful and wanting to live to hopeless and wanting to die within a couple weeks.

I don't know where to turn. My family feels sorry for me, friends think I will be ok. I am not.

I tried to kill myself over the weekend and failed.

I pray, I read the Bible, I hope things will work out. Each time I get news it looks like they aren't.

Apparently a couple weeks ago I was in a relationship with a man who I thought would support me and love me for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with depression, started treated, but December has been a cursed month for me for several painful memories. I acted out. He informed me had I not screwed up and ruined things (I read some messages he left up on the tablet he was using and lied about it) I would be engaged on Christmas, which is something I have wanted my whole life and prayed for for 10 months.

He blocked me on Facebook, blocked my number. I am still injured from a car accident he doesn't know about, and have a test for cancer at the end of the end. I emailed him, but each time he replies he sounds more disgusted with me and wants less to do with me.

I don't want to live to see Christmas. I know I shouldn't focus on him so much, but I believed he did care and would always be there. He has it made it perfectly clear I am dead to him and he wants nothing to do with me. I just don't want to keep hurting, and there's only one way I can think of to stop it.

What should I do?

 

[Okano]

I went from hopeful and wanting to live to hopeless and wanting to die within a couple weeks.

I don't know where to turn. My family feels sorry for me, friends think I will be ok. I am not.

I tried to kill myself over the weekend and failed.

What should I do?

You should love God and Christ with all of your heart. When we don't have a relationship with Christ and God, we have a vacuum of emptiness within ourselves. We fill that vacuum with an overpowering love for another human being. We think to ourselves, "Oh what would I do without you? You mean everything to me I couldn't go on without you." And so on. When that type of overpowering love falls apart, man are we in for some trouble. Life will seem meaningless without Christ, and without God as the center of our life.

I'm sorry you're hurting so badly and I can empathize with you. I know it really sucks to feel the way you do.

And don't worry about Christmas. Christmas is not even a Christian holiday as so many believe it to be.

 

[RedWingInCo]

You need to get immediate help by calling the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 800-273-8255. Attempting to take your life and failing is a miracle that you need to take serious and thank God you failed. He wants you whole and healthy and you need act now.

I am praying for you!

 

[RuthD]

You need to get immediate help by calling the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 800-273-8255. Attempting to take your life and failing is a miracle that you need to take serious and thank God you failed. He wants you whole and healthy and you need act now.

I am praying for you!

I agree with this post. It's very important you get help right awy. You won't feel bad forever and with help can feel better more soon. Remember that God cares for you and so do a lot of people, including me. Please pray to your God and get closer to him and he will guide you. I'm praying for you and I care. God bless you.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, sweetie.
I agree with others, if you are in danger you need to get help immediately.
Go to a hospital and tell them how you are feeling I know it's hard, and you don't feel as though you want to be stopped - but please believe, it honestly won't always feel this bad. If this relationship has ended it's because God has someone better for you - someone who cares enough to forgive your mistakes as I am sure you would forgive his.
Please hang in there, sister You are very precious, and have so many good things to come in life.

 

[Jeshu]

Yes find help for sure until you break free from your failed love relationship. Please do understand that any man who acts like your ex has done is not worthy to die for. There are a lot better men out there, who will be a lot more compassionate, do keep that in mind.

 

[RuthD]

Praying for you. I agree, a man like that is not worth it. God has a better man in store for you.

 

[St. Paul]

I went from hopeful and wanting to live to hopeless and wanting to die within a couple weeks.

I don't know where to turn. My family feels sorry for me, friends think I will be ok. I am not.

I tried to kill myself over the weekend and failed.

I pray, I read the Bible, I hope things will work out. Each time I get news it looks like they aren't.

Apparently a couple weeks ago I was in a relationship with a man who I thought would support me and love me for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with depression, started treated, but December has been a cursed month for me for several painful memories. I acted out. He informed me had I not screwed up and ruined things (I read some messages he left up on the tablet he was using and lied about it) I would be engaged on Christmas, which is something I have wanted my whole life and prayed for for 10 months.

He blocked me on Facebook, blocked my number. I am still injured from a car accident he doesn't know about, and have a test for cancer at the end of the end. I emailed him, but each time he replies he sounds more disgusted with me and wants less to do with me.

I don't want to live to see Christmas. I know I shouldn't focus on him so much, but I believed he did care and would always be there. He has it made it perfectly clear I am dead to him and he wants nothing to do with me. I just don't want to keep hurting, and there's only one way I can think of to stop it.

What should I do?

Call common ground to get evaluated to see if you need to go to a psychiatric hospital.

But from the sounds of it I would just dial 911 and tell them you're feeling suicidal and then they'll send an ambulance to help you get the help you need. You've already tried to kill yourself. Don't wait. I hope your feeling a little better now.

 

[Krissy Cakes]

Praying for you.

How are you feeling today?

 

[StillSeeking36]

I went from hopeful and wanting to live to hopeless and wanting to die within a couple weeks.

I don't know where to turn. My family feels sorry for me, friends think I will be ok. I am not.

I tried to kill myself over the weekend and failed.

I pray, I read the Bible, I hope things will work out. Each time I get news it looks like they aren't.

Apparently a couple weeks ago I was in a relationship with a man who I thought would support me and love me for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with depression, started treated, but December has been a cursed month for me for several painful memories. I acted out. He informed me had I not screwed up and ruined things (I read some messages he left up on the tablet he was using and lied about it) I would be engaged on Christmas, which is something I have wanted my whole life and prayed for for 10 months.

He blocked me on Facebook, blocked my number. I am still injured from a car accident he doesn't know about, and have a test for cancer at the end of the end. I emailed him, but each time he replies he sounds more disgusted with me and wants less to do with me.

I don't want to live to see Christmas. I know I shouldn't focus on him so much, but I believed he did care and would always be there. He has it made it perfectly clear I am dead to him and he wants nothing to do with me. I just don't want to keep hurting, and there's only one way I can think of to stop it.

What should I do?

You have many thoughts in your head that are lies from the devil. You CAN live without this man and you CAN be happy and filled with joy, even without him. The devil is using your sadness to fill you with hopelessness. It is natural and acceptable to be sad, but the devil is giving you an interpretation of the experience that is a total lie and is causing you great suffering. This may seem hard to believe, but it is not the situation that is causing you to want to end your life. It is the lies the devil has implanted in your head about the experience and how terrible life is without this person. It is a LIE. The truth is you CAN live a good life without this person. Seek God with all your heart and you will find joy. Let the joy of the Lord be your strength. God created you, He loves you, and He will fulfill the desires of your heart. A book that I am reading right now that is really good is called "Telling Yourself the Truth: Find Your Way Out of Depression, Anxiety, Fear, Anger, and Other Common Problems by Applying the Principles of Misbelief Therapy" (by William Backus and Marie Champian). I strongly recommend that book for you. Don't get me wrong - I'm not saying that you shouldn't feel sad. But there is a difference between endurable sadness and utter hopelessness. The situation is not as terrible as the devil's lies would have you believe. You are wonderful child of God, who is completely loved, and you have so much to offer the world! You are His wonderful creation. There is so much joy and love to be found when you seek God with all of your heart. If we place all of our hopes in humans, we are bound to be disappointed. Humans aren't perfect. But a life with Jesus is worth living!! I know this, because Jesus has healed me of depression and suicidal thinking. He was my only hope. I was feeling so lonely, rejected, and pathetic. Sometimes I still feel that way, but it always passes, as long as I keep trusting in God. I believe that this sadness will pass for you, and that God can fill you with His joy, which is so much greater than any human could ever provide.

 

[Arcwood]

hey Ablewings be strong.
I'm going through the USA to Mexico in January. I'd love to meet you in person. It's easier to communicate that way. Perhaps you'd even join me to Mexico on our own little missionary work if u don't have school.

I know what it's like to be blocked. and have friends that don't understand you.
I find my faith incredibly revealing to those who are open to Christianity... but very disappointing to those who are self-richeous Christians.

facebook me if you want to meet: Gordon Fiala