Hello guys,
I am one of those people who others regularly describe as 'stoic', and to a certain extent it is true, but I am at the point in my life where I feel I have been held back for too long due to problems that I have failed to resolve.
I am struggling to seek help. I want to seek help.
Right now, I am waiting for an appointment with a psychotherapist in hopes of starting Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT).
Has anyone done this?
Also, can you please pray for me? Please pray that my current openness and willingness to seek help remains strong and that I do not withdraw back into my shell.
Thank you and God bless you.
Hey friend! My mending angel =)
I don't know your story in full, so I will just share what I learned. It will be a door for you to try if you choose so.
In my own self recovery, I learned in the beginning the process of true problem solving.
2 chronicles 7:14
14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Humility in greek means "To say what God says". Praying and seeking the Face of God is asking for help and understanding better the one who made us. Then turning that knowledge into wisdom or "turn from their wicked ways". Which a change of heart is about, free ourselves from being slaves to our sins.
Second door is really building that relationship with the heavenly father. Reading the scripture and understanding his love. From proverbs, Genesis, Genesis 18, Jeremiah, and so forth. So learn that he truly is a loving father or loving God.
Third door is learning who I am and what plan (dream) that he placed in my heart. Learning how to learn and seek after things that inspire me. Realize the truth, that I am a talented and creative individual. That we all are.
Fourth door is learning about love and fear. Really learning what true love is and it's many forms of being express. Learn that fear is a wall maker. It can be used to put someone on the right path, but ultimately true healing comes from love. Also remember fear creates walls, where love smash them down. Fear burns bridges, love repairs and builds new ones.
1 Corinthians 13:4-13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Which would explain why Jesus said that 2 greatest commandments were based on one concept. Love.
Matthew 22:36-40
36 Teacher, which is the most important commandment in the law of Moses?
37 Jesus replied,
You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.[
e] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 A second is equally important:
Love your neighbor as yourself.[
f] 40 The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.
Last door is learning the flow of creativity, flow of life within our souls. Things I feared the most, are accually peices of my soul. From being infront of other people talking, to expressing myself, to sharing what I have a passion for. "Creativity is medicine." "Art is therapeutic, not therapy" by Julia Cameron.
Just like blood flow in the body, our creative energies flow. Sometimes they get stuck on a "When?" "What?" "How?" "Why?". Like the positive energies get dammed up and we are sapped of our strength. Creates the weaknesses and desires of external joys to escape the misery. Learn how to get unstuck, and keep the creativity flowing. Being creative and following our passions is doing God's work. For they will be services and products dripping with love. Also these creative ideas and things we do will come from our hands, boosting our self esteem for it is internal joy.
