I am brand new to this forum so hopefully i can post this with no problems. I am probably much younger than most of the people that post on this forum, but I will try to maintain a mature and steady discussion. I come here seeking 2 things mainly 1) I need someone to talk to about this, so this will more than likely be a long post 2) advice and help from people wiser than myself.
Let me start by saying I am not a Christian, but I am not an Atheist. I am a seeker, currently seeking a true meaning in life, and I in no way bash or downplay any religion, including christianity. I am not a non-believer because I dont think that it is not possible that Christ was the son of God sent to earth to save man from his sin, i simply dont know personally if i believe that, or if i have the strength to do what is nessicary to live that life. I was brought up in a home where religion was not all that important, but my parents told me that i needed to be a christian and love god, and because my parents said so, I did it. Then as i got older i became self-aware i really started thinking about what this meant, decided that i didnt know if i honestly believe that, and began searching for the truth, and here i stand. I have no attended church since 2001 because people were treating me badly and I lost all interest in doing so.
Here is my main point...I have tryed to reason with myself for about the past year going through data, information, writings, what have you, to try and decide what i believe, and this is what i have come to.
The ancient greek philosophical saying says, "Ex Nihlo, Nil Fit" (pardon the spelling) which translates to what we would say as, "Through nothing, nothing comes", basically saying that something can not come from nothing. I believe this. This inturn shows thats if there was ever once nothing, than there would still be nothing. This inturn says that there has always necessarly been something. So be it god, a rock, an atom, there has always been something around. This brings me to my next realization/point. Creation. I basically boiled it down to the point that you believe that everything has been around forever, or everything has been created at one point. Now, first of all, if everything has been around forever, then this moment we are in is not possible, because time would have already passed us by. Think of it this way, i draw a line like this (12------------------------12) representing the 24 hours day (12 in the morning to 12 at night) and tell you to put a dot at 3 pm. You can do it. If i give you a line like this (----------------------12) with no defined beginning, and tell you to mark at 3 aclock, you can not do so because you dont know where to begin. Its the same with time, suggesting that there must have been a starting point. The other main point is the 2nd law of therodynamics states that all things naturally go to disorder. This would mean if everything has always been around, it would be in complete disorder.
After these realizations i came to realize that there has always been something, and that this something must have created everything. That there must have been a time of beginning rather than everything just naturally exisisting. Now, call it what you me, but i guess this means that i believe in a "god", a creator. This is where i am stuck at.
I dont know if God is personal. I dont feel god, and i dont hear god. I go to a chrsitian school, and i have many people tell me that they constantly hear god in their heart, and many of these people are people i trust, but when i ask them how, they just say, oh well, you can feel it when he talks to you. I dont understand this. I do understand that if you are not in the grace of god, he has no reason to bless you, even though he still may. But how can god expect someone who does not believe in him to begin to believe in him if he does not reveal himself to them. You hear of people having god revealed to them all the time, but there are also many people that die atheists. Where was god in their lives?
Also another question that crosses my mind is, is it possible for a "creator" god to create everything and everyone, and then not be a "personal" god back to them. Would a god create everything around us then tell us to pretty much fend for ourselves?
My last point i am going to include in this post is the fact that, from what i understand, when u are accepting christ, you are pretty much handing your life over and changing the way you live, and pretty much changing your self. You are dedicating your life to a higher cause. This seems like a pretty radical change to me. Well if it is so radical, then one who accpets this would naturally want to go out and spread the love of christ to everyone, would he not?, considering that that is the most important thing for christians to do, spread the love of christ so that noone can parish in hell. But people dont, some do, but most from what i can see dont. Why do they not? Are they faking it? Are they being luke warm? Is that type of christianity acceptable in gods eyes? These are only a few of the questions that i have that have led me to be a skeptic about christianity and a personal god.
Now i do understand that you can not box god up and explain him on paper. I think that those who know him best would describe him as an experience more than anything, but i still just dont understand. I dont know if this post is acatully going anywhere, but i just really needed to get this off my mind. If anyone has any comments or suggestions or anything at all please post. It would be greatfully appreciated.
-dig
Let me start by saying I am not a Christian, but I am not an Atheist. I am a seeker, currently seeking a true meaning in life, and I in no way bash or downplay any religion, including christianity. I am not a non-believer because I dont think that it is not possible that Christ was the son of God sent to earth to save man from his sin, i simply dont know personally if i believe that, or if i have the strength to do what is nessicary to live that life. I was brought up in a home where religion was not all that important, but my parents told me that i needed to be a christian and love god, and because my parents said so, I did it. Then as i got older i became self-aware i really started thinking about what this meant, decided that i didnt know if i honestly believe that, and began searching for the truth, and here i stand. I have no attended church since 2001 because people were treating me badly and I lost all interest in doing so.
Here is my main point...I have tryed to reason with myself for about the past year going through data, information, writings, what have you, to try and decide what i believe, and this is what i have come to.
The ancient greek philosophical saying says, "Ex Nihlo, Nil Fit" (pardon the spelling) which translates to what we would say as, "Through nothing, nothing comes", basically saying that something can not come from nothing. I believe this. This inturn shows thats if there was ever once nothing, than there would still be nothing. This inturn says that there has always necessarly been something. So be it god, a rock, an atom, there has always been something around. This brings me to my next realization/point. Creation. I basically boiled it down to the point that you believe that everything has been around forever, or everything has been created at one point. Now, first of all, if everything has been around forever, then this moment we are in is not possible, because time would have already passed us by. Think of it this way, i draw a line like this (12------------------------12) representing the 24 hours day (12 in the morning to 12 at night) and tell you to put a dot at 3 pm. You can do it. If i give you a line like this (----------------------12) with no defined beginning, and tell you to mark at 3 aclock, you can not do so because you dont know where to begin. Its the same with time, suggesting that there must have been a starting point. The other main point is the 2nd law of therodynamics states that all things naturally go to disorder. This would mean if everything has always been around, it would be in complete disorder.
After these realizations i came to realize that there has always been something, and that this something must have created everything. That there must have been a time of beginning rather than everything just naturally exisisting. Now, call it what you me, but i guess this means that i believe in a "god", a creator. This is where i am stuck at.
I dont know if God is personal. I dont feel god, and i dont hear god. I go to a chrsitian school, and i have many people tell me that they constantly hear god in their heart, and many of these people are people i trust, but when i ask them how, they just say, oh well, you can feel it when he talks to you. I dont understand this. I do understand that if you are not in the grace of god, he has no reason to bless you, even though he still may. But how can god expect someone who does not believe in him to begin to believe in him if he does not reveal himself to them. You hear of people having god revealed to them all the time, but there are also many people that die atheists. Where was god in their lives?
Also another question that crosses my mind is, is it possible for a "creator" god to create everything and everyone, and then not be a "personal" god back to them. Would a god create everything around us then tell us to pretty much fend for ourselves?
My last point i am going to include in this post is the fact that, from what i understand, when u are accepting christ, you are pretty much handing your life over and changing the way you live, and pretty much changing your self. You are dedicating your life to a higher cause. This seems like a pretty radical change to me. Well if it is so radical, then one who accpets this would naturally want to go out and spread the love of christ to everyone, would he not?, considering that that is the most important thing for christians to do, spread the love of christ so that noone can parish in hell. But people dont, some do, but most from what i can see dont. Why do they not? Are they faking it? Are they being luke warm? Is that type of christianity acceptable in gods eyes? These are only a few of the questions that i have that have led me to be a skeptic about christianity and a personal god.
Now i do understand that you can not box god up and explain him on paper. I think that those who know him best would describe him as an experience more than anything, but i still just dont understand. I dont know if this post is acatully going anywhere, but i just really needed to get this off my mind. If anyone has any comments or suggestions or anything at all please post. It would be greatfully appreciated.
-dig