Streetvision said:
but i am back and it is not nessearaly that i dont belive in god it just i dont know how it can be so true and there are like 500 diffrent religions they cant all be right, i am also scared on what others will think i know for a fact my parents are used to me moping around the house saying sadistic things about people dieing and killing, and im sure quite a number of my friends will hate me if they found out i was a christian which im not a christian im kinda meerly intrested in the christian religion and belifes
Hey Streetvision,
I know how you feel about being uncertain in committing yourself to Christianity because you think you're committing to a religion - sort of like an institution. You should remember that this is about you and God, it's your relationship with God that matters.
Sure, there are many different religions in the world, but there is only one God. What has taken me so long to realise is that it's not enough to just believe in God - anyone can believe in God (even Satan does), but that doesn't make you a Christian. It is our belief in and acceptance of our Lord Jesus as the son of God, the unselfish son of God who died for our shortcomings, every sin that we have ever committed, and will ever commit, that makes us Christians.
I think it has taken me so long to acknowledge Jesus as my lord and saviour because my mind couldn't comprehend how anyone could give himself up for everyone, for people people who rejected him, and for people who insist on rejecting him.
God has always stayed with me, even when I turned my back on him, even when my faith waned, he has always taken care of me. Now I'm no longer running away from him, and let me tell you...it's great to go through life knowing you can turn to God for help - there have been so many times when he has pulled me from some tough situations.
Hope this has helped. May God bless you in this transitional stage in your life...