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[bg100]

First off, this is a great forum, as it provides Christians to help Christians.

I am scared out of my mind, my ocd has developed around the fear of "selling my soul," something I would never want to do. Has anyone delt with this, and so has how has anyone gotten pass it without going crazy. I am trying to let God handle it, but right now I need to get a grasp on my anxiety.
Thanks and God Bless.

 

[wiggsfly]

My fears are different, but the general symptoms are the same. You aren't alone as many on this board will point out.

 

[BeccaLynn]

I've not struggled so much with the fear of selling my soul, but I have struggled, and actually still do, with the fear of being unsaved. I fear I've not truly repented, that even with all my praying and crying to be saved, that somehow deep inside I don't want to be or that I'm not letting God in. Sometimes it's as if I think like my mouth will say one thing to God, but my feelings or will are against Him. It's as if my feelings play a kind of Russian Roulette (unsure of spelling) with God. But, I've had to push beyond that to realize that it is ocd. When I get all caught up in trying to figure out what's really me and what's not, it just entangles me like a web. Since your fear is about selling your soul, that's exactly what the ocd will zone in on. I do know I've seen where someone else has previously posted something very similiar to what you've said. You're not alone and God understands us when we can't understand ourselves.

Rebecca

 

[gracealone]

Hey Bg,
It's good that you recognize that it's the whacked out anxiety response that is making this particular obsession so dreadful. If you didn't have a misfiring alarm system you would brush the thought - "what if I've sold my soul.." off. So label it an OCD thought, attribute your response - anxiety - to the chemical imbalance - do your level best to not attend to it in any way and try very hard to refocus on some other productive and engaging activity.
It doesn't matter what theme our OCD settles on what matters is not letting it push us into doing it's bidding.

And always remember that " If our heart condemn us (our fearful emotions) - God is greater than our heart". OCD cannot rob God of his children - they have been purchased and sealed for all eternity."
You have to let go and say "so what" to the OCD thoughts - don't fight them attempt to solve them or you'll be feeding them.
Praying for you,
Mitzi

 

[StTherese]

First off, this is a great forum, as it provides Christians to help Christians.

I am scared out of my mind, my ocd has developed around the fear of "selling my soul," something I would never want to do. Has anyone delt with this, and so has how has anyone gotten pass it without going crazy. I am trying to let God handle it, but right now I need to get a grasp on my anxiety.
Thanks and God Bless.

Well we usually obsess about things that we don't want, otherwise it wouldn't bother us so much to be thinking about it and therefore we wouldn't obsess about it.
I have had similar thoughts, and I had to learn that thoughts do not define our will. I can think anything in the whole world, but that doesn't mean I will the thing I am thinking. I can think of throwing a pen across the room, I have no desire to do this, it is just a thought that crossed my mind. If the pen could seriously injure someone, that thought may be bothersome to me and therefore if I allow myself to linger on this thought, I can start to believe that I actually want to throw the pen or that I actually want to injure someone just because I had the thought to begin with....which is actually not true.
I will be praying for you!