Salvation confusion

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Hey all. undergoing alot of spiritual attacks lately. With all the signs pointing to the end times- rev 12 sign, all these ppl saying the rapture can happen any day now,etc it has caused me to look at myself and desire to know for certain i am truly saved. Ive been in the Word,praying,watching youtube vid after youtube vid on salvation assurance, yet i still question it all and feel like what if something isnt right with me? I dont want to be one of those to whom God says "depart from me i never knew u ye worker of iniquity". I dont want to be left behind either. Ive questioned my sincerity when ive asked Christ into my life. These voices pop in my head like "are u really sure God is real?", "do u really fully surrender to Jesus?" "What if you arent being truly sincere?", "why do u still feel like somethings missing?" Also verses that say u cant serve two masters and we should hate the world. I still feel worldly often. Im a movie fanatic and lover of music and neither of those are really of God. So because i enjoy those things does that mean im doomed as well? Also i watched a youtube series on salvation assurance and the pastor mentioned how many christians are deceived into thinking theyre saved ,etc. and that u will know them by their fruits and i dont have many of those good fruits. I dunno guys ive just been struggling bad. Stomach in knots. Has me exhausted. I hate assuming im saved or feeling unsaved i want to absolutelt KNOW im saved and see more evidence of it in my life. Has anyone felt this way and struggled like this? Its eternity on the line and i dont wanna mess it up

Those thoughts are pretty common. It's the enemy whispering doubts to you in an effort to make you doubt and abandon faith. I had this problem for awhile, but seem to have overcopme it by...reading His word more and praying it over my life. Like Psalm 91 for instance. And praying more.

Trust your God more. Take Him at His word. His word in His book. Speak these things aloud. The power of the spoken word will affect your life and heart. Make some sacrifices in your life. Something you like. You like some shows and stuff. Give them up for Him. He'll love it. I did. Kill your television. ...is what I did, except for inspirational shows and messages and so forth. This shows effort on your part.

Have you ever read the scriptures straight through? Many people wont. Too hard they say. I thought about it and thought, do I want to show up and have to explain why I never even read the record of His word to us? Uhh...no. and ignore the doubts. Rebuke them in the name of the Lord and say, No. God is not a liar, it says...da da da. See what I mean?

That did and does wonders for me. You are being spiritually attacked because you seek God. You're dangerous to them. Change your thinking in these ways.