Safe place - Venting thread

[Criada]

There is a thread like this in the bi-polar area, but it seems that it would be useful to a lot of others, so I am putting it here too.
This is a place where you can vent, moan, cry, ask for support and prayers.

No advice.. we have plenty of other places for that.. just somewhere you can know that you are heard and cared about.

 

[Jo1]

Thanks Sarah just noticed this.
Ive been posting all round depression etc, so might as well post in here too!
I feel like I just want to give up you know.
Ive been depressed all my life virtually and this year has just been awful
Im having real probs, and I feel so lonely in it.
I cant really talk in detail here about it, case its not safe to mention
I dont get any emotional support from my church, and it seems like I cant get anymore anywhere else. Which is making me feel very low. I just feel so ashamed to let myself get like this really
I would apreciate any support and prayer.
thanksJo

 

[Criada]

Praying, always, sweetie.
You can get through this!

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Hey Jo, good to have you hun How are things? You're strong, you can overcome, we're here for you!

 

[Jo1]

Hey Jo, good to have you hun How are things? You're strong, you can overcome, we're here for you!

Hi, not great thanks for asking.god bless u.

 

[Jo1]

Praying, always, sweetie.
You can get through this!

Thanks Sarahyour lovely.

 

[chosenpath]

Thanks Sarah just noticed this.
Ive been posting all round depression etc, so might as well post in here too!
I feel like I just want to give up you know.
Ive been depressed all my life virtually and this year has just been awful
Im having real probs, and I feel so lonely in it.
I cant really talk in detail here about it, case its not safe to mention
I dont get any emotional support from my church, and it seems like I cant get anymore anywhere else. Which is making me feel very low. I just feel so ashamed to let myself get like this really
I would apreciate any support and prayer.
thanksJo

with all my

 

[ChristsCourage2]

I need prayers for my day. I have a headache, and, just need to feel better. I want the LORD to heal me from this pain. It is not a bad headache, but, I feel like it is pounding in my head. Thanks, and, GOD Bless!!!!!!!!!

 

[Jo1]

I need prayers for my day. I have a headache, and, just need to feel better. I want the LORD to heal me from this pain. It is not a bad headache, but, I feel like it is pounding in my head. Thanks, and, GOD Bless!!!!!!!!!

aww im sorry brotherpraying for you love Jo

 

[Criada]

I need prayers for my day. I have a headache, and, just need to feel better. I want the LORD to heal me from this pain. It is not a bad headache, but, I feel like it is pounding in my head. Thanks, and, GOD Bless!!!!!!!!!

Praying, brother.

 

[Ariel]

I need prayers for my day. I have a headache, and, just need to feel better. I want the LORD to heal me from this pain. It is not a bad headache, but, I feel like it is pounding in my head. Thanks, and, GOD Bless!!!!!!!!!

Praying.

 

[ChristsCourage2]

Thanks to all who prayed for me. I think your prayers worked. I do not have the headache anymore. PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Ariel]

Yes, praise God!

 

[Jo1]

Thanks to all who prayed for me. I think your prayers worked. I do not have the headache anymore. PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Great!god bless u

 

[Jo1]

I went to see a friend this afternoon, who I hadnt seen for quite a few weeks, not since my nan died. since end of August.
Anyway I ended up talking about her and what happened.
My eyes just filled up with tears,
It still feels so empty.

 

[Jo1]

I just feel lonely

 

[Ariel]

I'm sorry Jo. (((hug)))

It took me a long time to work through my grief too. I understand.

 

[Bellicus]

I Feel like that all the time:

Life is a constant guilt-trip, and things I regret doing or have done never let go of me. I think I remember in detail every bad thing I've ever done in my life. I really have a bad memory, and lots of people have commented that, but when it comes to things I regret, then I can never forget. And it is not just bad things, but also things that were stupid, too little intelligent, or things that I could have said in a better way, or things I could have done in a better way. I mean I remember things like that from the childhood, and I hate myself because I didn't used to be smart enough when I were a child. It is just these constant thoughts where I think: "OH NO! Why did I do that!" or "OH NO! Why did I say that!" - "That was soooooo STUPID!", "What is wrong with me!", "Why am I so stupid, so ugly, so filthy, so evil, so useless, so lazy, so little talented, so unhealthy, so bad" And "No one likes me", "I hate myself", "my life is never going to improve", "I have no future", "there is no point in anything", "I deserve pain" etc. I could go on forever like that, and in the end I would just hate myself even more because I look totally insane, I would scare people if I really describe how awful I feel.

It would be great to just go out into a deserted forest and scream, bring a axe or machete and just chop down everything I see, or just go nuts with a sledgehammer and crush the whole apartment. Would be great for a short while, but then I would hate myself for that too. Its almost like I want to do something bad, say something really rude to someone or to do something cruel against someone, or anything, so at least I can feel complete for a while. No matter how hard I try, it feels like I will never be able to do anything good, and no matter how much good I do, it will never be enough to feel better about myself.

I'm just a big clown and I hate myself.

 

[Ariel]

Bellicus, part of the distorted thinking that comes from depression causes us to maximize anything wrong we ever did and minimize or even discount anything good we've done.

You are not alone--so many people do this. It is part of the illness.

But new thinking processes can be learned. Let me do some research--I'll be back.

 

[Ariel]

Yes, here it is--it's called Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. You can google it and see what you think.

In any case, you are not alone. Many, many people feel the same way and really get themselves into a hole--but you can learn better ways to think about yourself.


You sound really down--I am praying for you.