I dont know if im dealing with depression but i just feel down. Granted I have my battles with mental sin that does get to me but I really dont know why I feel so down.
"mental sin" > yes, I have seen how my imagination's sinning can keep me from loving the way I should; it can get my attention into the wrong place > including by paranoid and immoral imagination stuff, in my case.
And if we are not doing things in God's love, we can give in to feelings which are not . . . in God's kind and caring and joyful loving.
So, we need to trust God to get rid of the negative and nasty stuff and change us into how He has us become and love like Jesus. This is not our own discipline that does this; but we submit to God in order for Him to do all which He alone can do.
"Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." (James 4:7)
I have God with me, I have salvation, I just recently got my cdl b license.
This driver's license would make you able to do something different than welding. In case you decide to get away from your "supervisor" and that situation, getting a job driving a truck could be a diplomatic way to get out. You could just say you have gotten a new career, versus getting into major trouble trying to deal with the "supervisor" and/or higher-up people. Dishonest people who betray others can be very dangerous. So, in case anyone is knowingly betraying customers by allowing shoddy work to be made and sold, it could be a problem with some individual or with the whole higher administrative staff; I would say be very prayerfully careful in dealing with anyone who is ok with betraying trust by letting out shoddy stuff. I suppose any shoddy welding could be dangerous, by letting metal parts get loose so they could cut people or jam and damage the machinery where the shoddy parts are. If they are expecting you to be a part of something like that, you might even need to just disappear from there; possibly talk with a mature Christian person first, about this.
One thing, though > for heavy vehicle driving, there can be abuse of drivers, not letting them get proper sleep and rest and breaks, and maybe other things I have not been told. You would still need to see if you can make sure about the safety and honesty of whomever would employ you.
But I just don't seem to hear anything from God, I don't see him working in my life, I struggle with not feeling God's love along with loving God back in an emotional way not just through obedience which I'm not perfect at.
God is the One who is good at what He does!
He in us makes us able to do well.
"for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure." (Philippians 2:13)
And Jesus is our One who judges and rules what to do in any circumstance. So, trust Jesus about all this. He rules in and through everything . . . as Lord of all.
I know that were not supposed to rely on our feelings but I still desire it.
God is alive. God does feel. So, yes there are the feelings we have in God's love. These are kind and gentle and humble, like Jesus >
"'Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.'" (in Matthew 11:29).
So, indeed > there are feelings and emotions . . . not loving and kind . . . which we need to put away >
"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice." (Ephesians 4:32)
These things can be included in the process of depression. The person's depression can include being bitter, somehow, angry and even wrathful, and there can be "clamor" *in* us > a major racket and commotion of feelings and emotions raging in us in depression, plus we can have much "evil speaking" in the thoughts of our depressed thinking. And what does God say to do? Put it away > get rid of it > do not try to struggle or negotiate with it > but depend on God to put it away.
Then we can be kind, in our feelings and emotions and thinking and our manner with other people >
"And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you." (Ephesians 4:32)
You will have very different feelings, doing this. Because there is feeling in God's love. The reality of God's love feels different than our self-concerned and self-seeking stuff feels.
And God's word says we do have "senses" > Hebrews 5:14 > in God's love we have senses to feel what is going on inside of us. God has senses, including to hear and smell and see, and He shares His sensing ability with us, in His love.
I struggle truly grasping my salvation. Then moving on to my life circumstances like I said I have my cdl b license now but I really only went for it for money and that it would be easy compared to other jobs.
It can be good to have an easy job so you have energy outside work for blessing people, including having time with energy for your family. But I would say to be careful about who you work for, driving.
But the thing is it's not the career I would have chosen if given the opportunity. I am used to working in a retail environment and used to be a department manager and just had an interview for lowes earlier today. I maybe wouldn't mind working retail my whole life if it wasn't for the fact of how bad it's gone down for the workers in terms of what employers desire vs what they give in return.
It is what good you can do with it, that matters . . . with God.
Also theres a stigma attached to the idea of working retail as a career which I have seen and felt in my life.
It's what you make it,
how you take it . . .
just don't y
u fake it !
It's only going to get worse too probably due to A.I.. What I enjoyed when working in retail was the idea of being a leader that everyone loved and wanting to take on a challenge and turn a department around. I didn't have any career ambitions that lasted aside from retail. I just turned 25 too and don't see myself going back to school. I have other issues in my life but what should I do? Thanks for any advice.
Make sure with God. There are risks that are worth taking, so we can love.
Consider how Jesus was in Heaven itself, and how it was for Him to come to be here on this earth. For what He came to do, though, it was worthwhile to go through that stigma. There was the loving which came as a result. So, you need, then, to be appreciative of having Christian people to love, and make the sacrifices that are for loving.
"And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma." (Ephesians 5:2)
