sad today

[lmarie23]

i've been so sad lately. i wondered if you had any advice. home is kind of tense because my sister is always depressed and very negative about things, so it's hard to talk to her. we all argue with her about things, and she talks about how much she hates being home and hates life. i'm working a part time job in retail, i just wish it were more hours, it's nice to get out of the house and be accomplishing something. i've been looking for a job since i graduated college in December but i haven't found the right one yet. this past week i had two interviews - one for a day care job and one for a work at home job investigating insurance fraud. both are good in some respects but not good in others.

i wish i could find some way to help my sister, to have her cheer up and be happier about life. but you can't make a person get help or change...

i wish i could find a good job that would be fulfilling. but i have no self-confidence and i'm not the capable person i used to be. in high school people thought i had all these great possibilities for my life, but now no one seems to expect much out of me. it makes me sad.

the one really good thing in my life is this great Bible study i've joined lately. everyone at the Bible study is wonderful, and we are studying Revelation, it's just so fascinating. but then when i come home from Bible study, like i did last night, i crash into depression.

i'm so tired of being depressed and fighting the temptation to hurt myself. i just wish i could be better. why do things have to be so hard? i know i am blessed in many ways, like i have a wonderful Christian counselor and family and great friends, but right now i'm having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Thank you for listening to my rant...

oh, one last thing, i wonder if part of why i'm so depressed right now is because i recently have gotten off one of my medications, Abilify, for bipolar. maybe i need the med more than i had thought.

Lynne

 

[AWorkInProgress]

i've been so sad lately. i wondered if you had any advice. home is kind of tense because my sister is always depressed and very negative about things, so it's hard to talk to her. we all argue with her about things, and she talks about how much she hates being home and hates life. i'm working a part time job in retail, i just wish it were more hours, it's nice to get out of the house and be accomplishing something. i've been looking for a job since i graduated college in December but i haven't found the right one yet. this past week i had two interviews - one for a day care job and one for a work at home job investigating insurance fraud. both are good in some respects but not good in others.

i wish i could find some way to help my sister, to have her cheer up and be happier about life. but you can't make a person get help or change...

i wish i could find a good job that would be fulfilling. but i have no self-confidence and i'm not the capable person i used to be. in high school people thought i had all these great possibilities for my life, but now no one seems to expect much out of me. it makes me sad.

the one really good thing in my life is this great Bible study i've joined lately. everyone at the Bible study is wonderful, and we are studying Revelation, it's just so fascinating. but then when i come home from Bible study, like i did last night, i crash into depression.

i'm so tired of being depressed and fighting the temptation to hurt myself. i just wish i could be better. why do things have to be so hard? i know i am blessed in many ways, like i have a wonderful Christian counselor and family and great friends, but right now i'm having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Thank you for listening to my rant...

oh, one last thing, i wonder if part of why i'm so depressed right now is because i recently have gotten off one of my medications, Abilify, for bipolar. maybe i need the med more than i had thought.

Lynne

Hello again Lynne,

I promise to behave this time hehe

Well you might have a point on the meds. Instead of having some resistance to the problem, you are now feeling it's full weight. If you want to be free from the meds, at some point you have to tackle this part of you. You can get back on the meds if it is too much to bare.

I like you to believe me when I say you are a beautiful child of God. You have God given gifts, it is a matter of understanding yourself. It is going to take some time and growth to help you unlock your potiential.

This is just advice, I personally believe you should keep working part time. Try not to focus on what your career is right now, instead focus on personal growth. Try to be free from depression and know your strengths and weaknesses are. This way you have better idea of what type of career you can pursue with your gifts, and better glorify God doing it.

I work a very boring job, and doesn't pay as much I like it to. Even had a mental break down, but later I became appresitive of my boring job. It was a stable paycheck for an employee with ADD. I am dedicating majority of 2007 to just personal growth and building a strong foundation.

I am itchy for knowing what my career field is too. Most of my friends are in their Trade or in their field, but I am still simple records clerk. I first thought I have thing for understanding stuff and be cool to be some sort of engineer. I don't have the energy for automechanics or any other big time trades. I bought some stuff and books to learn from, but it felt like trying to learn Insurance books. I could build circuits, but really I am not a fan of gadgets. My sister pointed out to me that I should try be a counceller, since I am the rock she talks to when she is down.

I don't really build circuits but right in front of me is that I really enjoy helping people. This is a God given gift along with my problem solving skills. So now looking into jobs where I work with the customer. I think back, I worked customer service and enjoyed it when working Retail. They orginally hired me to be electronics sales guy, instead of stocking was answering customers questions. They finally threw me into cashier position haha

Lynne your gifts are probably infront of you, but just can't see it. I am sure it will become obvious as time passes.

I hope this helps you

 

[junezephyr]

Lynne,

Cling to the hope you have in Jesus. Life here is very tough at times- it may seem to be dry and difficult. Like you, I've had it rough in the past few years. I've had many times of low motivation due to some health issues, which have taken a toll on my capabilities. You're not alone in your troubles girl

A few verses that help me in times like these: "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." - John 14:27

"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not to be compared to the glory which shall be revealed in us." Romans 8:18

No matter how difficult life seems, no matter what happens, you've got this promise to hold onto. Just keep trusting the One who made you; He'll pull you through.

Keep studying your Bible, because the Lord can give you unending joy.

 

[GryffinSong]

Changing or stopping medications can definately make a big difference. I suggest you speak with your doctor about how you're feeling, and ask their advice. You and your doctor can discuss whether you should perhaps go back on it. I've known a couple of people who were bipolar. They had many problems when they went off their meds.

Hugs and good luck!

 

[FirstLight]

Other people's attitudes are catching. It seems that negative attitudes are more infectious than positive ones. It's real tough living with a person who's in a bad mood all the time. All I can say is---stay tough. Take the meds the doc gives you--continue your bible study because that puts this Vail of Tears into perspective for you---and keep trying to get a better job. And when you do----GET YOUR OWN APARTMENT! And this is something to be aware of in the future---since you lived with a sister who's attitude brings you down, don't ever bring those into your life who will do the same thing. If you see it happening, kick them to the curb and move on. Life is short--no need to go around with negative people.

 

[Jo1]

Bless you Imarie23 im praying for you. always here for you.
all my love Jo