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I'm having problems. There are things that I'm not happy about doing, but my family members tell me that I'm being too strict and I need to relax a bit.
Don't get me wrong, we're very conservative, 'least around here. But as I'm growing older, I want to take religion more seriously, you know? I'm starting to realise, I need it. Without it, my life will be so empty, and its there, I can't ignore it, so its in my interests to embrace it
And sabbath is important. I sometimes forget God... well, not forget, but don't show enough attention to him (bad, I know, but true) and sabbath, when I keep it well, refuels me and my relationship with God. It sends me on a natural-controlled spiritual high and I'm ready to go out there, and try to be like Jesus once again. If I don't keep it well, I don't get that, and I enter the rest of the week feeling guilty and somewhat empty.
Todays one of those days. You see, we used to watch family videos on saturday and friday night for hours. Hours and hours. Videos of us on holiday, and when we were little. Then, we'd sit down and watch videos for little kids, with no real stuff in them whatsoever.
Now, though, as I've matured, I've gotten into a certain pattern. My ideal sabbath, is either getting a good book and reading it (recently, I've taken a liking to learning about the science behind the bible) or watching some good videos (seminars, doug batchelor videos, keepers of the flame so as learning about my roots etc) eating simple foods that I'd normally eat and spending it somewhat on my own.
By my parents are pushing for me to get more "involved" yet, "getting involved" means associating with kids my own age, and we don't talk about spiritual stuff together. Oh no, we'll discuss the weekly events, maybe run onto subjects about video games, etc etc. Then, if I'm with my family, the subjects are generally things that arn't spiritual (unless its with my dad, we have chats) and oftentimes, so that me and my sister stay connected as we're quite different, we'll sometimes spend the day together. Like, today, we went on a scooter ride around our neighbourhood, sometimes it was spiritual talk, othertimes not. We watched a video of a survivor themed party we had. We made a REALLY nice salad togther. Then, we watched some videos of her and her church friends doing random stuff and looked at her prom photos.
But it doesn't feel right. Please, someone tell me this is either okay or not! This feels absolutely horrible and I feel like I'm almost making the day dirty! My mum cooks stuff on sabbath (like sausage rolls) and does the dishes.... because she can't stand them being dirty. If I try and tell her its not right, I get told that I'll turn into a insane CB and get told to relax. This is wrong, isn't it? I shouldn't be doing this. I'm so weak, I give in and do it, while gritting my teeth. But I drew the line, when my sister wanted to search for video clips of a secular movie on the web. No way.
^^ kind people reading this, please tell me what I did right or wrong, even if I thought it was wrong, so I can know for the future.
Don't get me wrong, we're very conservative, 'least around here. But as I'm growing older, I want to take religion more seriously, you know? I'm starting to realise, I need it. Without it, my life will be so empty, and its there, I can't ignore it, so its in my interests to embrace it
And sabbath is important. I sometimes forget God... well, not forget, but don't show enough attention to him (bad, I know, but true) and sabbath, when I keep it well, refuels me and my relationship with God. It sends me on a natural-controlled spiritual high and I'm ready to go out there, and try to be like Jesus once again. If I don't keep it well, I don't get that, and I enter the rest of the week feeling guilty and somewhat empty.
Todays one of those days. You see, we used to watch family videos on saturday and friday night for hours. Hours and hours. Videos of us on holiday, and when we were little. Then, we'd sit down and watch videos for little kids, with no real stuff in them whatsoever.
Now, though, as I've matured, I've gotten into a certain pattern. My ideal sabbath, is either getting a good book and reading it (recently, I've taken a liking to learning about the science behind the bible) or watching some good videos (seminars, doug batchelor videos, keepers of the flame so as learning about my roots etc) eating simple foods that I'd normally eat and spending it somewhat on my own.
By my parents are pushing for me to get more "involved" yet, "getting involved" means associating with kids my own age, and we don't talk about spiritual stuff together. Oh no, we'll discuss the weekly events, maybe run onto subjects about video games, etc etc. Then, if I'm with my family, the subjects are generally things that arn't spiritual (unless its with my dad, we have chats) and oftentimes, so that me and my sister stay connected as we're quite different, we'll sometimes spend the day together. Like, today, we went on a scooter ride around our neighbourhood, sometimes it was spiritual talk, othertimes not. We watched a video of a survivor themed party we had. We made a REALLY nice salad togther. Then, we watched some videos of her and her church friends doing random stuff and looked at her prom photos.
But it doesn't feel right. Please, someone tell me this is either okay or not! This feels absolutely horrible and I feel like I'm almost making the day dirty! My mum cooks stuff on sabbath (like sausage rolls) and does the dishes.... because she can't stand them being dirty. If I try and tell her its not right, I get told that I'll turn into a insane CB and get told to relax. This is wrong, isn't it? I shouldn't be doing this. I'm so weak, I give in and do it, while gritting my teeth. But I drew the line, when my sister wanted to search for video clips of a secular movie on the web. No way.
^^ kind people reading this, please tell me what I did right or wrong, even if I thought it was wrong, so I can know for the future.
