Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh
Me! I was a Christian for years before giving it up for a journey through other faiths, but ended up right back where I started.
I'm not sure what kind of story you're looking for.. going through my history would take me ages and I have to admit I'm somewhat uninclined to do so because of how long it would take me to type everything out.
I went from being a Christian, to an atheist, to a Muslim, and back to being a Christian. I took a lot of positive things away from each step in that journey. At no point do I consider my transitions between religion or lack-thereof to have been a
bad thing.
But, I was a hijab-wearing prayer-abiding Muslimah and I can tell you in specific the
exact moment I left Islam (as it may be relevant for you, I'm not sure): I was goin through a really, really hard time.. and I opened the Qur'an one day desperately searching for guidance. A kind word or thought, an inspirational statement, anything at all that was positive and that was going to lift me from this place of despair I was in at the time.. and you know what I found?
Nothing. :o I couldn't find a single thing among the pages of the Qur'an that helped me in a positive way with what I was struggling with.. and while all the prayer to God may have helped in a way, when I opened what was supposed to be the holiest of books and found not a single thing that was
encouraging to me.. in that moment I knew something was desperately wrong and I've since come to see that the Qur'an is a very false document with little truth in it (what little exists is pulled from prior Abrahamic faiths). That was just my revelation and is not meant to insult you at all.
That same day I opened a Bible again and took off my hijab, and that was that.
How I got from atheism to Islam is a more complicated, lengthy story.. and Christianity to atheism was more or less just a falling away. I can tell you that I learned a lot about humanity and the world while I was an atheist, but that it wasn't where I was meant to be. Looking back, I think I realize now I really never stopped believing entirely, but rather I was just a very angry person. Not angry at God (though maybe I was some of that too), but angry at
religion.
Over the years though I've come to see that
religion and
God can be two very different things.
