relapse?

[DawnS1065]

i have been taking a Tae kwon do class since november and have since lost a lot of weight... i am recovering anorexic... i am now at the weight i normally would be in hospital for... but i am very healthy. i lost the weight from all the exercise and over course of 7 almost 8 months.... and am eating...
but my concern is this... am i replacing lack of eating with over exercising? where do you draw the line on over exercise?
I tried to by some suppliments in the grocery store Sunday and could not do it... i just could not physically put them in my cart. that concerns me..
And a lot of people are making comments about how i am too thin... which is triggering me further.
i eat to exercise now... and the exercise makes me feel in control of my life... sounds hauntingly familiar...
however, i am not feeling weak... i can work go to school etc.
am i in a relapse or not?
Dawn

 

[byebyebaby]

i have been taking a Tae kwon do class since november and have since lost a lot of weight... i am recovering anorexic... i am now at the weight i normally would be in hospital for... but i am very healthy. i lost the weight from all the exercise and over course of 7 almost 8 months.... and am eating...
but my concern is this... am i replacing lack of eating with over exercising? where do you draw the line on over exercise?
I tried to by some suppliments in the grocery store Sunday and could not do it... i just could not physically put them in my cart. that concerns me..
And a lot of people are making comments about how i am too thin... which is triggering me further.
i eat to exercise now... and the exercise makes me feel in control of my life... sounds hauntingly familiar...
however, i am not feeling weak... i can work go to school etc.
am i in a relapse or not?
Dawn

I used to or is it still have the same problem. I'm no where close to where I used to be with my crazy exercise regime but I do understand how quickly it can get out of hand. Whether you're losing weight from over exercising or not eating, both are dangerous. I highly doubt that you are healthy right now. Maybe you FEEL healthy compared to the last time you were at thi weight. I usually feel better physically when I eat and exercise it off vs dont eat.

People commenting on our weight is difficult to handle no matter what the situation, whether they say something "good" or "bad." Man, last time I went IP and someone told me I looked "adequate" I lost it. As for your question about whether or not your relasping, I think it has A LOT MORE to do with your mental state than your physical. Dont get me wrong, your physical state is very important but I usually judge where I am by my thought processes. For example, I'm currently at a higher weight than I was 6 months ago when I went into a residential treatment facility BUT I am once again being readmitted based on whats going on in my head.

Oh yes and I think it would be a great idea to go back and get those vitamins/supplements.

If you have a long history of an ed, you should probably talk to your doctor to find out what the next step twds getting you well is.

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[Soulwings]

I agree, very good reply.

 

[byebyebaby]

How are you doing now hon?

 

[DawnS1065]

How are you doing now hon?

well. i talked to my councelor today about it... he says he thinks i am ok... he says that if i were in relapse then i would be more in cline to want to lose more weight... and not gain any back.. and the amount of exercise i am getting is not unhealthy. i work out three times a week for 2 -3 hours...
But health wise, i am seeings some negative effects. Like bruising very easily, and dizziness in the morning sometimes... and last saturday i tried to take class and was very weak and nearly passed out b/c i did not eat breakfast....
but i am trying to eat more.. and want to gain some back...
my goal is health... i don't want to be sick... in past when i was in relapse.. being sick was my goal... i wanted to destroy my body... i do not feel that way at all. i want to be strong.. and healthy.
my thinking is not unhealthy, but my body seems to be a bit depleted..... i just have a really hard time buying those suppliments... i think its b/c in treatment i had to drink them so much and that was always what seemed to be a punishment... and i don't want to feel that way...
maybe i could try some of those bars????? something that is not a drink? any suggestions?
oh and please pray for me..
thanks
Dawn

 

[byebyebaby]

if i were in relapse then i would be more in cline to want to lose more weight... and not gain any back..

my goal is health... i don't want to be sick... in past when i was in relapse.. being sick was my goal... i wanted to destroy my body... i do not feel that way at all. i want to be strong.. and healthy.

maybe i could try some of those bars????? something that is not a drink? any suggestions?
oh and please pray for me..
thanks
Dawn

I will be praying! Ah and I definitely know the feeling of wanting to be sick. bleh.

I highly recommend trying cookie dough balance bars. they are heaven sent! They are only 200cal but im not sure how high cal you are looking...

 

[DawnS1065]

that would be good. i need to eat more small meals cuz i can't seem to get extra food in. hurts my tummy too much...
Dawn

 

[byebyebaby]

that would be good. i need to eat more small meals cuz i can't seem to get extra food in. hurts my tummy too much...
Dawn

maybe you should look at the density of the food youre eating???

 

[inHisgripkim]

i have been taking a Tae kwon do class since november and have since lost a lot of weight... i am recovering anorexic... i am now at the weight i normally would be in hospital for... but i am very healthy. i lost the weight from all the exercise and over course of 7 almost 8 months.... and am eating...
but my concern is this... am i replacing lack of eating with over exercising? where do you draw the line on over exercise?
I tried to by some suppliments in the grocery store Sunday and could not do it... i just could not physically put them in my cart. that concerns me..
And a lot of people are making comments about how i am too thin... which is triggering me further.
i eat to exercise now... and the exercise makes me feel in control of my life... sounds hauntingly familiar...
however, i am not feeling weak... i can work go to school etc.
am i in a relapse or not?
Dawn

Dawn:

I know when we do hard work outs we should eat protein after the workout because the muscles have been strained. Body builders will eat protein after workout. Something to think about when you work out.
May help you maintain weight and gain muscles strength. Remember, muscle weighs more than fat.

God's love,
Kim

 

[DawnS1065]

Dawn:

I know when we do hard work outs we should eat protein after the workout because the muscles have been strained. Body builders will eat protein after workout. Something to think about when you work out.
May help you maintain weight and gain muscles strength. Remember, muscle weighs more than fat.

God's love,
Kim

yes, thats what my tkd instructor told me too.... i just have trouble eating heavy foods before bed. but i am trying... tonight i had some sausage... i know its high fat, but i just love it!! And i don't think the extra fat will hurt me right now.... gosh never thought i would say that....
i can feel a difference in my work out tonight since i have been eating more in last few days... please keep praying for me to continue on road to health.
dawn