Relapse

[madison1101]

I have been in bingeing relapse since Sunday. It is now Tuesday night. It is getting worse and I am feeling out of control and hopeless. I know I should get to an OA meeting. I missed tonight's meeting because I got home late. I don't want to feel the feelings that I am trying to avoid. The food is just numbing me out but I will feel those feelings someday.

 

[Gracie710]

Did something happen that made you start on the bingeing? I know I find it hard not to binge when I'm really angry. The Lord has made me able to not binge and it seems like I get angry so often, rageful, and I'm just starting to deal with it. Do you know what it is? Could it possibly be hormone-related?

 

[madison1101]

Did something happen that made you start on the bingeing? I know I find it hard not to binge when I'm really angry. The Lord has made me able to not binge and it seems like I get angry so often, rageful, and I'm just starting to deal with it. Do you know what it is? Could it possibly be hormone-related?

I had some emotional lapses with my son who was moving out of town on Sunday. In addition, I saw his father for the first time in months, and it brought up all the pain of our divorce. We have been divorced for over four years. I know I should get over him, and I thought I had, but then it all came up on Sunday. So, feeling guilty over the way I lashed out at my son, seeing his dad, and saying good-bye to my son stirred up a lot of yucky emotions.

 

[Gracie710]

Then it seems like bingeing is a pretty normal reaction to those things that caused a lot of strong feelings. I totally understand why you would react that way.

I say, be kind to yourself, understand that sometimes we have setbacks, but that it is not permanent. And take it to the Lord, for He cares for you! Set aside some quiet time where you are doing nothing but talking to the Lord and tell Him how you really feel, pour your heart out to him, and then if you still feel like bingeing (in my experience you probably won't), be kind to yourself. Bingeing is your way of trying to take care of yourself. Reach out to someone who will listen to you besides God as well. You would be amazed at how easy isolation and loneliness lead to eating a lot.

God bless. I pray that He bless you with a closer relationship with himself.

 

[madison1101]

Thank you. I was able to break the sugar binges on Thursday night. I made some bran muffins and just had a couple of them. Way too filling to binge on.

I have been praying more this week. God is at work, in spite of me.

Trish

 

[Music4Hym777]

Thank you. I was able to break the sugar binges on Thursday night. I made some bran muffins and just had a couple of them. Way too filling to binge on.

I have been praying more this week. God is at work, in spite of me.

Trish

Thats great that you are making progress and really spending some time with God!

Praying for you,
Monica

 

[blessedmomof5]

Trish,

I am glad to hear that you are doing much better.It's amazing what will happen once you let the Lord take over....
keep up the hard work, i am rooting for you....
Denise

 

[madison1101]

I saw my doctor on Monday. My weight was up 8 pounds. My blood sugar A1C was also up. He cautioned me about being on the brink of diabetes. I am depressed, discouraged and scared.

 

[blessedmomof5]

Trish, I pray that you will find the help that you need and the courage to keep with it....... i wish i could reach out and give you a big (((((HUG)))))) right now, cause i bet you could use one.....but know that i care about what hapens to you....

did the dr give you any advice? suggestions, medications? anything to help?

In Christ

Denise

 

[madison1101]

Trish, I pray that you will find the help that you need and the courage to keep with it....... i wish i could reach out and give you a big (((((HUG)))))) right now, cause i bet you could use one.....but know that i care about what hapens to you....

did the dr give you any advice? suggestions, medications? anything to help?

In Christ

Denise

Thanks, Denise. I am in therapy and have been going to Overeaters Anonymous for years now. That is why I feel like such a failure, I have been trying to gain victory over this for years, and just seem to be spinning my wheels.

At least for three days now my eating disorder is under control. PTL

Hugs,
trish

 

[Music4Hym777]

Three days is an awesome start! That is all you can do, take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time. As each day passes with a victory it will get easier and easier to have more victorious days. I know that I am only 18, but I have been there, years of struggling, trying to get over this thing. My eating disorder started when I was 12 and I am still in recovery, I still slip up sometimes, but as time goes on and you start to take control of your life again, then it will get easier!

 

[ChrissyLovesJesus]

I am praying for you.

I had an eating disorder at one time and thankfully it's about completely gone, I still wonder if it will relapse eventually, but then I pray and hand my cares over to God. I think it's mainly an anxiety thing, you can't live in fear of it, you have to fight against it.

Which we can only do with the Holy Spirit. It looks like you are off to a good start =)