Reflection

[Unfit'for'swine]

Oh, any of this I would happily say to your face. Well, maybe not the smileys, but you get the point.

What I mean is that I don't think that he comes down and heals people just because they pray, and neither does he send people to eternal pain and suffering because they did something wrong, be it big or small. I would also not say that the Bible is the "complete truth, the whole truth and the only truth."

I guess we agree to disagree then

So why is it that you don't agree with the Bible? If you divide the Bible into parts you believe and parts you don't then arn't you just messing around?

If I approached the Bible was the same idea then I would simply agree with the things appropriate for me and then disagree with things that seem disagreeable, like because I like girls, I could say, I disagree with the part in the Bible that doesn't allow fornication(sex before marriage) simply to benefit my situation.

or if I wanted to be a homosexuall, I could disown parts in the Bible that are appropriate for me. But in the end i'd just be deceiving myself, because a Christian follows the whole Bible and not just the bits he likes.

I'm resolute on that point, and it confuses me why other people would not follow the whole Bible.

 

[cRIO]

I guess we agree to disagree then

But that's no fun! XD

So why is it that you don't agree with the Bible? If you divide the Bible into parts you believe and parts you don't then arn't you just messing around?

Not really. People don't usually want you want you to take everything they say exactly as they said it. They usually get really annoyed. Believe me, I've tried it.

I would simply agree with the things appropriate for me and then disagree with things that seem disagreeable

A lot of people do just that. For example, are you against abortion? Hosea 9:14, 2 Samuel 12:14, and Genesis 38:24. Crazy rules? Leviticus. Free will? Romans 8:29-30, 2 Thessalonians 2:11-12, and best of all, Romans 9:11-22.
Let me paraphrase that last one for you:
God: The older twin will serve the younger twin.
God: I will do what I want when it comes to mercy.
Everything depends on God.
Someone else: But then why blame us if we can't resist your will?
God: Shush! Just do what I say, I'm God!

But in the end i'd just be deceiving myself, because a Christian follows the whole Bible and not just the bits he likes.

But I think that such actions are necessary. I'm an quite sure that you follow only the parts you want to, after all, just look at Deuteronomy 13:6-10. It says, basically, to kill the infidels. I really hope you don't follow this one.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

But that's no fun! XD

Not really. People don't usually want you want you to take everything they say exactly as they said it. They usually get really annoyed. Believe me, I've tried it.

Well I can imagine that would get pretty irritating after a while, especially if your serious when you do it =)

Sometimes I do that if I'm just messing with someone, but I can see it in their eyes that they dislike it

Genesis 38:24.

So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. John 8:7

I was curious about some of the commands in the old testament, and for a while I was conflicted about them because I didn't know if I had to obey them.

"If the first covenant had been faultless, there would have been no need for a second covenant to replace it." Hebrews 8:7

It turns out that the first testament, proves to us how we are creatures of sin, and with all those commands no one could go to heaven. So Jesus came as the high priest for the Christian church, to argue on our behalf, to save us from our sins.

So when I read through the first testament it fills me with fear for God, realising how imperfect I am in comparison with God's perfect standard, and it fills me with Joy and hope because Jesus came and saved us.

What is sin? Sin is to do things contrary to God's perfect plan, and basically if salvation was earn't then one man could boast to his brother about being superior, but because it is a gift, no man can say he earn't it but received it through grace.

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Leviticus. Free will? Romans 8:29-30,

Deuteronomy 7:7–9
7 The Lord did not set his affection on you and choose you because you were more numerous than other peoples, for you were the fewest of all peoples. 8 But it was because the Lord loved you and kept the oath he swore to your forefathers that he brought you out with a mighty hand and redeemed you from the land of slavery, from the power of Pharaoh king of Egypt. 9 Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.

Romans 9:11-22.

I might just be weird but that scripture made me so happy I almost cried, I'm so glad God is in control. My life is only 70 years long, and all I get is a dash between two dates, I don't want to live my life for me, but for God.

Why do I feel this way? Because life is pointless if I live it my way, and for a time I got really horribly depressed because I know that nothing I do in this life will make a difference. But if God planned my life, and knows who I am, then I do don't have to worry.

Thank you so much for that, really thank you *hugs*

But I think that such actions are necessary. I'm an quite sure that you follow only the parts you want to, after all, just look at Deuteronomy 13:6-10. It says, basically, to kill the infidels. I really hope you don't follow this one.

Well I would kill infidels but Jesus said, "He that is without sin among you, may cast the first stone" and because I'm not perfect and never will be I don't have the right to judge or punish people.

The bible then goes on to say that we need to love people, because works without love is nothing

1 Corinthians 13:1-3
"1 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

What is love? is it sex or giving someone pleasure? nope

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

So I guess what i'm trying to say is that the old testament proves how much we're in sin, and the new testament is our saviour.

Anyway I hope this wasn't too long
God bless you

 

[RipleyCountyChristian]

Wow....that is powerful stuff there. Your response has made me happy too. Got some chills from reading it.

a verse cRIO posted got me thinking and I made a post about i earlier...it has turned into a really good topic that I hav grown from...you all should read it. it is good stuff.

http://www.christianforums.com/t7529578/

 

[cRIO]

Psalm 139:2-6:
2Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.3Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.4For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.5Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

Sounds like omniscience to me. Omnipotence also: Revelation 19:6
6And I heard as it were the voice of a great multitude, and as the voice of many waters, and as the voice of mighty thunderings, saying, Alleluia: for the Lord God omnipotent reigneth.

So by definition, he already knows who will be saved and who won't, even before they are born.

Well I can imagine that would get pretty irritating after a while, especially if your serious when you do it =)

Like the Bible?

"If the first covenant had been faultless, there would have been no need for a second covenant to replace it." Hebrews 8:7

So why wasn't it perfect the first time? A perfect god should have been able to make a perfect covenant in one go. And if he didn't tell anyone the first was imperfect until Jesus came, maybe it's the same with the second.

It turns out that the first testament, proves to us how we are creatures of sin, and with all those commands no one could go to heaven.

Harsh, sending everyone that followed his supposedly perfect covenant to Hell.

I'm so glad God is in control...But if God planned my life...

...
That's kind of the opposite of free will.

So I guess what i'm trying to say is that the old testament proves how much we're in sin, and the new testament is our saviour.

And what about all the people that couldn't follow the second? Are they sent to Hell?

The problem, as I see it, is that if the New Testament overrides the Old, then why is the Old still the in Bible? Also, what happens to all the people born before the New Testament? Or even the Old, for that matter? And do people who followed the Old before Jesus still go to Hell? After all, they followed God's orders.

Finally, I cited part of the Bible as you saw to prove a point. You cited more of it to prove your point. We had different points, which shows that the Bible is inconsistent, if people can prove two contradictory points from it. A quote that is interesting, though I'm not able to find it's source: "The Bible is like a person - torture it enough and you can get it to say anything." Of course, it's meant metaphorically.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

Psalm 139:2-6:
2Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.3Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.4For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.5Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

That's a nice scripture, kinda makes me feel hopeful.

Sounds like omniscience to me. Omnipotence also: Revelation 19:6
6And I heard as it were the voice of a great multitude, and as the voice of many waters, and as the voice of mighty thunderings, saying, Alleluia: for the Lord God omnipotent reigneth.

That forms quite an image =)

So by definition, he already knows who will be saved and who won't, even before they are born.

It feels too bold to say so, but I think your right

Like the Bible?

Don't follow it if you don't want to cRIO, no-one is forcing you to.

I personally enjoy reading the Bible because I can feel the holly spirit moving around my person when I really dig deep into the scripture. Sometimes he feels my heart so completely it feels like my chest will explode or something.

So why wasn't it perfect the first time? A perfect god should have been able to make a perfect covenant in one go. And if he didn't tell anyone the first was imperfect until Jesus came, maybe it's the same with the second.

Well until there is a third testament, you should follow the testament God made with his people

Harsh, sending everyone that followed his supposedly perfect covenant to Hell.

Well it was the covenant made between God's people and Him, and I don't know the whole Bible word for word, so I'm sure that not everyone went to hell.

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That's kind of the opposite of free will.

I'm glad I don't have free will, if I did I would mess it up x]

And what about all the people that couldn't follow the second? Are they sent to Hell?

I don't know =)

The problem, as I see it, is that if the New Testament overrides the Old, then why is the Old still the in Bible? Also, what happens to all the people born before the New Testament? Or even the Old, for that matter? And do people who followed the Old before Jesus still go to Hell? After all, they followed God's orders.

Matthew 5:17
"Don't misunderstand why I have come. I did not come to abolish the law of Moses or the writings of the prophets. No, I came to accomplish their purpose.

So everything had a meaning and a place.

Finally, I cited part of the Bible as you saw to prove a point. You cited more of it to prove your point.

This isn't a competition if that's what you think

I just like quoting the Bible, that's all, it forms the cornerstone of my life.

We had different points, which shows that the Bible is inconsistent, if people can prove two contradictory points from it.

I didn't actually feel at any given point that we contradicted each other with scripture, it all made sense when you look at it in perspective

A quote that is interesting, though I'm not able to find it's source: "The Bible is like a person - torture it enough and you can get it to say anything." Of course, it's meant metaphorically.

Well someone once said that to me out of anger, but lacked the intelligence to prove the point.

I think whoever said that is wrong, the Bible is a beautiful book, and when people use their own theology to explain the verses then they might conflict but from my many years of being a Christian I havn't found contradicting verses.

Don't mistake correction for conflicting

 

[cRIO]

That forms quite an image =)

Yes, it does, doesn't it.

Originally Posted by cRIO
So by definition, he already knows who will be saved and who won't, even before they are born.

It feels too bold to say so, but I think your right

Yay for predestination.

Don't follow it if you don't want to cRIO, no-one is forcing you to.

Just wondering if it was meant to be taken literally as well

Sometimes he feels my heart so completely it feels like my chest will explode or something.

I feel that sometimes when I finish a level in a hard flash game /joke
But seriously, people of all religions feel that, or even those without religion (ie Atheists).

So what happens to all the people who didn't follow God before the Old Testament, or people who followed the Old Testament before Jesus? What about those who have never heard of Christianity?

I'm glad I don't have free will, if I did I would mess it up x]

Wow. So much for that. Does that mean that those that are saved could do anything? And those that are not might as well, as nothing could save them?

Matthew 5:17
"Don't misunderstand why I have come. I did not come to abolish the law of Moses or the writings of the prophets. No, I came to accomplish their purpose.

Okay, but you just said:

"If the first covenant had been faultless, there would have been no need for a second covenant to replace it." Hebrews 8:7

So has it or has it not been replaced?

This isn't a competition if that's what you think

No, just showing how the Bible can be contradictory.

I didn't actually feel at any given point that we contradicted each other with scripture, it all made sense when you look at it in perspective

I guess not if you don't believe in free will.

I think whoever said that is wrong, the Bible is a beautiful book, and when people use their own theology to explain the verses then they might conflict but from my many years of being a Christian I havn't found contradicting verses.

PSA 145:9 The LORD is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works.
vs.
JER 13:14 And I will dash them one against another, even the fathers and the sons together, saith the LORD: I will not pity, nor spare, nor have mercy, but destroy them.

MAT 1:16 And Jacob begat Joseph the husband of Mary, of whom was born Jesus, who is called Christ.
vs.
LUK 3:23 And Jesus himself began to be about thirty years of age, being (as was supposed) the son of Joseph, which was the son of Heli.

GEN 7:2 Of every clean beast thou shalt take to thee by sevens, the male and his female: and of beasts that are not clean by two, the male and his female.
vs.
GEN 7:8 Of clean beasts, and of beasts that are not clean, and of fowls, and of every thing that creepeth upon the earth, GEN 7:9 There went in two and two unto Noah into the ark, the male and the female, as God had commanded Noah.

The last two are even right next to each other. And how long was Noah in the ark anyway? And why, after the flood, did Noah take "of every clean beast, and of every clean fowl, and offered burnt offerings on the altar." (GEN 8:20) That would have caused their extinction!

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

Yes, it does, doesn't it.

Some of the descriptions in the Bible are really amazing =)

Yay for predestination.

hehe x]

Just wondering if it was meant to be taken literally as well

Well yeah , if you choose not to follow the Bible then it is your choice, I don't think anyone is forcing you too, unless you have one of those mom's that drag you to church every time it is open x]

I feel that sometimes when I finish a level in a hard flash game /joke
But seriously, people of all religions feel that, or even those without religion (ie Atheists).

oh? Well I never felt that when I didn't follow Jesus, I was depressed since before I could remember, and even the best things I could achieve were temporary so why be happy when tomorrow has a thousand more challenges?

So what happens to all the people who didn't follow God before the Old Testament, or people who followed the Old Testament before Jesus? What about those who have never heard of Christianity?

I don't know =], you seem to be rather upset about this point. The people who didn't follow God were wicked and as Death is the wages of sin they probably went to hell.

Wow. So much for that. Does that mean that those that are saved could do anything? And those that are not might as well, as nothing could save them?

Well they way I have it figured, is that many are called, meaning many have their hearts right to receive the gospel, and few are chosen.

and because God is God, I think that he knows how we will die and what we will go through, because we are still the clay but our situations form us, and as we can't really honestly say what is going to happen in a day, then we can't really control how we will turn out.

You seem to have a low opinion of our God cRIO, if you follow him, then don't let logic suffocate your faith too much.

Okay, but you just said:
So has it or has it not been replaced?

It has been improved and fulfilled by the second

No, just showing how the Bible can be contradictory.

ok =)

I'll answer the second half when I get back from church today

 

[cRIO]

if you choose not to follow the Bible then it is your choice

Just because I don't take it literally doesn't mean I don't follow it.

oh? Well I never felt that when I didn't follow Jesus, I was depressed since before I could remember, and even the best things I could achieve were temporary so why be happy when tomorrow has a thousand more challenges?

http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/nihilism.png

The people who didn't follow God were wicked and as Death is the wages of sin they probably went to hell.

Even if it was impossible for them to know about God?

You seem to have a low opinion of our God

I have a low opinion of the god you say he is, no offense

It has been improved and fulfilled by the second

So then not replaced?

I'll answer the second half when I get back from church today

Sounds good.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

Just because I don't take it literally doesn't mean I don't follow it.

Ok, do whatever pleases you

http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/nihilism.png

Cute image

Even if it was impossible for them to know about God?

I don't know

I have a low opinion of the god you say he is, no offense

I'm offended, but I guess I'll work it out later.

So then not replaced?

Improved, fulfilled.

PSA 145:9 The LORD is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works.
vs.
JER 13:14 And I will dash them one against another, even the fathers and the sons together, saith the LORD: I will not pity, nor spare, nor have mercy, but destroy them.

You do realise Psalms are a series of prayers and songs, I'm a little cautious of taking them as fact. Maybe the man who wrote that particular psalm was carried away in the praise he was giving God, and maybe he forgot that God is a righteous God who punishes evil.

MAT 1:16 And Jacob begat Joseph the husband of Mary, of whom was born Jesus, who is called Christ.
vs.
LUK 3:23 And Jesus himself began to be about thirty years of age, being (as was supposed) the son of Joseph, which was the son of Heli.

A quote I found online


":Because of the Jewish Levirite laws, both are correct, but in different ways. In Jewish law, if a man died childless, his brother was to marry the widow, and the first son born would legally be the dead man's heir (Deuteronomy 25:5-6). In the story of Ruth, we see that this was not limited to brothers; the nearest male relative willing to take on the responsibility would marry the widow."

And why, after the flood, did Noah take "of every clean beast, and of every clean fowl, and offered burnt offerings on the altar." (GEN 8:20) That would have caused their extinction!"

Maybe i'm being stupid but don't animals reproduce? or does the Bible say that they were sexually inept for the amount of time on the ark?

considering he was on the ark for over a year or something...

 

[cRIO]

Cute image

The point being that not everyone who believes in your god is depressed because "tomorrow has a thousand more challenges."

I'm offended, but I guess I'll work it out later.

I'm sorry. I was merely confirming what you said.

You do realise Psalms are a series of prayers and songs, I'm a little cautious of taking them as fact. Maybe the man who wrote that particular psalm was carried away in the praise he was giving God, and maybe he forgot that God is a righteous God who punishes evil.

You have a point. But the Psalms are part of the Bible.

":Because of the Jewish Levirite laws, both are correct, but in different ways. In Jewish law, if a man died childless, his brother was to marry the widow, and the first son born would legally be the dead man's heir (Deuteronomy 25:5-6). In the story of Ruth, we see that this was not limited to brothers; the nearest male relative willing to take on the responsibility would marry the widow."

Ok, but it still says that Jacob "begat" Joseph (I assume that means that Jacob was Joseph's biological father), and that Joseph was the son of Heli, which seems to say the exact same thing.

Maybe i'm being stupid but don't animals reproduce? or does the Bible say that they were sexually inept for the amount of time on the ark?

considering he was on the ark for over a year or something...

No, you're not stupid. That is something that I hadn't thought of. However, Genesis 7:17 says "And the flood was forty days upon the earth." Genesis 7:24 says "And the waters prevailed upon the earth an hundred and fifty days," as does Genesis 8:3: "after the end of the hundred and fifty days the waters were abated." Either way it was less than the gestation period of many animals.

 

[LivingforGod13]

This is hard to respond to... But I realize that I need to.
After 17 years of living in a very religious home, I'm still as lost as ever. There was a time when I was sure that Jesus was living and good... Well... Now I just don't have any faith in God whatsoever. I want him to pursue me. I don't know what to do. Life sucks without God.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

The point being that not everyone who believes in your god is depressed because "tomorrow has a thousand more challenges."

I understand that there are people out there who can turn anything into a challenging fulfilling situation, but unfortunately or fortunately I'm not like that. I need Jesus or life makes no sense to me, it would be far easier to simply kill myself if there was no God, because life is boring and hard.

I'm sorry. I was merely confirming what you said.

It's ok, don't worry about it.

You have a point. But the Psalms are part of the Bible.

True, but religions have been made apparently from the things Job's friends told him when he was suffering, after his family had things taken from him and stuff.

So you need to read the Bible in context

Ok, but it still says that Jacob "begat" Joseph (I assume that means that Jacob was Joseph's biological father), and that Joseph was the son of Heli, which seems to say the exact same thing.

Well I agree with the source I found online, because it makes sense to me.

What do you think?

No, you're not stupid. That is something that I hadn't thought of. However, Genesis 7:17 says "And the flood was forty days upon the earth." Genesis 7:24 says "And the waters prevailed upon the earth an hundred and fifty days," as does Genesis 8:3: "after the end of the hundred and fifty days the waters were abated." Either way it was less than the gestation period of many animals.

Something I found online -

"Noah entered the ark in the 600th year of his life, on the 17th day of the 2nd month (Genesis 7:11-13). Noah left the ark on the 27th day of the 2nd month of the following year (Genesis 8:14-15). Therefore, assuming a lunar calendar of 360 days, Noah was on the ark for approximately 370 days.
Noah was told to go on the ark and in 7 days it would rain. So Noah was on the ark 7 days prior to the flood adding to the 370 making it 377. '

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

This is hard to respond to... But I realize that I need to.

Why is that?

After 17 years of living in a very religious home, I'm still as lost as ever.

Religion is man made.

There was a time when I was sure that Jesus was living and good... Well...

Well he is alive, and he loves you.

Now I just don't have any faith in God whatsoever.

To increase faith the Bible tells us to the read the Bible.

Romans 10:17
"So faith comes from hearing, that is, hearing the Good News about Christ."

I want him to pursue me.

You need to actively pursue him, to pick up your cross and follow him daily.

I don't know what to do.

Pick up your Bible, start reading, and pray.

Life sucks without God.

 

[LivingforGod13]

Thanks for the advice unfit'for'swine. It's just really hard persuing him on my own. I rely a lot on a good church to help me connect and worship but I moved over a year ago and never reconnected at a new church because my mom has chosen a church I don't particularly like. Eh... I know that I need to be the one pursuing him and I know that all of it is my fault, for "failing" in my relationship with the Lord. I'm very stubborn, you see? I blame my failed relationship on God for taking away a very special person in my life. Lord knows it needed to be done. It still hurts.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

Thanks for the advice unfit'for'swine.

Your welcome

It's just really hard persuing him on my own.

Luke 9:23

23 Then he said to the crowd, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me.

It is hard, but it is worth while. Your probably talking to the semi-laziest teenager on earth, imagine how hard it is for me

I rely a lot on a good church to help me connect and worship but I moved over a year ago and never reconnected at a new church because my mom has chosen a church I don't particularly like.

I don't go to church, and if you have a Bible then you can simply spend time with Jesus any time you want =)

Eh... I know that I need to be the one pursuing him and I know that all of it is my fault, for "failing" in my relationship with the Lord.

Do something about it then

I'm very stubborn, you see? I blame my failed relationship on God for taking away a very special person in my life.

Blaming God? Um, I'm not going to respond to this particular part of the message, because even in the darkest hours of my life I never blamed God for anything, not when I was suicidal, depressed, a cutter, rejected by various people, for my genetic disorders, and rejected by the girl I loved. I've also been a social reject all my life because i'm weird or something.

Job 2:10
10 But Job replied, “You talk like a foolish woman. Should we accept only good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?” So in all this, Job said nothing wrong.

When something bad happens you need to praise him as well as in the good.

Lord knows it needed to be done. It still hurts.

All matters of the heart hurt, and you can be sure of it that they will always hurt, but Jesus's love is forever and always so don't neglect the one who will always love you because your hear hurts.

 

[LivingforGod13]

You know, I never used to blame God, ever. Not when my parents divorced, not when I was depressed, suicidal, or cutting (yeah we're a lot alike). But then I had a boyfriend who broke up with me because God was telling him to. This particular boyfriend I'd been with for about 2 years and so we were extremely close. He was my best friend. Ever since then, despite our attempts, we've not been able to be friends again. There are a lot of factors to the relationship and break up, though, and it makes it very hard to blame God. Still, I blame him because if it hadn't been for God, he wouldn't have broken up with me in the first place. Hehe, every time I tell more about my problems to you I realize how silly I am being. I always realize how silly I'm being when I sit down and talk about it and really analyze the whole thing. Well, I've been spending more time praying and what now and plan to spend more time in the word. Wanna help keep me accountable for reading? I have a hard time picking it up.

 

[LivingforGod13]

He was my best friend.

I actually lost quite a few connections when I moved about 4 months before the break up. I've not really found good friends that I can confide in since I moved and it's been over a year now. I've always been the chatty type and I process verbally so dealing with everything has been hard without good friends who care.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

You know, I never used to blame God, ever. Not when my parents divorced, not when I was depressed, suicidal, or cutting (yeah we're a lot alike). But then I had a boyfriend who broke up with me because God was telling him to. This particular boyfriend I'd been with for about 2 years and so we were extremely close. He was my best friend. Ever since then, despite our attempts, we've not been able to be friends again. There are a lot of factors to the relationship and break up, though, and it makes it very hard to blame God. Still, I blame him because if it hadn't been for God, he wouldn't have broken up with me in the first place. Hehe, every time I tell more about my problems to you I realize how silly I am being. I always realize how silly I'm being when I sit down and talk about it and really analyze the whole thing. Well, I've been spending more time praying and what now and plan to spend more time in the word. Wanna help keep me accountable for reading? I have a hard time picking it up.

Your problems arn't silly if you feel hurt by them.

and yes I can try and keep you accountable.

 

[Unfit'for'swine]

I actually lost quite a few connections when I moved about 4 months before the break up. I've not really found good friends that I can confide in since I moved and it's been over a year now. I've always been the chatty type and I process verbally so dealing with everything has been hard without good friends who care.

I process things verbally also, so I'm sorry for your lack of trustful friends.